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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 1:47:38 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 1:47:38 GMT
"Yeah, that too. Anything to keep our minds off the bad stuff."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 1:48:55 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 1:48:55 GMT
"Until it catches up with you," I mutter under my breath, then shake my head. "Sorry... bit of a pessimist. And also rather contrarious."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 1:51:19 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 1:51:19 GMT
"I try not to think off all the bad stuff."Even if it is all around me.
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 1:54:05 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 1:54:05 GMT
I nod. "Does keep you happier," I agree. "Better than wallowing, at least."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 1:59:25 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 1:59:25 GMT
"I'm not one for self-pity, doesn't do anyone any good."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 2:00:54 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 2:00:54 GMT
"No, not really," I agree. "It tends to go hand-in-hand with self-disgust or hatred, actually. Which is kind of a contradiction, but there you go. It sucks."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 2:08:09 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 2:08:09 GMT
"Self mutilation too, that's doesn't help anyone." I mumble.
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 2:15:36 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 2:15:36 GMT
I cross my arms rather abruptly, then feel stupid about it.
"Maybe it does sometimes," I shrug. "Helps get the feelings out rather than numbness... but no. It probably doesn't help in the long run. Just a quick fix."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 16:31:45 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 16:31:45 GMT
"I don't understand why people do it sometimes," I mutter, thinking back to Ian."I just..."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 16:33:32 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 16:33:32 GMT
"Just... one of those things, that some people do and others don't," I shrug.
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 16:49:38 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 16:49:38 GMT
"Yeah, guess so."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 16:54:34 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 16:54:34 GMT
I nod, staying quiet as there doesn't seem to be anything else to say to that.
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 16:56:57 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 16:56:57 GMT
"Well, this got awkward fast,"
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 17:05:51 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 17:05:51 GMT
"Tends to happen, yes," I nod. "Sometimes it can be rather difficult to talk about anything of substance that's not awkward."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 17:14:09 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 17:14:09 GMT
"That narrows down conversation topics."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 17:19:26 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 17:19:26 GMT
"Quite a bit," I nod. "Sometimes it seems there are only about three people in the world I can have a real, actual conversation with. There's always a forbidden topic or two with everyone else."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 17:27:53 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 17:27:53 GMT
"Really?" I ask,"What are they?"
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 17:32:52 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 17:32:52 GMT
"The forbidden topics?" I ask, then shrug. "Oh... lots of things, really. Depending on the person."
Can't mention anything remotely related to Logan around anybody else.... Can't mention several other people around Logan. Can't talk about torture or dark things with most of my friends, or anything unhappy with some of them. Can't make Laken cry again, or tell Chance anything that might worry him....
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 17:36:35 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 17:36:35 GMT
"Wow, so it really narrows it down then."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 17:48:07 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 17:48:07 GMT
"Sometimes, yes." I laugh slightly and without any humor. "Some subjects are touchy 'cause they'll make people angry... others because they'll get worried or cry. And so, you just can't talk about half the things you want to most of the time. I mean... there must be certain things that you don't tell certain people. And it keeps you from actually talking."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 19:26:13 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 19:26:13 GMT
"Really depressing if you think about it."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 19:28:04 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 19:28:04 GMT
"Maybe a little." I shrug again. "You have topics you can't talk about with people?"
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 19:34:15 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 19:34:15 GMT
"Yeah, I do." I nod.
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 19:35:51 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 19:35:51 GMT
"Can I ask what they are?" I shrug. "Or are they thins you can't talk about with anyone?"
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 19:55:25 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 19:55:25 GMT
"My mum and da." I say softly,"I don't like talking about them a lot with people."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 20:00:01 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 20:00:01 GMT
"Oh..." I nod. "I guess that's understandable."
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 20:16:38 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 20:16:38 GMT
"What about you?"
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 20:18:16 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 20:18:16 GMT
I pause a moment, puzzled. "What about me?"
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 20:34:21 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 15, 2007 20:34:21 GMT
"Got anything you don't like to talk about?"
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Boo!
Dec 15, 2007 20:37:29 GMT
Post by Arden Patricks on Dec 15, 2007 20:37:29 GMT
I laugh slightly. "Uh... well, yes." I shrug. "Nothing that I don't want to talk about... just things i probably shouldn't. Who my best friend is, anything related to either suicide or... well, anything Dark." I shrug again.
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