all your fault

[Arden Patricks]

I nod, swallowing dryly and suddenly finding tears in my eyes all over again. "I think I'll stay out here then," I say quietly, sinking down to the floor just outside the door, and wondering vaguely why no one else is here at the moment.

((Wow. Yikes. That's very sad.))

[Riley Pearson]

I nod and take a seat down next to her.
"I went up tp look at her..." I said quietly, looking to the floor instead of at Arden, and swallowed hard before continuing, "I saw Riyann..." I said as my eyes watered again, "As if it wasn't bad enough.." a tear fell down my cheek and I rubbed my arms slightly, still staring at the floor.

[[ it is... ]]

[Arden Patricks]

I smile at him shakily, eyes welling up. Another friend of Andra's....

[Riley Pearson]

"Why is all of this happening?" I asked moving my stare to the wall infront of me.

[Arden Patricks]

Because it's a stupid fucking war and Hogwarts isn't as safe as it's supposed to be because of all the idiot children who decide they should take part?
I shrug, and glance over at the door. Maybe karma's really fucked, or off taking a vacation.

[Riley Pearson]

I sigh slightly and swallow again not really having anything to say.

[Arden Patricks]

I press my head against my interlaced hands, resting on my knees.
"She wasn't s'posed to be here," I say quietly. "The rest of her family's hiding, but... she wanted to stay in school." I give a short, teary laugh. "Stupid perfectionist. Overachiever."

[Riley Pearson]

I looked over at Arden, "I didn't know that..." I say quietly.

[Arden Patricks]

I nod. "Yeah... it kind of occurred to her after a while that she maybe shouldn't advertise the fact that her whole family was wanted by deatheaters...." I take a deep breath and wipe my eyes. "Not that it did any good."

[Riley Pearson]

I nod faintly not saying anything, and let out a breath running my hand threw my hair.

[Arden Patricks]

I shrug, taking my head off my hands so I can examine them, trying to hold back floods of memories.

[Riley Pearson]

"Finally convinced her to drop some classese too..." I said quietly with a sad sounding chuckle.

[Arden Patricks]

"Yeah, I know," I say quietly, nodding, feeling suddenly guilty for the fact I'd been eavesdropping. "She finally... she was making all these lists, yelling randomly and laughing, trying to decide which ones to drop. That's the last time we hung out, the group of us, and then... she said that she was going to get some air...." I can't think about the rest of it, and quickly close my eyes, willing myself not to think.

[Riley Pearson]

"Oh.." I said quietly, my eyes watering slightly again. "I didn't know that's exactly what happend.."

[Arden Patricks]

I shake my head quickly. "I don't know... maybe it wasn't. Something like that, but... I don't know." I close my eyes again, not wanting to think and sort it out the way I normally would when one of my memories got jumbled.

[Riley Pearson]

I nod my head, "okay" I say, "I wish I could've gotten to know her better"

[Arden Patricks]

I nod. "Me too," I say a little shakily. "I still don't really remember most of our friendship, up until the last few months."

[Riley Pearson]

"That must be.. hard... and really annoying.." I say softly.

[Arden Patricks]

"Yeah..." I laugh very slightly. "Couldn't really have a better friend though, even if it wasn't very long." I wipe my eyes again and take a shuddery breath. "I should... talk to Laken. She... they knew each other since they were little, she's a right mess...."

[Riley Pearson]

"Yeah.." I say nodding my head faintly again.

[Arden Patricks]

I close my eyes again, suddenly hit very hard by the realization that this isn't going to be over anytime soon. It's not temporary. Andra is dead and she's going to stay that way.
"You can go, you know," I say quietly. "I mean... you didn't really know her, you don't have to be here."

[Riley Pearson]

I shrugged slightly, "I don't mind staying" I say quietly, "But I can leave if you want me to"

[Arden Patricks]

I shake my head. "No... I don't really want to be alone here. I just thought that maybe you'd have somewhere else to be." I shrug, looking down at my hands.

[Riley Pearson]

"Nowhere but here" I say with a faint smile, putting my hand on her shoulder.

[Arden Patricks]

I smile very faintly in thanks, still looking at my hands, still feeling worse than I think I've ever felt before.

[Riley Pearson]

I scoot a little closer and put my arm around her again staying silent.

[Arden Patricks]

I rub my arms absently, noting vaguely that it doesn't seem to have worked for very long this time around, and put my head on Riley's shoulder, incredibly grateful that somebody is there.

[Riley Pearson]

I leaned my head on top of hers. "I really do think it's gonna be okay..." I say quietly, "Just give it time..."

[Arden Patricks]

I nod as best I can when my head is kind of trapped like it is, and swallow hard, then pull away - there's only so much close contact with people I can stand, no matter what the situation. "I' not going to do anything stupid," I say quietly, hugging my knees. "That's a switch. So I guess that it will."
I don't want it to!

[Riley Pearson]

"I didn't say you were going to" I said softly.