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Madeline Speare
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Thoughts Jan 7, 2008 1:32:59 GMT

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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 7, 2008 1:32:59 GMT

Sitting outside on the porch I Tug the blanket closer around Alex.
He gives a small baby laugh, reaching up in the air.
"What are you trying to get Tiger Cub?" I laugh softly, kissing him on the forehead.
It still felt as if it was a dream, scared that if I got too attached that he'd go away. That this was all just a dream and when I'd wake up, Alex and Ian weren't real.
Don't think I'd ever mentioned it to anyone, that I was scared of loosing everything. Most of the time I was scared of dreaming.
Sounds so silly but it's something that's always in the back of your mind. Is everything around me just a dream? Is this really how things are? Endless questions with no answers, that how life seemed sometimes.
I pull the baby blanket Yumi made closer around him, not wanting him to get sick. Seems like you've got that mothering instinct. I smile, hearing Rory in my head.
Alex squirms slightly, he was getting fussy again. Like me, he never really liked staying still for too long. "Okay, okay." I mumble, moving him to the crook of my arm. He was still so tiny."Time for your nap anyway." I whisper, rocking him gently back and forth. Try singing to him, that might get him to go to sleep. I
bite my lip, trying to think of a song. None were coming to mind at the moment. The ones your mum use to sing you. Try that.
"We're soaring flying, there's not a star in heaven that we can't reach," I sing softly."If we're trying, yeah we're breaking free."

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Ian Hunt
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Thoughts Jan 9, 2008 22:05:01 GMT

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Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 9, 2008 22:05:01 GMT

I pause in the doorway on my way out of the house. I'm not sure if she'd want me to catch her singing to him again, seeing as she seemed to unwilling to sing to him before.
But now I'm already here so I can't just turn back around again.
So I just stay silent and still in the doorway, watching them with a small smile.

When everything inside me
Looks like everything I hate
You are the only hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 9, 2008 22:51:25 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 9, 2008 22:51:25 GMT Leaning back, hoisting Alex slightly higher in my arms,"Your Grandma Abby use to sing that to me," I mumble softly. I turn my head slightly, catching sight of Ian in the doorway,"You heard that, didn't you?" I smile weakly.
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 10, 2008 18:05:16 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 10, 2008 18:05:16 GMT "Yeah," I admit with a slight smile, "It was good."
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 0:13:16 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 11, 2008 0:13:16 GMT "It was nothing," I grin weakly,"Mum use to sing it to me a lot."
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 19:02:13 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 11, 2008 19:02:13 GMT I smile weakly, "So that's where you get it from."
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 21:38:57 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 11, 2008 21:38:57 GMT "I'm not that good," I laugh softly, rocking Alex back and forth.
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 22:11:45 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 11, 2008 22:11:45 GMT I grin slightly, "If you say so."
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 22:20:05 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 11, 2008 22:20:05 GMT I laugh softly, shaking my head back and forth."Going somewhere?"
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 22:27:26 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 11, 2008 22:27:26 GMT "Wasn't planning on it, no."
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 22:29:47 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 11, 2008 22:29:47 GMT "Just wandering around?" I grin slightly, hoisting Alex higher into my arms.
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 22:40:49 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 11, 2008 22:40:49 GMT "Mhm," I smile guiltily, half holding up an unlit cigarette, "Ill-thought out plan," I admit.
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 22:59:11 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 11, 2008 22:59:11 GMT I laugh weakly, pretending to be annoyed with him,"You know the rules, away from the house and away from the baby."
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 23:04:48 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 11, 2008 23:04:48 GMT "Yes, away from house," I gesture behind me, "And I guess I didn't really consider whether you and Alex would be out here..."
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 23:09:45 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 11, 2008 23:09:45 GMT I smile weakly,"Yeah, didn't think we'd be out here either, didn't want to be inside though, too many baby stuff lying on the floor."
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 23:11:41 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 11, 2008 23:11:41 GMT I smile slightly, putting my cigarette and lighter back in my pocket. "You alright?" I ask.
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 23:23:27 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 11, 2008 23:23:27 GMT "Yeah, fine." I smile,"Just tired is all, haven't slept well in days."
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 23:25:33 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 11, 2008 23:25:33 GMT "He'll start sleeping for longer soon though or something, then you can sleep again," I laugh slightly.
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 11, 2008 23:35:19 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 11, 2008 23:35:19 GMT "I know, I just miss sleep is all," I laugh.
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 12:18:47 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 12, 2008 12:18:47 GMT I laugh, "Yeah, me too."
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 12:32:50 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 12, 2008 12:32:50 GMT "He's be less fussy though, that counts for something."
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 12:34:37 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 12, 2008 12:34:37 GMT "It does, I guess."
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 12:43:29 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 12, 2008 12:43:29 GMT "Means a few more minutes of sleep for us."
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 12:46:34 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 12, 2008 12:46:34 GMT I laugh, "That's definitely good then."
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 12:58:29 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 12, 2008 12:58:29 GMT "See, told you." I grin, glancing down at Alex. He's stop squirming and is just staring up at the sky."Babies like staring, don't they?" I laugh softly.
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 13:01:37 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 12, 2008 13:01:37 GMT I laugh softly, "It's quite unnerving."
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 13:13:44 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 12, 2008 13:13:44 GMT "No kidding," I grin,"Kim use to do it all the time."
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 13:20:04 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 12, 2008 13:20:04 GMT "I remember that," I grin.
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

Madeline Speare Gryffindor 7th Year Dark mark Order member Stand on the edge with me, hold back your fear and see. Nothing is real til it's gone. Posts: 19,356	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 13:26:39 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 12, 2008 13:26:39 GMT "Think she got that from Gid," I laugh,"He'd sit there in the Great Hall, staring down people."
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Ian Hunt Slytherin 7th Year Dark mark I will save this empty space next to me like it's a grave, where we'll sleep eternally together. Posts: 21,248	Thoughts Jan 12, 2008 13:28:34 GMT Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by Ian Hunt on Jan 12, 2008 13:28:34 GMT I laugh, "I can imagine that."
	When everything inside me Looks like everything I hate You are the only hope I have for change You are the only chance I'll take

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