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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 15, 2007 11:11:04 GMT
I sat on the bank of the lake, my knees drawn up to my chest.
Suddenly all I could think about was her.
And what I did.
What I've done.
Just one brief mention, lightly brushing on the subject, in one conversation with Peter, and I couldn't get it out of my head.
What I've done.
I can't get the screams, the shame, the pain, out of my head.
I should have told her, I should have warned her of what I was.
Now it was too late.
We were only 14.
She was only 14.
Way too young.
I couldn't stop her screaming in my head, Remus! No! It's me! Remus, please!
But there was no control, not on my part.
No control at the full moon.
And what if the same thing happens to Rin?
What if I end up hurting her too?
Then what will I do?
What I've done, will haunt me until my dying day.
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 15, 2007 20:07:45 GMT
"Ello poppet." I said, imitating the Pirates of the Carribean dude. (ooc:don't care that it wasnt out in '77 lol) "What's going on?"
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 16, 2007 8:56:04 GMT
"Nothing." I say miserably.
I wanted this out of my head, I wanted the screams out of my head, but they wouldn't go.
I couldn't get rid of them.
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 16, 2007 16:38:41 GMT
"Don't lie to me Moony. I know you too well, I can tell when you're lying."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 16, 2007 16:59:27 GMT
"I know." I sigh, "I never expected you to believe the lie anyway. I'm just playing for time I guess."
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 17, 2007 0:13:03 GMT
"What are you thinking about?" I asked as I sat next to him.
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Post by sorachicora on Apr 17, 2007 0:20:25 GMT
i was walking back to the common room when i saw remus and another boy. i walked over to him and said "remus have you see Sirius i need to talk to him about something." i turned to the boy sitting next to him and said "hi names Sora"
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 17, 2007 0:21:25 GMT
"Hey, I'm Peter." I said smiling at her.
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Post by sorachicora on Apr 17, 2007 0:35:17 GMT
i smiled back at him then realized that i still have to think of something about my left hand and tucked it behind my back "is remus all right?" i asked
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 17, 2007 0:39:23 GMT
I noticed Sora put her left hand behind her back and looked at her quizically. "That's waht i was trying to find out." I answered.
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Post by sorachicora on Apr 17, 2007 0:41:40 GMT
"oh by the way have you seen sirius?" i asked peter and thought 'please don't ask me why i hid my hand, please, o please'
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 17, 2007 0:44:00 GMT
"Ok. And no, I haven't seen him in a while. Why?"
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Post by sorachicora on Apr 17, 2007 0:47:17 GMT
"dam it to all hell and back i really need to find him bad" i said trying to advoid the subject 'why do i get the felling that he is going to ask me about my hand' i thought
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 17, 2007 0:49:00 GMT
"What happened to your hand?" I asked.
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Post by sorachicora on Apr 17, 2007 0:50:51 GMT
'crap' "nothing it was just a scrape" i said flinching at my tone it screamed lying
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 17, 2007 0:52:09 GMT
"Uhuh. Wanna tell me what really happened?" I asked. "And it's nothing against your lying skills, I'm just good at detecting stuff like that."
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Post by sorachicora on Apr 17, 2007 0:53:17 GMT
i sighed in defeat and sat down next to him and said "it's a long story"
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 17, 2007 0:57:23 GMT
"I'm all ears."
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Post by sorachicora on Apr 17, 2007 1:00:08 GMT
"ok when i was at my other school one boy was pised because the girl that he liked, liked another boy. so he went on a rampage yelling that he was going to kill him...... and he did" i stopped short on the story it hurt so much that i new he was gone. i tried to calm down but tears came down.
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Post by sorachicora on Apr 17, 2007 1:09:13 GMT
i calmed down some as i continued "that boy who was killed...... was my brother"
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 17, 2007 14:56:44 GMT
I looked away. "That's terrible. I'm sorry for your loss." I looked over at her hand. "You did that to yourself?"
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Post by sorachicora on Apr 17, 2007 20:55:14 GMT
i looked at my hand and said "yea i did molly took my pocket knife away from me so no more cutting for me. maybe i'll get serry to heal it for me" i got up and said "molly was right it is good to tell some things. see you later peter" i smiled at him and walked to the common room.
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 18, 2007 0:06:13 GMT
"Bye." I said, then turned to Remus. "So what's up?"
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 18, 2007 16:58:19 GMT
"Nothing's up." I say again.
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 18, 2007 18:55:53 GMT
"So what are thinking about?" I asked, sighing.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 18, 2007 18:56:58 GMT
"Bugger all. I've forgotten." I lie.
Ignoring the screaming, growing louder and louder in my head.
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 18, 2007 18:57:56 GMT
"No you haven't."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 18, 2007 18:58:32 GMT
"So?"
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Post by Peter Pettigrew on Apr 18, 2007 19:01:02 GMT
"What aren't you telling me?" I asked quietly, looking over to him.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 18, 2007 19:01:38 GMT
"What makes you think I'm not telling you something?"
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