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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 13:44:02 GMT
i jump into the lake forgetting about my clothes i jump in and dive deep deep deep into the bottom of the lake not careing just screaming to myself in my head 'I'M NOT THE ONE! I CAN'T BE I CAN'T I WONT I CAN'T BE!i cross my legs and then i sit there now leveitating in the water and thinking and holding on the the strong pwoer i now have ganied from this 'i lost it i shouldn't have it iand now i don't want it its not mine its hers! why did she give this to me i don't want it at all!'i want her to take it back' 'she can't though because shes dead i killed her with my own hands i loved her and i killed her my own little sister all because of that stupid side of evil i have that kills without thought i killed her for her power i wanted it as a demond and now i have it as this this monster......' the water shifts i surface 'Whos there?!'
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 16:26:50 GMT
i flip my hair to the side. ''Just me Charm.'' i smiled
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 17:09:50 GMT
'i love it when you do that' i smile 'i didn't mean to do that i will never use it again the way i got it is why i don't want it.' i sigh
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 17:11:28 GMT
''Its okay Charm.'' i said. ''i understand.''
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 17:22:28 GMT
'jamse....' everything wen black i managed to get out 'i love you' to him before i passes out
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 17:24:34 GMT
''Charm.'' i whispered and pulled her in my lap. i pulled a loss strand of hair out of her face
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 17:26:59 GMT
'.......' i sat there in hiss lap him stroking my hair in the night he knew i would be ok so he held me there untill i awoke in the morning.
i awake in his arms
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 17:28:19 GMT
''Morning Charm.'' i said smiling down at her
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 17:29:16 GMT
i smile and wihsper 'i love you jamse' i stroke his cheek
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 17:31:59 GMT
''Love you too.'' i whispered to her
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 17:33:44 GMT
i colse my eyes 'mmmmmmmmmmm i love hearing you talk james i makes me smlie to hear your vocie.' i tell him
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 17:35:28 GMT
I smiled. ''I like hearing you talk.''
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 17:37:25 GMT
' i hate hearing me talk i don't learn anything if i talk but when you talk i learn everything.' i tell him
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 17:39:38 GMT
i smiled. ''Okay Charm.''
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 17:41:03 GMT
' look at you...' i turned away and blushed the way his eyes looked in the morning sun the way he talked to me as if he never wanted to let me go. i loved that about him
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 17:44:14 GMT
i held her closer.
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 17:45:30 GMT
he can make the world stop i sat there in his arms never wanting to let go
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 17:50:50 GMT
''Charm?'' i whispered. ''DO you think im the same person as you remember me.''
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 17:52:04 GMT
' yes james i see you as no different then before. why?' i ask him
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 17:54:33 GMT
''No reason.'' i said
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 17:57:54 GMT
'why did somthing happen to you in the ten years you were gone that i need to know about i know you welll you can't lie to me james.' i say looking at him upset
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 18:00:23 GMT
''Well...' i said. ''I dont know how to explain it.''
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 18:01:55 GMT
'i lestin well and i learn from you tell me and i will learn and lestin with silence and wait to ask you questions after i promise.' i say telling him to go on
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 18:06:05 GMT
I nodded. ''the first year i left, i changed.'' i paused. ''i became an outcast to the magical world, and the muggle world.'' i said. ''Charm, i killed innocent people. I dont want it to happen to you.''
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 18:10:25 GMT
'what do you mean?' i say scared and worried for him 'why did you?" i asked with a tear rolling down my cheek
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 18:14:20 GMT
''I can honestly say, i dont remember.'' i said
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 18:17:52 GMT
'we both have this side of us james that we can't contorl that has huge masses of power stored inside of rage and anger but when relesied when can't control it james we can't protect them from it thats what happened to my sister my little 5 year old sister.' i sobb
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 18:20:29 GMT
''Hun.'' i said. ''Its okay.'' i whispered. ''Serenity did that too.''
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Post by Xan Alexzander on May 13, 2007 18:22:52 GMT
'oh james.' i yell and bawl out crying in his arms 'what are we going to do' i scream and hug him tighter 'james what is going to happen to you and me?' i say crying harder into his arms.
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Post by James Smith on May 13, 2007 18:24:15 GMT
i held her tighter. ''I dont know.'' i said
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