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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 6, 2007 23:30:16 GMT
"It's fine." I mutter."Fine."
Yeah, sleeping with the bastard is just fine
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 6, 2007 23:31:59 GMT
"Right..." I nod, biting my lip. You knew you shouldn't mention him... just couldn't keep your mouth shut, could you?
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 6, 2007 23:36:11 GMT
"You know him?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 6, 2007 23:39:04 GMT
"Ah... I... yeah. Yes." I nod. "He... he was my best friend 'til I was about twelve."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 18:41:21 GMT
"Oh...wow."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 19:38:19 GMT
I laugh slightly, a little nervously. "Yeah... I don't often tell that to people." Especially considering what your boyfriend did when he realized we were still friends.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 19:42:03 GMT
I can see why.
"Oh, wow, I'm just amazed that you were friends with him,"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 19:45:29 GMT
I shrug. "He was a good friend when we were kids... very protective," I laugh, then cut it out with a cough. "Little creepy, maybe, but... that's just how we grew up."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 19:57:46 GMT
"Oh, well yeah." I say trying not to voice my opinion of him.
"If you were friends I suppose."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 20:00:40 GMT
"Yeah," I say. "I'm... sorry if he ever did anything to you... he gets a bit... carried away sometimes."
Ah, fuck... that sounded just a bit too much like defending him... but it's true.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 20:05:18 GMT
I snort disbelievingly then stop,"Er, yeah well. It's okay."
Him fucking torturing you is okay? It's not fucking okay!
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 20:14:12 GMT
"Yeah," I say again, dropping my eyes to the table and putting a hand to the side of my neck without quite realizing it. Just a little bit carried away. "You hate him?" I ask simply.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 20:15:45 GMT
I glance up at her, then back down at the table.
"Yeah, just a bit." I mutter honestly.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 20:20:05 GMT
I nod. "Most people do... hard to work out if he deserves it or not."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 20:38:17 GMT
"Depends on who your talking to." I say,"Just..-don't let anyone make up your mind about him okay?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 20:43:08 GMT
I nod and smile slightly. "Not much problem there... my mind pretty much refuses to make itself up no matter what sort of evidence I get. People tell me that he tortured them or that... he killed his brother, and I think of all the ways they could be wrong. People tell me that he's decent or I think of something on my own, some memory, and I start thinking of the evidence that a minute ago I tried to say was fake."
I laugh slightly, then shake my head. "I'm sorry... I didn't mean to..." I wave my hand around, not finishing the sentence.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 20:48:08 GMT
"It's fine. You listened to me, now it's my turn."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 20:52:21 GMT
I shrug. "If you say so... although you didn't talk very much." I shake my head. "And I think I've got it figured out, although the answer is pretty fucked up. I keep having the same arguments and I don't think it's changing anytime soon."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 20:57:44 GMT
"So your head messing with you huh? Do you like him?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 21:05:33 GMT
I shrug. "He's still my best friend. I mean... well, he's still Logan. Just like when he was my best friend. And... well... if I can forgive Chris, and decide that he's partially in the right... but also partially to blame... then I guess they're both equal and yeah...." I pause, trying to figure out if all that made sense. "Yeah, I like him. I like my old friend. My head dislikes the fact that everything's now a big smeary gray mess, that's all."
You babble quite a lot.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 21:13:18 GMT
"Wow, lot of your mind huh? Must be pretty crowded in there." I laugh softly tapping the side of her head,"Well, you just got to sort it out and decided for yourself, like me and Ia..-Chris. Everyone will tell me if he's right for me and other tell me to stay away from him, and trust me I get the second one a lot more. Espeically from my own family. But..-you jsut need to trust yourself, make the right decision and stick with it."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 21:20:19 GMT
I nod somewhat distractedly, then twitch a smile. "Even when that's contradictory? When the right thing to do will cause you to do something else that's the wrong thing to do?" I shrug. "It just doesn't make sense, you know? The bad guys can't be good guys and both sides can't be right."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 21:22:09 GMT
"Just throw all logic out the window, that's what I do," I smile weakly,"Nothing ever makes sense in this world, it's how it is. Life's not a fairy tale, with good and bad guys. They're just people. People that make choices like everyone else, sometimes they're bad ones or good ones."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 21:37:14 GMT
I nod and let out a deep breath. "That's the part that makes me mad, though, that it's not all black and white... but let's talk about something else. Um... anything good going on in your life?"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 21:38:16 GMT
"Life is never like that hun," I laugh without humor."Don't I wish. No, nothing good."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 21:40:29 GMT
I wince. "Nothing at all?" I ask hopefully.
And it used to be... but that's just 'cause I was stupid....
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 21:43:57 GMT
"No, not really."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 21:50:04 GMT
"Hm," I say, biting my lip and looking down at the table. Well... that's cheery, then.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Oct 7, 2007 21:56:29 GMT
"It'll get better, always done." I mutter trying to stay postive.
Oh who are you kidding? Your boyfriend hates you it's not gonna get better
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 7, 2007 22:03:22 GMT
"Hope so," I nod. "Although the always is a little disturbing."
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