Angel?

[Madeline Speare]

I knock on the door lightly, wondering if this was the house.
I'd told Angel I'd come to visit her, hope she didn't mind it was a little late.

[Angel Simons]

Angel opened the door and smiled widely. "Maddie! Come on in!"

[Madeline Speare]

I smile weakly,"Hey there. Hope you don't mind, it's a little late."

[Angel Simons]

"Of course not!" Angel said, still smiling. "Is something wrong? You seem a little... Down."

[Madeline Speare]

"Fine." I say brushing it off."Just, haven't slept in a few days."

[Angel Simons]

"Still got a lot on your mind?" Angel asked, making way for her to come in.

[Madeline Speare]

"You don't know the half of it." I mutter coming inside closing the door behind me,"Wow, nice place you have Angel."

[Angel Simons]

"Thanks but it's nothing special," Angel shrugged. "Want a drink or something?"

[Madeline Speare]

"Water's fine. I say looking around, walking into the living room and sitting down on the couch.

[Angel Simons]

Angel nodded and went into the kitchen. She came out a few minutes later with two glasses of water. She handed one to Maddie. "Want to talk about something?"

[Madeline Speare]

"I broke it off with Ian." I say quietly,"And when the baby's born I'm putting it up for adoption."

[Angel Simons]

"What?" Angel asked loudly. "Why did you break it off with Ian? You don't have to put it up for adoption! That's the last thing you should do."

[Madeline Speare]

"I have to Angel. I...I can't be a mum I can't. Not alone anyways. And...well Ian and I just..we're not working. We're not. I found out some things and..I.." I look down feeling the tears start again.
Dammit Madeline Jane Marie, don't you dare start to cry, he's not worth it.

[Angel Simons]

"Hey hey," Angel said softly, sitting next to Maddie and putting an arm around her. "What did you find out? And I'll take your child, look after it. That way you can still see it if you want to. I'm not going to tell it I'm it's mother or anything. Just look after it unless you want it. It's better that way. Unless you and Ian get back together, that is."

[Madeline Speare]

"We're not. Not this time. I know we're not. After what I said...theres no way he'd take me back." I say wiping away my tears,"No Angel, I wouldn't want to put that burden on you. It's my mistake I'll deal with it."

[Angel Simons]

"What exactly happened?" Angel asked softly. "It wouldn't be a burden at all. I would look after it and you'd know it was being well treated and you could see it any time."

[Madeline Speare]

"Logan..Logan told me...everything. He..he killed my mum and da he said...and I believed him. I don't know why but I did....I started yelling..and.." I break down tears rolling down my face,"I never meant to say it...I'd take it all back if I could."

[Angel Simons]

"Do you believe Logan still?" Angel asked, rubbing her back softly.

[Madeline Speare]

"Of course not." I shake my head back and forth,"I don't know why I did, but I did. And I regret it."

[Angel Simons]

"He still loves you," Angel said softly. "You can still fix things. There's still time."

[Madeline Speare]

"There's nothing left to fix, after what I said...Angel I..I doubt he'll even want to speak to me. Besides I'm not sticking around."

[Angel Simons]

"What did you say exactly?" Angel asked. "It can't have been that bad."

[Madeline Speare]

"Angel, I accused him of killing my mum and da....yeah it was pretty bad." I say forcing a laugh, "I let Logan get to me, I took Logan's word over his."

[Angel Simons]

"It's not your fault. If you hear something sad that happened to someone close to you then you automatically believe it. Ian would understand. Besides, you still have the baby. Plus Logan was a good friend of Ian's before so what he could have said was true. You didn't know who killed them and someone told you it was Ian. You would have believed anything, just to find someone to blame. Maybe you did act on it wrong, just a little, but it's not your fault. Anyone would have done the same thing."

[Madeline Speare]

"It is my fault though. It just is. I did need someone to blame for their deaths, two years of not knowing, and then I knew who did it. And it was Ian, or at least that's what Logan said. I can't believe I actually believed him. Gid was right, I am too trusting. I have this whole thing, that I see good in people in everyone, that not everyone's as bad as they say they are. Maybe I was wrong, I'm too old for fairy tales now."

[Angel Simons]

"You just believed what you were told. It wouldn't have mattered who told you or who they blamed it on. I was trusting too, I believed him over Ian but things got sorted. And they still can for you as well. You still have the baby together, just use that as an excuse to talk. Then tell him how you feel and what happened. Everything will go right in the end, some fairy tales do come true. Trust me."

[Madeline Speare]

"He doesn't want this baby Angel, and in all reality I don't either. I'm scared and hurt because he promised...he promised he'd be here and now...I screwed my life up I'm not screwing this kid's life up too. I can't do it alone and everyone is telling me that they're going to help and I know that's true but at the end of the day, it's going to be me and the kid. Alone. In that big house of mine, and I can't do it. That's why I'm leaving, I can't stay here."

[Angel Simons]

"You can't leave! First Ian and now you! I'm not going to let you leave me!" Angel said firmly. "Stay here if you want to, move in here, just please don't leave! I couldn't deal with it if two of my best friends left. Please, don't go? I'll help you with the kid, I promise. Just don't leave!"

[Madeline Speare]

"So he's running too? Thought so. Angel that's sweet of you but I can't...not here. Not anymore. It'll be too painful, everything reminds me of him." I say tears starting up again,"Even right now, 'cos right now I'd be at home with him, sitting in his lap, agruing and laughing about something like we usually do. It hurts too much Angel, I can't..."

[Angel Simons]

"But you have to," Angel said sadly, tears gathering in her eyes for the third time in three days. "You can't leave here! I'd miss you too much. You. Mustn't. Leave!"