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Nov 17, 2007 11:05:10 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 17, 2007 11:05:10 GMT
Rose ran up to Speare mansion, stumbling slightly and nearly tripping. Her heart was beating in her throat and strands of hair falling out of it's pony tail and streaming behind her. She practically fell against ther door, before hammering her fist on it a couple of times.
Nathan had been near enough hysterical when she'd run into him. She hadn't seen him cry since...she'd never seen Nathan cry, but now she had. Stammering something about Noah, and Keira and Jack. To her, this didn't look good, but before he could have told her anything more she'd started running and she hadn't stopped until she'd got here. She would see Jack for herself, and everything would be fine.
She just had to see him.
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Nov 17, 2007 18:12:38 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 17, 2007 18:12:38 GMT
I didn't want to be here. At all. I sat in the living room, crying and shaking.
It was just like loosing mum and dad all over again, but this time it was worse. Much worse.
Keria, Jack, Noah, Tyler and Emma. My stomach gives an unpleasnt jolt at the mention of the twins. Four years old..and dead. I lean forward, putting my face into my hands."I don't want to be here." I whisper quietly into my hands. This was the last place I wanted to be, it reminded me off all of them, of mum and dad, of my cousins, my neice and nephew, and Ian. It reminded me of him too. I sob slightly, hearing someone at the door, lacking the enegry to go open it.
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Nov 17, 2007 18:15:43 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 17, 2007 18:15:43 GMT
"Please..." Rose whispered to herself, hammering her fist into the door a few more times. The more time she spent standing here, the more knots twisted in her stomach, the less she could breathe.
"Open up!" She called through the door, shoving the flat of her palm hard against the wood, "Please!"
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Nov 17, 2007 18:19:41 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 17, 2007 18:19:41 GMT
I glance up, tear strained waving my wand from where I was to open the door.
I knew that voice, my stomach twisted unpleasntly. "Rose." I whisper quietly.
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Nov 17, 2007 18:27:29 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 17, 2007 18:27:29 GMT
She practically stumbled inside in her haste as the door opened, and without stopping to close it she sped down the hall, coming to a stop in the doorway and looking at Maddie.
She would have liked to have a more friendly greeting for her, having not spoken in a long time, but she couldn't find words to make one when she was feeling this way.
"Maddie?" She said uncertainly.
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Nov 17, 2007 18:33:53 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 17, 2007 18:33:53 GMT
I brush my tears away with my sleeve before glancing up at her. MJ, I love her. I do, don't care if she's in an arrianged marriage, gonna ask her to marry me. Jack's voice floats back into my head, my last conversation with him. I never even got to say goodbye, to any of them.
I meet her eyes, then break down again, shaking my head tears stinging my eyes.
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Nov 17, 2007 18:41:14 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 17, 2007 18:41:14 GMT
"Nathan-..." She said shakily, "he said-...he was crying-...Jack-...Maddie?"
She felt like she should be deathly pale but her cheeks were flushed from running here.
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Nov 17, 2007 18:45:49 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 17, 2007 18:45:49 GMT
"I'm sorry Rose," I whisper,"So sorry."
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Nov 17, 2007 18:47:01 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 17, 2007 18:47:01 GMT
"But..." A half formed protest tried to make it's way out of her mouth, but she stopped it realising it didn't make sense, "No."
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Nov 17, 2007 18:50:38 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 17, 2007 18:50:38 GMT
I shake my head, leaning forward again, tears threatening to fall.
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Nov 17, 2007 18:52:35 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 17, 2007 18:52:35 GMT
"N-..." She didn't get past the first sound of the word before she started to shake, and then her legs just gave out on her and she slid to the floor, putting her head in her hands.
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Nov 17, 2007 18:58:27 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 17, 2007 18:58:27 GMT
I move off my chair, wrapping my arms round her, pulling her up slightly,"I'm sorry Rose." I whisper."So sorry."
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Nov 17, 2007 22:04:16 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 17, 2007 22:04:16 GMT
"No," She cried softly, "No, he can't be-...there's a mistake-...he-...no-...."
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Nov 18, 2007 2:31:03 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 18, 2007 2:31:03 GMT
I feel my eyes sting, unable to look at her. He's really dead.
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Nov 18, 2007 21:14:09 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 18, 2007 21:14:09 GMT
She looks at her, desperately, "Maddie..." She whispers, "H-he promised..."
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Nov 19, 2007 1:08:24 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 19, 2007 1:08:24 GMT
My throat clenches shut as his voice floats back into my head. Look at me, okay Blondie? So what, you got two kids to look after, we're all here to help you. I'm gonna help you get through this okay? I promise."He promised a lot of things Rose." I whisper quietly."He just wasn't able to keep them."
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Nov 19, 2007 21:24:31 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 19, 2007 21:24:31 GMT
"It's not fair!" She blurted out, trying to stop tears she knew there was really no hope of stopping.
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Nov 20, 2007 23:34:45 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 20, 2007 23:34:45 GMT
"I know." I whisper quietly, not even bothering to hide the fact I was crying."It's not fair Rose."
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Nov 21, 2007 21:20:59 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 21, 2007 21:20:59 GMT
She put her hand to her forehead, casting a shadow over her eyes and closing them tightly. Dozens of pathetic phrases were uncurling in her throat, choking her, It's not fair...I want him back...why does this have to happen?
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Nov 22, 2007 3:36:03 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 22, 2007 3:36:03 GMT
Kaleb's voice rings out in my head. The good die young.
I shake my head, wiping away my tears. Not Jack. Not Noah. Not Keria or the twins. They didn't deserve to go like that. I sob softly, knowing crying wouldn't bring them back, but it was the only thing I had left to make me feel better.
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Nov 22, 2007 21:41:45 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 22, 2007 21:41:45 GMT
Rose forces herself to look up, knowing she wasn't the only one hurting, and puts her arm lightly around Maddie's shoulders, trying to think of something comforting to say that would sound convincing through her tears.
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Nov 23, 2007 2:13:08 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 23, 2007 2:13:08 GMT
I half register Rose's comforting gesture, before I wipe my eyes with my sleeve."We're complete wrecks, huh Rose?"
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Nov 23, 2007 21:29:34 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 23, 2007 21:29:34 GMT
She laughed, but she didn't think she'd ever heard a more pathetic forced laugh before in her life, putting her head in her hands then pushing her hair back off her forehead, "Yes, completely and utterly."
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Nov 24, 2007 1:31:58 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 24, 2007 1:31:58 GMT
I try to smile but it's no use due to the tears coming from my eyes."I don't know what I'm going to do without him."
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Nov 30, 2007 14:52:48 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Nov 30, 2007 14:52:48 GMT
"Me neither," She said softly, feeling extraordinarily guilty all of a sudden that she was feeling so awful about it while sitting next to a member of his family who should be feeling a lot worse, "I'm so sorry, Maddie."
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Nov 30, 2007 22:09:17 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Nov 30, 2007 22:09:17 GMT
"There was nothing anyone could have done Rose," I mumble quietly.
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Dec 3, 2007 21:31:08 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Dec 3, 2007 21:31:08 GMT
She tried to stop herself but couldn't prevent a small tight sob, "He's not supposed to die, Maddie."
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Dec 4, 2007 2:53:15 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 4, 2007 2:53:15 GMT
"No, he's not." I whisper tearfully."He's not."
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Dec 4, 2007 21:10:15 GMT
Post by Rose Eden on Dec 4, 2007 21:10:15 GMT
"What am I going to do?" She said softly, more to herself than anyone else. It seemed unthinkable that life would go on for tomorrow if Jack wasn't there. It wasn't right for him not to be there.
It had ached; loving him for so long knowing nothing could come of it. But it was agony; loving him when he wasn't even there anymore.
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Dec 5, 2007 2:03:28 GMT
Post by Madeline Speare on Dec 5, 2007 2:03:28 GMT
I take her hand, knowing the bond she and Jack had. It wasn't fair to Jack, to die without telling Rose how he really felt, it wasn't fair to Rose, to go on without knowing, it wasn't fair to anyone to go another day without Jack. It seemed like nothing was fair anymore.
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