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Post by Dorcas Meadowes on May 29, 2007 0:02:26 GMT
I sit down on the ledge knowing I won't fall since I never fall. I wait for Fabian to come up.
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Post by hoot on May 29, 2007 0:04:32 GMT
"hey." i say walking up. "be careful." i say seeing her sitting on the ledge.
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Post by Dorcas Meadowes on May 29, 2007 0:07:39 GMT
"If I wanted to fall of, I would jump. My balance is too good. Tell me what its like life as an order member. I'm part of it so you don't have to worry. Its one of the only things I care about and I'll do anything to help the cause. I just don't know where to start." I say.
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Post by hoot on May 29, 2007 0:16:53 GMT
"well make the leaders know you ready to do anything at anytime." i start. "but know that they take that seriously. i mean they send me to the british country side for three years with no contact with my friends or family." i chuckle with a bit of bitterness. "but the real thing is, are you afraid of death?"
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Post by Dorcas Meadowes on May 29, 2007 0:21:37 GMT
"Death? Not afraid really. I've got this kind of feeling that I'm going to be next. Slowly all my friends are being killed, and I'd rather die heroicly then of old age." I say.
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Post by hoot on May 29, 2007 0:22:58 GMT
"then that's all you have to tell them, well not the whole you being next thing, which you won't, but tell them that your willing to help and your not afraid to die. there are a lot that want to help but there are few that want to help and arren't afraid to die."
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Post by Dorcas Meadowes on May 29, 2007 0:26:38 GMT
"Thanks. You plan on getting back into the order?" I say.
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Post by hoot on May 29, 2007 0:35:22 GMT
"well the plan was for me 'to be dead' for a long while, but jerami really messed that up so i'm 'alive. i don't know if i should i can't leave amalia, her mums gone and she's got no one else. i mean she has isa and sirius and loads of other, but i want her to grow up with her dad seeing as she can never grow up with her mum."
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Post by Dorcas Meadowes on May 29, 2007 0:39:37 GMT
"You have a kid? Thats nice. I don't really like little people much though." I say.
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Post by hoot on May 29, 2007 0:44:23 GMT
"yeah i didn't much either," i admit, "but here came amalia so i kinda have to. but i love her." i smile
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Post by Dorcas Meadowes on May 29, 2007 0:48:03 GMT
"Its good. Somepeople would have just sent their kid to an orphanage." I say.
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Post by hoot on May 29, 2007 0:51:30 GMT
"i'm not that heartless. i've had to see some kids in orphanages while i was drifting around, and i would never put that on any child no matter what." i sya and chuckle slightly, "gidieon even tried to bring a small boy and girl with us once"
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Post by Dorcas Meadowes on May 29, 2007 0:53:47 GMT
"Awww. I can't belive it. Your able to talk about your dead brother as if nothing happened." I say.
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Post by hoot on May 29, 2007 0:56:25 GMT
"because he made me swear not to dwell on his death before he died. he made me swear on everything we had been through and our family that i would live a happy life. i talk about the good times and laugh at how much fun we had. cass i'm still in grief, but i'm doing out his last wish." i say
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Post by Dorcas Meadowes on May 29, 2007 1:00:20 GMT
"Wow. I don't think I would ever be able to do that." I say.
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Post by hoot on May 29, 2007 1:03:09 GMT
"well that's what being a prewet is. we hide our pain and grief just to not bother thoes who love us. luckly(sp?) for molly she's learning how to let things out unlike i never have and gidieon never did."
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Post by Dorcas Meadowes on May 29, 2007 1:06:17 GMT
"Yeah. Molly was misreable before she let somethings out." I say.
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Post by hoot on May 29, 2007 1:15:34 GMT
"we're all like that, sad to say. i can only hope my daughter isn't."
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Post by Dorcas Meadowes on May 29, 2007 21:34:05 GMT
"Not me. I'll talk about everything! But I'm still misreable." I say.
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