Angel?

[Madeline Speare]

I wipe my tears away,"I have too. It hurts too much Angel. When everywhere you look something reminds you of the person you love. I love him so much Angel..I.." I couldn't go on. Tears were rolling down my face.

[Angel Simons]

"Hey hey hey," Angel said softly, hugging her tightly. "It's okay to cry, I'm here. I know you love him but running away from your problems isn't going to help matters. They'll only get worse and you'll curse yourself everyday for running. You have to sort things out, not run."

[Madeline Speare]

"I don't know what else to do Angel. I...I have never felt this lost, this helpless before." I sob.

[Angel Simons]

"Things will get better, you'll see. But you can't run from your problems, trust me, it doesn't help," Angel said, smiling sadly and still hugging her. "You have to sort things out with Ian. He'll understand, he's nice like that. He knows what you're going through and he does still love you. Whether you think he does or not. You can't run, it won't help at all."

[Madeline Speare]

I snort with laughter at the nice comment but smile weakly,"It's just hard Angel." I mutter taking the two way mirror of the my pocket.
If you ever want to talk to me, just say my name, and I'll be there.
Okay, I will.
"I want to fix things." I say quietly, running a finger over the mirror."I just don't know if there's anything left to fix."

[Angel Simons]

"I know it is, but it will be worth it when things are sorted," Angel said. "There is so much left to fix! You have your child still, I'm not going to let you give that up whether you want to or not. And you love each other so much. You've both been through too much to give up what you have. I would kill to have a relationship like your's. You are so lucky and you don't seem to realise that you have something worth fighting for. I swear if you don't sort things out then I'm going to step in and sort things for you."

[Madeline Speare]

"A relationship like mine?" I snort disbelievingly."I don't see what's so great about it."

[Angel Simons]

"You have someone who loves you more than anything in the world and vice versa. If that's not a good relationship then I don't know what is. Sure, you have your problems but everybody does!"

[Madeline Speare]

"Yeah, we all have our problems.." I nod quietly.
I love you, Ian.
I love you too, Maddie.
I look down at my hand, seeing the scar running across my palm
Good to know I'm not alone on that then.
You're not alone on any of this. I'm here. Our blood, our bond, remember?
I feel the tears start again, curling my hands into fists resting them on my knees.
What are you doing?
Burning you into my memory.
Why?
'Cos I never want to forget you.
You won't. Neither of us are going anywhere.
"God, what I have I done?" I sob looking down tears rolling down my face again.

[Angel Simons]

Angel hugged her again and sighed. "It's not too late to solve this. You can still work things out and you're going to."

[Madeline Speare]

"I'm scared Angel. I'm really scared." I whisper sounding so much like a three year old, it scared me even more.

[Angel Simons]

"Why are you scared?" Angel asked quietly.

[Madeline Speare]

"What if it doesn't get fixed? What if I screw up again? Angel, I'm scared of being alone."

[Angel Simons]

"Everyone is scared of being alone but you and Ian love each other way too much for it not to be fixed. Trust me on that one. You won't screw up again. Even if someone does then you'll work it out like you always do."

[Madeline Speare]

"Why are you helping me?" I ask quietly,"You like him too." I look up,"Don't act so surprised, I kinda figured you did."

[Angel Simons]

"Because your happiness is a lot more important to me than some guy," Angel said, smiling. "I wouldn't do that to my friends. Never."

[Madeline Speare]

"That's the difference between you and me, I guess." I smile weakly,"He deserve someone better then me."

[Angel Simons]

"No he doesn't," Angel said. "You are perfect for him, all he wants. You are perfect for each other and no one is going to change that."

[Madeline Speare]

"Opposites attract and all that bollocks, huh?"

[Angel Simons]

"Yeah," Angel nodded. "All that bollocks."

[Madeline Speare]

I smile wiping my tears away,"Yeah." I say softly.
You keep me in my place. You know that Ian?

[Angel Simons]

"You really need to fix things with each other," Angel muttered, smiling at her. "Glad to see that you're feeling happier again."

[Madeline Speare]

I nod mutely, hands still gripping the mirror.
Just say his name..

[Angel Simons]

"Go on," Angel whispered. "Would you like anything? More water? Food?"

[Madeline Speare]

I put the mirror down on the talbe infront of me, brining my knees up to my chest hugging them tightly.
I want to go back in time, to before I said any of that, to before my child became father-less..
"You got any chocolate?" I ask hopefully.

[Angel Simons]

"But of course. And ice cream. Chocolate. Good for depression. Want both?"

[Madeline Speare]

"And peanut butter too."

[Angel Simons]

"Will do," Angel nodded, walking into the kitchen. She came out again with the chocolate, ice cream and peanut butter. She set them all down at the table in front of them and sat on the couch again. "Help yourself."

[Madeline Speare]

"Wrong move." I laugh slightly reaching for the peanut butter."You have know idea how many times in the past three days I've just wanted to throw myself out a window, I'm staying away from them though, don't trust myself, good thing happened though, taught myself how to swim, nearly drowned but I got it." I smile weakly.

[Angel Simons]

"Yay!" Angel said, smiling. "Do you like it? Just remember, in this house, if you break a window then your dead ass will pay for it. That should change your mind."