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Post by Molly Weasley on Aug 8, 2007 14:56:09 GMT
"she should know that..." i say, "there's got to be something we're missing. maddie wouldn't do something stupid like this."
ooc-four times? lol. i told my friend about when..umm..someoen i frogot the name of...ran out fo the house naked to scare away some guy or something and he tried it cos some really weird dude was hitting on me. he got naked and someone called the police. it was funny as hell. but a little weird...i forgot what i didn the other times. problay one of my pranks. and lol it's the ony song they've written? my friends and i are tyring to start a band. i'd be the drummer and screamo person. i've written one song. but no one's ever seen it.
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Post by Charlie Owens on Aug 8, 2007 15:01:38 GMT
"Something like what? She keeps saying he's a good guy, but-...he isn't. I saw what he did to Jen. I saw him-...she was burnt. Just like he did to me, but worse. And he slit her throat, Molly. He burnt her and slit her throat."
~lol. nice. you should. a band is great. they're getting pretty good now. normally they just do cover gigs at local places but they've started writing their own stuff and are trying to get signed. cool. what's your song about? you dont have to show it to me or anything, just wondering what its about and all that~
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Post by Molly Weasley on Aug 8, 2007 15:11:31 GMT
"i don't know charlie! but i know maddie wouldn't be with him if he was still exactly like he is, but i believe you. i know you wouldn't say this unless you were completly sure. i'm just...i don't know." i sigh and cringe when i hear what ian did to his daughter
~yeah that's cool. but i like that song. and i highly doubt that we'll get anywhere. we goof off to much and most of will probably be in jail by the time anyone will take us seriously. lol. and the song it's well...um...well.....look i don't trust people so be glad that i'm telling you. i had been really depressed at one point and slit my wrists and tried to kill myself a few times. i had gotten to the point to where i wasn't doing any of that shit anymore but now i'm getting back to it cos my parents are fighting again. like really fighting. my dad broke a chair and punched through the wall yesterday cos i told him to stop yelling. but anyways. i've thought about killing myself a lot latel. that's why i've stayed on here so much. to get my mind onsomething else. and one night about a week ago i wrote a song about how it's his fault and my moms fault why i do all this. cos it is. i mean it's not fair that i have to go through all this crap.
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Post by Charlie Owens on Aug 8, 2007 15:20:36 GMT
I look down at the table, "I don't know either. I just want to protect her, she's the only family I've got left now. I-...I don't know what I'd do if something happened to her."
~oh, i get what you mean. well not exactly what you mean cos everyone's different and all. but i know the shit messing with your head making you feel like its the only option thing. that much i get. i tried it before too. few months back. everything just kind of got to me, i guess. being stuck in this fucking chair and loki not getting any better and james gone and sam going off the loop cos he doesnt understand any of it and dad getting pissed off all the time and mum leaving us like a total bitch and i know it just kind of gets fucked up sometimes. but i figure, we're put here for a reason, right? and if we can battle it through everything then it's gonna be great. and if that doesnt work then at the very end we can look back and say 'fuck you it's over now' which'll be most satisfying. thats kind of how i look at it. but it'd be kind of hard for me to put it in a song because i'm mostly illiterate. lol. but if it's any consolation i get what you mean kind of.~
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Post by Molly Weasley on Aug 8, 2007 15:32:03 GMT
"yeah maddie is like family to me and i can't stand to lose anyone else...if i have to lose another friend or family member..." i say not wanting to think about it.
~yeah...i don't think anyoe can fully know what i'm going through. i mean i'll never understand what you go through. i just can't. i mean i've got people wanting to help me. not my fucked up family. they don't care. it's just the people that want to help me want me to talk and i hate talking to people about things like that. because i know if i talk i'll see them again and they'll have the 'i'm so sorry' look in their eyes. and my damn pride get's in the way and i won't admit i need help. i'm pretty happy with myself now. i've got a razor and it's been in my back pocket for about a week now andi haven't cut yet. i've wanted to but my mom vows to rule my life or send me to a mental hospital if i do it again. but i was looking at some myspace icons and there was this one the was a moving icon with a girl and she put a gun in her mouth and pulled the trigger and it showed the bullet going through her head. it's not that the thing itself freaked me out. i'm just afriad that i'll try that. i don't want to die at the moment but i do want die..i'm just afraid that it won't just be an attempted suicide. i mean i'm 13...and the worst thing about all this is cos i told myself i wouldn't let things get this bad again and here they are that bad again.~
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Post by Charlie Owens on Aug 9, 2007 10:52:08 GMT
"Guess it's just best not to think about it."
~you've just got to hang in there, i know it sounds stupid and overused but there's not much else anyone can say. just got to hang in there and have faith that things will get better because they will in the end. that's all you can do.~
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