confused (Ian)

[Arden Patricks]

I nod, not really sure what to say to that.

((Yep. That was a highly random bit of information, come to think it.))

[Ian Hunt]

I fall silent again, sighing softly, "Awkward silence."

[ooc-yeah, just a bit. lol.]

[Arden Patricks]

"Could be," I shrug, then realize that makes little sense. "Um...."
Gee, what to talk about?
I shrug. "Did you know Alexandra Foster, by any chance?" I ask thoughtfully, studying my fingers. "I think that she met Rowan once or twice."

((Shouldn't write down or say random thoughts... *shakes head*))

[Ian Hunt]

My throat tightens considerably at Rowan's name but I dismiss the feeling, trying hard to refocus on the question.
"Uh...yeah, met her once, I think? R-Rowan dragged me to some mind hunting thing that he'd organised with her, or something."

[ooc-fuck i have to go. my nose wont stop bleeding and i'm gonna call an ambulance. it's a bad one. transfusion time... ]

[Arden Patricks]

"Yeah, that was it," I nod, then glance over at him and note the way his voice shook on Rowan's name. "Sorry." I wince slightly. Why aren't you like that?

((Fuck... Well... see you later then. Enjoy the evil hospitalness.))

[Ian Hunt]

I immediately turn my gaze away from anywhere near her, looking into the trees as she looks at me.
"It's not your fault," I mumble.

[ooc-bleurk. hate transfusions. hate other peoples blood in me. makes me feel nauseous. but i'm okay. how are you this fine morning?]

[Arden Patricks]

"Sorry for bringing it up then," I mutter, shrugging.

(( Sounds very fun. But I'm okay as well. Really frickin' cold because it's several degrees below freezing and my dad had a fucking window open all night and I didn't realize... so I think that I am going to put on a sweater and socks now.))

[Ian Hunt]

"I would have thought of it anyway, everything...it's everywhere," I murmur, "There's always a sign, always a reminder. Everywhere."
I manage to force a very soft and insincere laugh, tearing my eyes away from the trees and glancing briefly at her, knowing this'd stop me from saying anything else. It was easier not to say anything else.

[ooc-oooh, cold. hope you've warmed up a bit now. we have a christmas tree! ;D ]

[Arden Patricks]

I grimace sympathetically, then nod. "Yeah, I guess there is," I say quietly.
Thought I was being stupid and mopey and dwelling on it too much with Andra. Maybe not.

((Yes, I am warmer now. Yay Christmas trees!))

[Ian Hunt]

"Sorry, it's hardly fair, right?" I shake my head slightly, "I shouldn't still be so...I don't know what the word for it is. It's not really fair."

[ooc-that's good then. and yup! stupidly we let pip let loose with fairy lights so now it looks like someone's sneezed lights all over it but it cheered her up.]

[Arden Patricks]

I frown slightly, and shrug. "It's... it's understandable. Of course you're still... whatever. Probably should be. Don't know what you mean by not 'fair.'"

((Lol... that's a vivid description. Whatever makes her happy though. ))

[Ian Hunt]

"Everybody else has lost someone, it seems," I shrug, "I don't think it's fair to still be cut up about it when other people are suffering worse."

[ooc-haha, it looks beautiful and yeah she's definitely happy. she's waving at me through the window. hamster's putting lights up outside and she's standing there trying to convince him to let her have a go with the ladder.]

[Arden Patricks]

I shrug. "Maybe... I don't know, maybe anyone who isn't still upset about people they've lost isn't being fair to those people. And it's not like you're... utterly wallowing."

((Lol... that's convincing of you. Um... and personally I think that perhaps Hamster should not give in there....))

[Ian Hunt]

"I guess," I shrug slightly, "It annoys me though, that people say it's okay to be miserable and let it all out or whatever, but then you do and you get told that you're not the only one that's lost someone and you should just grit your teeth and get on with it and then it just builds up and up until it's left a permanent mark and then it never goes away and you're stuck feeling a little more miserable every day until you can't take it anymore."
I stop talking, realising I hadn't taken a breath the whole time I'd been speaking. Then realise that I've never said anything like that before. I laugh slightly shakily, "Just ignore me, actually, ignore all of that. It was stupid."

[ooc-haha, thanks. and yeah, we agree with that. hamster said she could have a go on the ladder if she manages to spell onomatopoeia which there's no way she'll spell so she'll just stand on the lawn and swear at him until he's done. lol.]

[Arden Patricks]

I shake my head, not speaking for a moment. "No it wasn't. It's... it's right, really." I laugh slightly, without amusement.

((That's what I'm here for. ;D Lol. Quite brilliant of him then. You'd think she'd run and get a dictionary or something, though.))

[Ian Hunt]

I nod, "I suppose it is."

[ooc-yeah but she's pip and doesn't think ahead. she'll probably wake up in the middle night and think that she could have got a dictionary and then wake someone up to tell them that.]

[Arden Patricks]

I nod again. "People are contradictory like that. Tell you it's okay to have feelings, then tell you that it's not because they personally don't want to hear them."

((Ah... lol. And then probably get something thrown at her, of course.))

[Ian Hunt]

"This is why I don't get people," I shrug, "One of the reasons I don't get people anyway. Very hypocritical."

[ooc-naturally. well depends who she wakes up. lol. it won't be me though. it's a house rule that no one's allowed to wake me up with random thoughts. haha.]

[Arden Patricks]

"Yes, they really are," I nod. "I've never really liked most people."

((Hm. Make that rule yourself, by any chance? ))

[Ian Hunt]

"It's not that I don't like people, just that I get confused," I shrug, "But yeah, people are generally annyoing, I suppose."

[ooc-lol, no actually. my beloved phillipa nurse says that i have to rest and they're not to babble nonsense at me from 9pm til 10am because that's how long i should be sleeping for. xD ]

[Arden Patricks]

"With a few exceptions," I nod.

((*raises eyebrows* And have you been?))

[Ian Hunt]

"Very few," I add.

[ooc-no not really. it's bloody hard to sleep for 13 hours straight unless i've just had chemo in which case i can sleep for 24 hours straight. ]

[Arden Patricks]

"I suppose," I shrug.

((Yeah, I should think so. Tsk... unruly disobedient child again.))

[Ian Hunt]

I nod slightly, then fall silent again.
And conversation peters out again...

[ooc-i know. i'm such a rebel lol. ah, be back in a few, phillipa's here for more blood. ]

[Arden Patricks]

"Hm..." I murmur softly, but finding the sound almost unbearably loud in the silence. "I don't suppose you've ever had a conversation about llamas?"

((Yep... down with the system! *cheers half-heartedly* Blech, have fun with that then.))

[Ian Hunt]

"No, I've never had a conversation about llamas," I nod, corner of my mouth twitching slightly in a half smile, "Have you?"

[ooc-oh i did. *evil grin* apparently i'm being very difficult and awkward this evening. and phillipa reckons that i might behave better if she asks for a transfer so i get another nurse. lol.]

[Arden Patricks]

"Few times," I shrug. "And now that I think it, that was rather random without context.... A friend of mine, whenever our conversation dies, which is often... we usually just say something about llamas. Thought that it might help, I don't know."

((Hm... wow. You actually drove her away.... That is very impressive of you.))

[Ian Hunt]

"Oh...well how much is there to say about llama's anyway?" I ask.

[ooc-lol. well i think it's only fair that i should be able to ask her questions if she can ask me questions. it should be a two way thing, you know? if she wants to ask me if i'm tired or how my sex drive is, i should be able to ask back.]

[Arden Patricks]

I shrug. "Actually not very much. Mostly we just argue about whether we can feed them to our imaginary pet dragon or not. I'm in favor... he's against."

((Lol... well, okay then, I guess. I can see your point. I can also see hers, but yeah.))

[Ian Hunt]

"It's kinda cruel to the llama I suppose. But then again it's an imaginary dragon so I don't suppose it matters all that much, does it?"

[ooc-yeah, well i don't like her. i'd be nicer if i liked her but i don't. i'll be nice to the next one unless she's even worse.]