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Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 19, 2007 1:23:35 GMT
I walk silently into the funeral home, towards the coffins. Five in a row.
My throat becomes unusally dry as my eyes fall over all of the, stopping at Jack's. They hadn't found his body, it was just like my dad all over. I'm sorry Miss Speare. They haven't found your father's body.
I blink rapidly as an attempt to stop the tears that were threatening to fall. His body was probably blown to bits, that's why they haven't found it, I think bitterly, tucking a strand of hair back behind my ear.Just like mum's. There was nothing left.
"It's not fair," I whisper quietly to no one."This is not fucking okay. It's not going to be fucking okay." I mumble, brushing away some tears that were rolling slowly down my face. I glance over to Keria and the twins coffins. They looked so still, which was not like Emma and Tyler at all."I'm sorry." I whisper, voice cracking slightly,"I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I couldn't look after you." I turn my attention to Noah. God knows how hard Nathan was taking it, them being twins after all."No-No, never did anything to anyone. You didn't deserve this." I glance at the last coffin, the only one that was empty. Jack's coffin. "Why'd you have to go away?" I whisper quietly to Jack's empty coffin."I need you Jackie, I really do." I wipe some of my tears away,"This is not fucking okay."
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Nov 22, 2007 4:28:47 GMT
"Nothing in this world is even fair MJ." Rory says quietly from behind her.
She moves forward, holding tightly on to Johnny's hand."We're all going to miss them you know."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 23, 2007 2:19:13 GMT
I wipe my tears away, not wanting to let Johnny see me cry.
"Hey Row-Row." I mumble weakly. Glancing back at the coffins, I swallow the lump that had risen in my throat."He shouldn't be here. None of them should."
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Nov 25, 2007 4:02:49 GMT
"I know MJ," Rory mutters, putting a hand on her shoulder,"None of them should be here."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 25, 2007 4:36:13 GMT
"We could have done something." I whisper, tears forming in my eyes,"But we ran, like cowards."
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Nov 27, 2007 1:39:12 GMT
"If you stayed there you would have been there right next to all of them." Rory whispers, nodding at the coffins,"You're still here for a reason MJ."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 3, 2007 0:52:44 GMT
"For what reason?" I ask, tearfully trying to keep my temper."I don't have anyone anymore Rory. My parent's, murdered. Cousins, dying off one by one. All I have is two boys who'll probably end up hating me anyway. My boyfriend hates me and never wants to speak to me despite the fact I'm stilll crazy in love with him? My life is so.." I sigh, running a hand through my hair, trying to fight back the urge to tear my hair out.
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 4, 2007 2:12:48 GMT
"Oh sweetie," Rory says, letting go of Johnny's hand and wrapping her arms around Maddie, pulling her into a hug,"It'll all get better. Promise."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 4, 2007 2:43:06 GMT
"Not it's not Rory." I mutter into her shoulder, letting the tears I had been fighting to keep back fall."It's my fault. It should have been me Rory. Nathan hates me now, everyone does. Ian, Nathan, Sirius, Charlie, everyone."
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 4, 2007 23:11:04 GMT
"Maddie," Rory whispers, brushing the hair back off her shoulder,"They don't hate you sweetie, they don't."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 5, 2007 1:47:51 GMT
"They do," I mumble into her shoulder."They hav every right to."
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 6, 2007 1:59:49 GMT
"Madeline Jane Marie," Rory says sternly, taking her younger cousin's face in her hands."You listen to me, this is not your fault alright? It's not. They don't hate you either."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 6, 2007 2:52:11 GMT
"How do you know?" I ask, my voice sounding so much like a three year old's, it scared me.
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 8, 2007 4:24:58 GMT
"Cos I do," Rory says reasurringly,"Trust me, alright MJ?"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 8, 2007 18:29:15 GMT
I nod weakly, wiping my eyes,"Okay Rory,"
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 11, 2007 1:43:23 GMT
"That's my girl,"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 11, 2007 20:39:59 GMT
I can't help but laugh weakly, then glance back over at the coffins.
"It's so surreal," I mumble,"I don't think I want to come back to any more of these."
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 14, 2007 0:41:29 GMT
"Let's hope we don't have to. At least, not til we're all old and gray."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 2:00:34 GMT
"And wrinkely, can't forget about that."
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 15, 2007 15:01:12 GMT
"Oh yes, not looking forward to that," She laughs lightly.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 16:00:28 GMT
"Haha, you'll get wrinkles before me." I grin.
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 17, 2007 1:46:56 GMT
"Your a horrid little girl Jane Marie,"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 17, 2007 23:12:49 GMT
"Not a little girl anymore Madison." I grin back.
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 18, 2007 23:50:05 GMT
"Ouch, the middle name." She chuckles.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 19, 2007 22:50:50 GMT
"Yours is better then mine."
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 25, 2007 16:39:37 GMT
"Is not,"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 27, 2007 0:28:06 GMT
"Is too, stop it, I'm not having this conversation," I laugh weakly.
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 28, 2007 1:47:16 GMT
"What conversation?" Rory grins innocently.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 29, 2007 17:22:06 GMT
"I hate you Lorelei,"
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Post by Lorelei Warren on Dec 30, 2007 2:30:48 GMT
"Right back at you my dear Madeline."
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