Strength

[Madeline Speare]

"Lucky me." I smile weakly,"I'm not gonna have to pay you am I, 'cos I'm already paying Jack, the bastard, not family discount."

[Arden Patricks]

"No... only if you waste my time by not saying anything." I laugh slightly. "Bastard... he should definitely give you a discount."

[Madeline Speare]

"Oh, well in that case wha'ts your price?" I ask, smirk tugging at the corners of my lips,"Yeah, I know, hit him and called him a girl when he told me he wasn't giving a discount."

[ooc-bbs, 'rory' wants to rp for a while, says I've been hogging the computer all night.]

[Arden Patricks]

"Hm..." I grin a little. "Why do we girls insult ourselves so often by calling idiot men girls? There's something wrong with that." Then I get serious again and sigh. "I'm not telling you the price until I'm sure you're a hopeless case... can you at least tell me a little of what's wrong?"

((*sigh* Those who own the computers can never hog them... it's a simple matter of physics.))

[Madeline Speare]

I can't help but laugh,"Yeah, guess that is sort of wrong, remind me never to call my cousins girls again, it's an insult to womankind." I stop laughing, looking back down,"...The baby.." I mutter quietly.

[Arden Patricks]

I laugh at the first bit, then eye her sympathetically as my smile disappears. "You had a baby?" I prompt quietly.

[Madeline Speare]

I shake my head, eyes fixed on the table.
"No.." I whisper quietly,"Miscarriage."
You feel that? It kicked! That's our baby...

[Arden Patricks]

That's terrible, I think, vividly imagining how much it would hurt, and knowing I probably don't have a clue.
"That's terrible," I say, instead of 'I'm sorry.' No one ever wants to hear 'I'm sorry.' I start to say something else but I'm not sure what, so I just shrug and let her talk.

[Madeline Speare]

I nod slowly,"Second time too." I mumble.
"First time, didn't know I was pregnant, and..-we ended up losing it." I mutter not wanting to go into how I lost it the first time.
"Then, this one, it wasn't planned or anything, and we're not exactly..kid people." I explainm eyes fixed on the table.
"But, we had just gotten to the point when we were actaully a little happy about it," I stop, my throat becoming unusally dry,"We felt it kick."

[Arden Patricks]

I wish that I wasn't always so emotional as my heart goes rather painfully numb and my eyes fill up with tears. I don't know what to say to that and casually wipe the wetness from my eyes, thinking it probably won't help her much if the 'psychiatrist' starts crying. I still don't know what to say, however, and wait to see if she wants to talk about it any more.

[Madeline Speare]

I put my arms on the table, resting my head ontop of them,"Your taking it harder then I did." I mutter quietly.

[Arden Patricks]

I laugh slightly. "Sorry.. too sensitive." I pause. "And I wouldn't say that... maybe you just didn't notice how hard you were taking it," I shrug.

[Madeline Speare]

"Nothing wrong with that." I mutter.
"You sound like Jack, kept going on about how the whole killing myself was about the baby, but it's not."

[Arden Patricks]

I stay silent a moment to make sure I don't say anything stupid, then shrug. "So what was it about then, if not the baby?" I ask quietly.

[Madeline Speare]

I keep my hands clapsed ontop of the table,"Let's just say, it's about someone, who's suppose to be dead, and that said person isn't. And he's mad. Real mad."

[Arden Patricks]

"Ah," I nod, immediately thinking of Logan and then thinking I'm being ridiculous.
But why would that make you try to kill yourself?
"And this person's been messing you up?" I ask, frowning.

[Madeline Speare]

"He's back." I say quietly.
"And he shouldn't be. Eight months, thought he was dead." I mumble.
"And he's real mad."

[Arden Patricks]

I bite my lip. "Yeah, that's pretty bad," I agree quietly. "Why is he mad, though? You do something to him or is he just psychotic?"

[Madeline Speare]

"Yeah, it's real bad." I mutter.
"Said something along the lines of being unfaithful, fucking bastard's one to talk." I mutter, then pause realizing I had said too much.

[Arden Patricks]

I frown slightly. "Are... we talking about your boyfriend here?" I ask, confused and grasping at straws.

[Madeline Speare]

I sigh and shake my head,"No, not the boyfriend." I mutter.
You'd better tell someone.
"The husband."

[Arden Patricks]

I choke on something that might have been a laugh, then nod. "I... see..." I say slowly. "So you're married?"
Well, that would explain the husband, Arden.

[Madeline Speare]

I nod slowly, a huge cloud of guilt felt as if it had been lifted off my shoulders.
"Arranged marriage." I exlpain.

[Arden Patricks]

"Oh..." I grimace slightly. Dodged that one when I said that all our children would be inbred and they hexed me.... I remember all of a sudden. "So... can you get out of it at all?"
And how did that drive you to suicide?

[Madeline Speare]

I shake my head,"Been married for two years." I mutter."No getting out of it."

[Arden Patricks]

Well... killing him maybe....
But I squash that thought. "When did you find out? It seems... a new development."

[Madeline Speare]

"Found out what? That I was married? I've always known, just thought the bastard was dead." I mutter,"And he's not, and he's back, and he's mad."

[Arden Patricks]

"Oh... right," I say, then shake my head. "But there has to be a way you can get out... don't your cousins have any suggestions? They're... older, might know something." I shrug.

[Madeline Speare]

I shrug,"They all thought he was dead too. So I'm basically fucked. And there's no way in hell I'm telling the boyfriend so yeah. I'm fucked."

[Arden Patricks]

I chew over my words again, then shrug. "Well... maybe you should. You can't get out of it alone... except the way you've already tried... and maybe they can help. I mean... what are you afraid of?"