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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 20:55:46 GMT
[[Alright I'm bored so I'm fast forwarding a week or two.]]
I apparate right in front of Ian's and Maddie's house. I sigh realising that I never had been here in my entire time of knowing the both of them. I bite my lip a bit, knowing that once I told Ian or if Maddie was still here, her as well how they would take the good or bad news. It was all how they looked at it.
I wanted to move forward, but my feet wouldn't budge an inch.
Go on, Ian won't kill you. He said that he loves you.
But if Maddie answers the door, she might kill me.
When have you been afraid of anything but your father?
I sigh once more, forcing my feet to move up the walkway to the house. Once I got up to the door, I hesitantly raise my fist to knock on it, closing my eyes. Just do it, and get it over with Rubalyn. Finally, I knock on the door waiting to see who would answer it.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 21:09:16 GMT
I wince as someone knocks on the door. I can hear it from the kitchen although I'm sure the noise isn't loud. It's probably just because everywhere else is so quiet.
I decide whoever can wait a moment, while I finish what I'm doing and don't hesitate knocking back a couple of pain killers. My head won't stop aching today, and the persistant annoyance of my bruised jaw, courtesy of Shelby's husband, isn't helping matters.
I hate how quiet the house is. I really despise it.
I miss the sounds of Maddie walking around, singing to Alex under her breath, thinking I can't hear.
The silence means I'm even more aware of the sounds of my own footsteps as I walk back through the hall to the front door, pulling it open and then smiling slightly when I see who it is.
"Er...hey."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 21:14:54 GMT
I sigh somewhat of relief that it was Maddie and return the smile back. "Hey... umm. Can I talk to you about something? It's important..." I ask looking up at him, my voice shaking a bit. I shake my head trying to gain back some morsal of confidence.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 21:24:45 GMT
"Yeah, sure..." I reply, frowning very slightly, "Do you want to come in...?"
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 21:26:24 GMT
"Yes, I think that would be better." I say walking past him, avoiding his eyes. I walk into what seems to be a living room. I sit down on the couch, just looking at my hands, slightly shaking still.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 21:36:22 GMT
I close the door behind her, frown deepening when she's already walked past. I manage to smooth out my facial expression though as I follow her into the living room, sitting lightly on the chair opposite.
"Are you okay?"
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 21:39:47 GMT
I look up at him, slightly startled. "Yes and no... physically I'm fine. But..." I trail off, looking at my hands again. "I either have bad news or good news. I don't know how you will take it." I say with a frown, feeling a few silent tears, falling down my face. I had already told Jay about the situation and he wasn't thrilled at all. How could he? His wife was knocked up by someone else other than him.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 21:42:32 GMT
"It doesn't look to be good if you're crying Shell," I say tersely, unsure of what I'm really supposed to do to comfort her, "You can tell me."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 21:45:16 GMT
I sigh, wiping my tears off of my face. "Ian... I'm pregnant." I say looking over at him, staring blankly.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 21:49:07 GMT
"Ah..." I say slowly.
I pause a moment, waiting for something to come to mind to say other than the obvious stream of swear words.
"It's...uh...mine?"
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 22:00:24 GMT
I nod my head. "Jay and I haven't for weeks. It has to be yours..." I say softly.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 22:04:29 GMT
"Oh," I say awkwardly, then feel like I should apologise for this, "I'm sorry."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 22:06:57 GMT
"You're sorry?" I repeat him. I stand up and walk over to where he was. "You're sorry! That's all you can say?" I almost yell. I just look at him, feeling hatred at the moment, and nothing else.
You ruined your marriage for a 'I'm sorry'. That's wonderful Shelby. Just wonderful...
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 22:29:39 GMT
"What else would you like me to say Shell?" I reply, keeping my calm mainly because one of us has to.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 22:32:36 GMT
"I... I don't know." I say wrapping my arms around myself. "I don't know okay. How else am I supposed to feel when Jay is thinking of leaving me? I'll be left with my kids along with this one. Alone... again." I mumble, feeling the tears fall even faster.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 22:34:28 GMT
I drop my gaze. I don't know how I'm supposed to react to this when the same thing has happened to me. Except I don't even have Alex anymore either.
"You don't have to keep it," I suggest weakly, although I really really hate the idea.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 22:41:23 GMT
"Ian, I could never do that. Every child deserves to live, wanted or not." I say to him. I honestly didn't want this baby. That was a first. I was usually all in smiles, beaming and telling everyone the good news. This time obviously was different. I didn't want anyone to know that it was Ian's child too, not Jay's. Over time though, everyone would know anyway.
"Do you not want the baby? You don't have to worry about it if you don't. I'll be fine by myself, I'm used to it. Trust me." I say softly, sitting on the edge of the chair he was sitting on, looking out the window.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 22:45:39 GMT
"It's not that I don't want it," I reply, having to force my voice to keep level, "I'll be there okay. I'll help. However much you need me to."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 22:56:11 GMT
"Ian I don't need your help. I've practically raised eight to ten children on my own." I say turning around, my cheeks stained from the tears. "Do you only want this child because of Alex being taken away? That's it isn't it?" I say coldly, knowing I shouldn't have said that. But I was upset, and wasn't thinking through everything I said.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 23:01:47 GMT
"How-..." My voice falters a moment, "How can you say that? You honestly think that little of me?"
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 23:04:13 GMT
"No... I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. Honest." I say softly. I stand up. "Maybe I should go... I shouldn't have bothered you about this."
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 23:07:26 GMT
"No, I'm glad you did," I say, catching her by the arm as she makes to leave, "Thanks for telling me. I-I mean it. I want to...help. I'll be there, if you want me to be."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 23:15:16 GMT
I turn around slightly. "Ian, I'm practically alone now. I have no one, except Briar. She'll never leave my side..." I say walking up closer to him. "My biggest fear is being alone. I hate it. I just act strong for my kids and so everyone thinks I'm okay."
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 23:17:29 GMT
"You don't have to be alone. Shell, I'm here. I'm not going anywhere."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 23:19:50 GMT
I smile slightly. I stand on my toes and kiss him lightly on the lips.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 23:21:22 GMT
I kiss her lightly back.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 23:26:16 GMT
I break the kiss, looking into his eyes. "Sorry, I shouldn't have done that..." I say wanting to kiss him again though.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 23:27:56 GMT
"It's alright, I don't mind," I assure her off-handedly, although that's an understatement seeing as I'm actually quite glad.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 21, 2008 23:31:12 GMT
I stare at him slightly confused. "What you liked me kissing you?" I ask to clarify.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 21, 2008 23:33:04 GMT
"Well...yes," I nod.
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