A Bit Confussed.

[Thorn R.]

I had ran. I didn't dare look back to see if either of them were following me. I could feel the burst of pain coursing through my veins. I hold onto my side where it hurt the most. 'Damnit' I think to myself still running.

I get to the lake and decide it's safe to stop. I try and catch my breath still having a hard time breathing. "God" I mumble to myself. "He just did it to torture me" I say bending down to sit back not all the way incase he came running after me. "I could so outrun him" I say and smile to myself a little bit.

I was confussed though. Ricky helped me even though he is a deatheater. "What the hell?" I ask myself still not being able to fit the pieces together.

And then there was Volkaric. "Volkaric" I say in a wisper and a tear runs down my face. I didn't want to blame him, and I hated myself for thinking it. Everyone who was evil wanted to kill us both at the moment and I couldn't help but think that it was only because I was with him.

[Remus Lupin]

I see Thorn sitting by the lake, a tear runs down her cheek.
"Uh, Thorn? Are you okay?" I ask stupidly, hovering nervously behind her so that if she wanted to be alone I could just leave.

[Thorn R.]

I turn around and see Lupin. I wipe my cheek "Yeah" I say queitly looking back down. I wasn't sure If I wanted to be left alone or not.

[Remus Lupin]

"Do you want me to leave?" I ask, half-gesturing behind me.

[Thorn R.]

I shake my head. "No, you can stay I don't mind" I look at the castle. "I'm not so sure it's safe for me to be alone anyways" I say with a sigh and wipe my cheek again as another tear falls.

[Remus Lupin]

I sit down next to her. "How come? Not that you have to answer, just thought I'd ask and I'm rambling so I'll just shut up and feel free to hit me for talking so much if you want."

[Thorn R.]

I smile a bit. Remus always made me feel better. "Heightington" I say with a glare. "He just about killed me a couple of minutes ago" I shake my head. "Can I ask you something?"

[Remus Lupin]

"Heightington..." I repeat. "Er...yeah, sure you can ask me anything."

[Thorn R.]

"Is it wrong to blame someone for something that they don't have control over?" I look at him. "I mean, Say that it is their fault, but they don't have a say in it being so....would it be wrong to blame them for it"

[Remus Lupin]

"Do you mean like the imperius curse? Or something else?"

[Thorn R.]

I look at him. "Something else" I say queitly. I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell everything, 'Would I be telling him something Volkaric rather me not?' I ask myself.

[Remus Lupin]

"Well, I don't really know. It's up to you whether you can blame or forgive. It's a personal thing, I guess."

[Thorn R.]

I look at him for a second. "I guess" I say and shrug "But what if I don't really blame him for it, I just think the present situation would be different without him?" I ask looking down. 'this sux' I think to myself


((Sry if it takes long to reply. I'm in the middle of writing a song. Lol))

[Remus Lupin]

"Different in a good way, or different in a bad way, or different in a just different way?"

OOC - lol, no problem. I'm on the phone so it might take me a while too.

[Thorn R.]

I look at him "What?" I ask "If I wasn't confussed before, I am now" I say with a slight smile.

((Ok, I don't feel as bad now lol))

[Remus Lupin]

"I don't know. Sorry. It made sense in my head, but it didn't when I said it." I smile slightly back. "Um...do you mean-...? I don't know, I've forgotten what I was trying to say anyway..."

[Thorn R.]

I look at him "No tell me"

[Remus Lupin]

"I forgot. It was something about what you said about things being different. But I don't want to pry so I won't ask questions, but you can vent if you want."

[Thorn R.]

"Maybe I wanted you to ask questions" I say not looking at him.

[Remus Lupin]

"Okay then, specifically, what's wrong? Not that you have to answer, but I have asked a question now."

[Thorn R.]

I laugh. then sigh. "Well, you know the whole deatheater situation and what not" I turn and look at him. "Well no one was bugging me, at all, and I perfectly fine with that" I take a breath. "But it seems that sense I've been with Volkaric, everyone wants to kill me, and now I feel bad, because I don't want to blame, and I'm not, but a part of me is?" I say the last part more to myself. I was confussed and this sucked. I look at him. "Is that wrong?"

[Remus Lupin]

"No, if it's how you feel, you can't help it. So it's not wrong. But maybe it's not him, maybe it's now we're older and chosing who's side we're on. No one tried to kill me before the Order, but I get stabbed in my dorm room, last week. That was a bundle of laughs. It might not be being with Volkaric at all." I say. "But that could all be completely wrong and I could be grasping the wrong end of the situation and just spouting a load of crap, so feel free to disregard everything I say to you."

[Thorn R.]

I laugh at him. "Thanx Remus" I say rolling my eyes. "I feel better"

[Remus Lupin]

"That's a first. If I were you, I'd feel worse for having talked to me. Sorry, I can't be of more, or any, help." I smile slightly.

[Thorn R.]

I laugh at him. "No, really" I say standing up "You were of help" I bow to him "Thanx, But I have to go now"

[Remus Lupin]

I nod. "Well, be careful, if people are after you and all. Be careful."

[Thorn R.]

I smile "I'll try" I say and start to walk away.

[Remus Lupin]

I sigh and lie back on the bank.