MOLLY!

[Isabella Knox]

I walk up the lane towards Molly's new house.
It was nice here in the country, but i couldn't really concentrate on my surroundings.
It was time for me to decide, and i needed help.
I see Bill playing outside in the mud, making my smile slightly at his content face.
I walk up to him "Hey Bill, where's mummy?" I ask him.

[Molly Weasley]

bill points over to where i was hanging laundry, which i was having to do ever few days as much as he loved dirt.

[Isabella Knox]

"Molly!" I shout, jogging up to her.
"I'm desperate, i need your help." I say. "I need help deciding."

[Molly Weasley]

"deicding on what?" i ask "are you ok?" i ask

[Isabella Knox]

"Deciding on who to choose." I sigh, i'd another one of my dreams again. Both Ricky and Gideon falling to their deaths because i'd taken so long to choose.

[Molly Weasley]

i nod my head. "come on, let's go and sit." i say and lead her over to the bech so i could still keep an eye on bill. "ok now let's see..you need my help to choose. let's start from the begging. tell me who you feel about ricky. everything you love hate think about ricky. everything you feel about ricky." i ask. "this is the only way to figure this out." i say

[Isabella Knox]

"Well after the Sirius situation he kind of swept me off my feet really, made me really feel loved. But then we had a massive arguement and i found him dancing with Marlene at the dance, but i mean it was only a dance right. He's a great guys, always kisses me a lot. But he's never really called me beautiful." I say honestly.

[Molly Weasley]

i nod my head. "has he ever said that he loves you?"

[Isabella Knox]

"He has, a few times. But only after i've said it first." I reply.

[Molly Weasley]

"so do you think he actually means it or is just saying it because you said it?"

[Isabella Knox]

"I-i don't know." I say, actually thinking about it. "He asked if i wanted to live with him after we've finished school." I say. So did Gideon. Shut up brain. Oh look you're talking to yourself now.

[Molly Weasley]

"do you want to live with him?" i ask

[Isabella Knox]

"I did..." I trail off. "But i'm not so sure now."

[Molly Weasley]

"now why is that?"

[Isabella Knox]

"Because Gideon came back." You love Gideon. Hey, you love Ricky too, right? I think so. Is that what he gets now, 'i think so' poor bloke. That's it, i'm talking to myself, i've finally lost it.

[Molly Weasley]

"izzy, you ok. you seem like your in another world." i chuckle but shrug it off. "so your saying that ricky just came and swept you off your feet, and he's a real charming guy. he's a bit more into a physcial thing because he likes to kiss a lot, but he's only said i love you a few times but your not sure if he means it. he asked you to move in with him after school, but now that gid came back your having second thoughts." i ssay summing up what she had said. "now tell me what you feel about gid." i ask

[Isabella Knox]

"What don't i feel about Gid." I say, laughing weakly.
"I've loved him for years, i just never had the courage to tell him. Then he 'died', gosh i didn't know if i could feel more crushed than i did then. Then Fabian came back, he told me how Gid had always loved me, that made everything worse. But then Gid came back, and suddenly, i-i can't think straight anymore. Every time he's near me i can barely breathe. He's kind, and thoughtful, and handsome, and everything i've always wanted. He's my Peter Pan and i'm his Wendy. I'm bloody in love with the fool." I laugh weakly. "But things have changed, he left, i tried to move on right?" I sigh heavily. "I'm just, so confused."

[Molly Weasley]

"now you said tried to move on, why did you say tried? why didn't you just say that you moved on?"

[Isabella Knox]

"I-i-i don't know..." I say, aloss for words. Isn't it obvious, you love Gideon much more than you 'love' Ricky. But you still love Ricky right? Do you?

[Molly Weasley]

i nod my head with a small smile on my face. "now dear, who do you think you'd be happier with. tell me how you would feel if you were with gideon and not ricky." i ask

[Isabella Knox]

I small smile spreads across my face, imagining myself with Gideon. Just Gid, no Ricky to make things awkward, just Peter and Wendy. You can see it now can't you. Gid's the one you love. Remember what you were like without him, remember that empty feeling. You never have that when you're around him do you? But Ricky... Ricky's a good guy, but he's not the one for you is he? Didn't think so.
"I'd be-...i'd be happy, the happiest i've ever been." I say honestly.

[Molly Weasley]

"then dear, why do you still need me to help you?" i say, "izzy, from what you've told me you being with ricky isn't what some would call happy. you said you love him, but when he says iy your not sure if he means it. but from the smile when you imagined what it would be like to be with gid, you'd be happier." i say and rub her back supportively. "now if you do choose gid, ricky isn't going to be happy, most likely. but if you choose ricky you know that gid will support you. he wants you to choose the guy you'd be the happiest with. he'll be happy to know your happy. hun which one do you think you would be happier with. now i'm not saying any of this because he's my brother, but when you think of your life with gid your saying that you'd be the happiest you've ever been. now with ricky, your not sure if he loves you or not. izzy do you see what i'm saying?"

[Isabella Knox]

"Gideon..." I manage to say through my sea of thoughts. See, Gideon will go to the ends of the earth and back for you. He even told you, remember? He loves you. But remember what happend at the dance. He said he didn't mean it, it tore him apart to lie to you like that, didn't you see? Didn't you see the tears on his face when he said it. He wants you to be happy Izzy, and you'll only be happy with him. But Ricky... Ricky will find someone else. You're the one that matters now, stop thinking about other people and think about you. You're completely and utterly in love with Gideon Izzy, stop trying to tell yourself you don't, it's no use, it's not going to work. Find Ricky, tell him the truth. He'll understand. He'll want you to be happy too. Then find Gid, find him and tell him how much you love him Izzy.

[Molly Weasley]

"and izzy," i say, "gideon told fay and fay told me, but at the dance when he said that. he only said it because he hated seeing you having to choose. he hated seeing you hurting and he thought that if you thought he didn't love you you'd be able to move on and be happy. he still loves you." i smile, "now go and find him." i smile,


ooc-sorry it took so long. my mom kicked me off.

[Isabella Knox]

"Right, find him." I say jumping to my feet. "But what about Ricky?" I ask, sitting back down again.

[Molly Weasley]

"you've got to find him to. you've got to talk to him." i say "it'll be ok"

[Isabella Knox]

"What if he's angry?" I say

[Molly Weasley]

"then he'll be angry." i say softly, "but izzy your doing what is best for you and him. it wouldn't be fair for you to stay with him when your in love with another guy. and if he truely cares about you at all he'll understand that."

[Isabella Knox]

"He will?" I ask softly

[Molly Weasley]

"if he cares about what is best for you and wants to see you happy." i say "you want to know what helps, try saying it infront of a mirrior before you talk to him." i suggest. "you can go right up to teh house and use the mirror in teh bathroom or in the bedroom if you want."