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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 21, 2007 21:55:37 GMT
After i left the hospital wing i went back to hagrids hut to see if remus wanted to continue our little talk.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 21, 2007 22:00:14 GMT
i ran out into the courtyard and see him standing there. "you!" i yell running down to him. "why the hell did you do that? couldn't you see that i didn't want it fixed?" i yell. him being about eight inches taller than me didn't help me in this argument. at all. "and why do you think i was talking about you when i damned sirius? the only way i would damn you is because of this!" i say.
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 21, 2007 22:03:34 GMT
"I didn't think you were damning me." I say looking down at her "I did it cause you don't need to hurt yourself on purpose."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 21, 2007 22:11:28 GMT
"now see i didn't do it to myself, sirius did. and i didn't want it fixed because i derserved that pain! why didn't you leave me and let me feel it?" i ask calming down a little.
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 21, 2007 23:31:22 GMT
"Because no one should beat themselves up for anything. Not even if it was their fault." my tone soft and a bit sad
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 21, 2007 23:32:34 GMT
"i derserved it. i derserved more." i sigh now forgetting about my anger.
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 21, 2007 23:44:41 GMT
"If you don't mind me asking why do you say that?"
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 0:21:08 GMT
"i don't mind." i say "your the first person to even care why i wanted this damn pain in my side." i chuckle bitterly. in my mind i was battleing weather or not to tell him. i had just met him and i barely knew him. i always had this wall i put up and i could barely trust anyone. should i trust him? something inside of me wanted to trust him, but things from the past won't let me trust anyone. "can i trust you?" i ask looking up to him.
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 0:24:43 GMT
i nod "You can"
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 0:30:56 GMT
"i hate myself. i used to have a drinking problem. a.. a.. a big one. i would get drunk every night and one night. something happened. somethng bad. it was one of the worst things i could have done...." i sigh, "after that i told myself i wouldn't ever get drunk again in my life, and then i did. i hate myself. for getting drunk andit." i say feeling a tear drop. great now i was crying in front of him. "i hate myself." i say again.
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 0:35:33 GMT
i wipe the tear from her check "You shouldn't say that." I say looking down. "Is there a reasong you started? If so hate that. Hate the reason you do what you did." i say getting a bit angry
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 0:40:09 GMT
as he wipes my tear i smile up at him, weakly, but still a smile. "when you say hate the reason you mean hate te reason i got drunk right?" i ask. his anger kinda got me worried. "are you ok? you sound angry." i ask holding back tears. now it was in my mind now. i felt one fall but i wasn't letting anymore fall. i never cried.
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 0:42:25 GMT
i shake my head to clear my head "Yeah i'm fine...sorry." i look back at her "Yeah thats exactly what i mean." i notice she stopped crying "You shouldn't keep it in."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 0:47:11 GMT
"i got drunk because of my brothers dieing. they were.. they were my life. i loved them. then they died. taking most of me with them..." i sigh having more and more trouble holding tears back. "and i can't let it all out, i'm such a mess. theres to many tears i want to fall but i can't let fall. besides, i don't think you want to have to see a girl you just met cry her eyes out in front of you." i say with my voice cracking.
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 0:50:02 GMT
"I'm sure your brothers wouldn't want you doing this to yourself." i say "And i don't mind if you cry."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 0:52:19 GMT
for some reason i listened to him and let the tears fall. it felt like they would never stop. i put my head down in my hands and cried, cried, cried, and cried some more. "why do i trust you so much?" i manage to croak out between sobs.
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 1:32:10 GMT
i hug her and rub her back "I don't know why."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 1:36:40 GMT
i hug him back and cry on his shoulder. "i'm sorry." i say softly now starting to calm down. "i think this may have been the first time i've cried since my brothers died." i chuckle bitterly.
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 1:38:23 GMT
i laugh "Its fine."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 1:41:39 GMT
"now i'm going to have many sleepless nights wondering what you did to make me trust you so much." i laugh wiping my eyes. "i don't even trust remus that much, he's never seen me cry like that before. arthur hasn't even. he's never even seen me shead one tear." i chuckle bitterly.
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 1:43:42 GMT
"Ehh don't worry about it." letting go "I guess i'm just a trustful person...and to tell you the truth i'm usually not this nice or touchy."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 1:46:32 GMT
"i'm sorry you had to see that." i laugh, "and you know what. your right something about you just says that people can trust you." i laugh. "hey can i ask you something?"
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 1:48:43 GMT
"If its about this scar." pointing to my right eye brow "No, Anything else yes."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 1:51:26 GMT
"didn't notice that." isay. "don't worry about it. and don't ask about this scar and we'll be ok." i laugh pointing at my scar on my forehead. "but anyways. one how in teh world did your parents come up with your name?" i chukle, "and two what was up with you and remus before?"
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 1:57:29 GMT
i pause "My parnets didn't give it to me. I changed it so i'd have one less thing to remind me of them." i pause to think. "and to your second question I was just poking some buttions to see if what i heard was true. Which it looks like it is." i smile
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 1:59:18 GMT
"ok. i don't like my parents much either," i laugh, "and could you not mess with remus about that? please?" i ask. "but how'd you find out?"
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 2:02:31 GMT
i think for a bit "I guess i can not mess with him about it. And how did i find out you ask. Well i'm a magical creature freak and he shows all the signs."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 2:05:36 GMT
"man, why are all of my friends smart?" i ask. "so tell me about yourself. i've got no life seeing as arthur is to shy to even hang around me without blushing like mad. " i laugh, "or i can talk. i don't care."
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Post by Volkaric D on Apr 22, 2007 2:13:34 GMT
"I'd rather you talk." Walking over to a bench and sitting
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 22, 2007 2:17:50 GMT
"ok.." i say thinking of something good to talk about. "well i'm crazy. really i am." i laugh, "i've driven a car into teh whompping willow." i chuckle, "twice." i add.
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