Last chance gone

[Gideon Prewett]

I sat on the edge of the lake, trailing my feet miserably in the water.
Throwing hunks of bread out to the squid.
I did the right thing, right?
It was right to push her away, right?
She'll be happy with her boyfriend.
She doesn't need me butting back into her life and confusing her.
It's better this way.
She's happier this way.
But I just blew my last chance.
"Last chance gone, Gid." I mutter dryly to myself, throwing more bread out to the squid.

[hoot]

"no it's not." i say sitting next to him. "it's never to late."

[Gideon Prewett]

"So says you." I say, bitterly throwing another hunk of bread to the squid. "Mr Oh-I'm-capable-of-maintaining-sucessful-relationships-and-I'm-all-happy-like..." I mutter to myself.

[hoot]

"ok you know i'm no good at relationships. it took me 19 years to find a girl that i didn't just want to shag with. every girl i've ever dated it was because i wanted to shag her. but now that i've finally found a girl that was different and i actually feel something for her, she had just left her husband. i'm not tat good. and gid, if you and isa are supposed to be you and isa then she'll leasve that dumb guy and come to you. she still loves you, but i know you understand where this is putting her. she's loved you most of her life, then people think that we're dead. now that we're bck and she's moved on, in a sense, her heart is being torn." i sigh and throw a rock out in the lake.

[Gideon Prewett]

"You don't get it." I mutter. "I told her to piss off basically. I told her to stop loving me because I didn't love her. The worst lie I've ever told, I have to say."
I throw more bread at the lake.