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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 13, 2008 22:41:38 GMT
"Why are you doing this Maddie?"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 16, 2008 0:08:49 GMT
"Cos I have too," I say softly, the thought of finding Ian in the bathroom is in my head again.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 16, 2008 0:18:34 GMT
"Why? Why do you have to?" Yumi persisted. If maddie was going to do this to Yumi then she wanted to know why. And the reason better be a good reason.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 16, 2008 0:32:24 GMT
"Because I don't want Sirius to have to walk in on you half dead!" I shout, the image replaying in my head."Not like me.."
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 16, 2008 0:37:37 GMT
"Oh Maddie..." Yumi muttered running a hand through her hair, not sure of what to say to that. Yeah Yumi had thought about that happening, but she always sure to not to do it that deep. Well she used to..Lately she had just stopped giving a care. Yumi took a deep breath and leaned against the wall, looking up. "Maddie I'm not gonna get anywhere near half dead." Yumi said, even though she already had.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 16, 2008 0:41:18 GMT
"That's what Ian said too," I whisper softly, unable to get that image out of my head."Look what happened to him,"
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 16, 2008 0:43:59 GMT
"What happened to Ian, I don't understand." Yumi asked. SHe couldn't say he was fine. He was still cutting last time she saw him, but besides that he seemed fine. Yumi took another deep breath and rolled up her sleeves and started to rub her hands up and down her arms lightly. Yumi's arms were much worse than ian's, and wished that she didn't have to do this in front of Maddie but this was the only way to cool herself down. Get calm.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 16, 2008 21:09:24 GMT
I can feel my hands start to shake at the memory,"He..bleeding..bathroom.."
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 16, 2008 22:15:36 GMT
Yumi see's Maddie's hands starting to shake and she lets out a soft sigh. "Maddie...Just take a breath okay?"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 16, 2008 22:36:51 GMT
I shake my head, sinking into a chair."I don't want someone else to go through that."
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 17, 2008 0:04:22 GMT
Yumi takes a deep breath and sits in a chair next to her. "I really don't know what to do.." She mutters wraping her arms around herself.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 17, 2008 22:19:32 GMT
"I wish I could help," I whisper softly.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 17, 2008 22:44:01 GMT
"You shouldn't be burdened with this.." Yumi mutters
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 17, 2008 22:52:10 GMT
There she goes again, trying to help someone.
You've got a big heart sweets.
Swear that girl would befriend a rock if she could.
I could hear Jack, Keria and Noah's voices clearly in my head and my eyes start to sting.
That's what I did. I got inovlved, I got attached.
That was my biggest flaw at work too, I got too attached to my patients.
"No one should go through that alone," I whisper.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 17, 2008 23:00:34 GMT
Yumi took a deep breath. "Maddie-.." She starts but falls short again. What was Yumi supposed to say now?
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 17, 2008 23:20:52 GMT
You care too much MJ.
"I care too much, don't I?"
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 17, 2008 23:29:02 GMT
Yumi sits there and shakes her head. "No..." She says. "You're just not trying to send me to a mental home yet like all the other times I've been caught...And I'm not planning on running away this time. I don't know what to say."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 18, 2008 1:32:22 GMT
"Me yelling and trying to get you help won't do any good," I say softly,"It's up to you if you want help, I'm just a support system."
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 18, 2008 1:54:51 GMT
Yumi runs a hand through her hair sighing softly. "I-I don't know.." I mutter as Mia walks in. "Fay started to bite on Alexs toes so Alex started crying and then kicked Fay and now Fay's crying..." She says to Maddie and I.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 18, 2008 2:47:45 GMT
I glance, seeing Mia walk in.
I frown, hearing Alex start to cry. It was louder then Fay's. I knew that much.
Hauling myself up, and wiping my eyes with my sleeve I put on a brave face, picking up Alex."Aw, come on Tiger cub."
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 19, 2008 23:09:38 GMT
Yumi lets out a silent sigh and stands up walking in there, making sure Miawas out before her then picked up Fay. "Come on baby boy...Shhh..." Yumi soothed rocking him back and forth lightly.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 4:49:22 GMT
I hoist Alex higher in my arms, sighing softly through my nose as his cries got louder,"Alex..don't."
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 20, 2008 19:58:18 GMT
After a few moments Fay starts to caml down and his crying dies out. "There we go Fay.." Yumi mummers softly to him and sets him back in the play pin. She looks over and see's Alex is just crying louder. Yumi wraps her arms around herself, not sure of what else to say or do.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:04:11 GMT
"Baby don't." I whisper softly, as Alex just cries louder. I glance over at Yumi, seeing she's calmed down Fay.
It's cos she's a good mother.
"Alex...please.."
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 20, 2008 20:10:30 GMT
"Uh..You want some help?" Yumi mutters.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:15:27 GMT
I ingore her. I ingore the voice in my head.
I was a good mother.
Your a bad mother, can't keep lying to yourself.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 20, 2008 20:16:49 GMT
"Just relax...If you don't he'll keep crying." She mutters again, knowing that Maddie will probably ignore her this time to.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:21:04 GMT
I sigh softly, sitting down and trying to relax."Come on baby, please?"
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Post by Yumi Baker on Jan 20, 2008 20:24:55 GMT
"Try rubbing your thumbs on his back. Singing or humming might work to." She mutters sitting on the chair opposite to Maddie.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:36:04 GMT
I shake my head,"I..I don't know what to sing.."
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