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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 9, 2007 18:50:37 GMT
I walk slowly up the path to Izzy's.
I'd never been here before but it wasn't hard to find out where she lived.
I was holding loosely onto Kim's hand, leading her along next to me.
Someone had to look after her after all, who better to take her to than Izzy?
I start to feel sick again, but push the burning empty feeling away, knocking lightly on the door.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 9, 2007 18:53:43 GMT
I walk to the door after hear someone knocking.
I open it widely, surprised to see Ian standing there with Kim.
"Erm...hi, you alright?" I ask, smiling.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 9, 2007 18:55:28 GMT
I push the sick feeling down, shaking my head slightly, "Izzy, I'm-...I'm sorry but-...It's-...it's Gid. He-...I'm sorry."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 9, 2007 18:58:35 GMT
I feel myself freeze, and a shiver run down my spine "He's what? What is he, is he alright? Ian what's happend?" I ask, panicked.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 9, 2007 18:59:13 GMT
"I don't-...I don't know. But-...he didn't-...He's dead." I say quietly.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 9, 2007 19:17:20 GMT
I look up at him wide eyed for a moment as his new sinks in.
"No-...no, he can't...he promised." I start, but realise it must be true. I clap a hand to my mouth as tears spill over my cheeks. "Oh god no." I choke out, before my knees give way under me and i sink to the floor, unable to support my own weight. I put my head in my hands, crying softly, losing the energy for anything else.
[wow i actually found that quite hard to write, i didn't know how to make her react to the news lol]
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 9, 2007 19:21:01 GMT
I stand uncertainly on the doorstep, dimly aware of Kim letting go of my hand and putting her arms around Izzy's neck.
I pause for as long as I dare, then gingerly help her up and inside, "Come on, Izzy..." I say softly, not sure what to say.
[ooc-yeah. lol. it got to the second post and then it was like fuck...i don't know what to do now...lol.]
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 9, 2007 19:42:32 GMT
We're always going to be here, promise. Runs through my head as i sob. I look up as i feel little arms around my neck, i lift my arms up and hug Kim lightly, knowing she was as close to Gideon as i could get right now. I get pulled to my feet by Ian, carrying Kim up with me, and walk weakly into my house, crying hard.
[ooc: Even that was hard to write lol. I need to get used to this.]
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 9, 2007 19:44:15 GMT
I close the door almost silently, steering her into the living room and sitting her down gently.
I stay silent for a long moment.
"I'm sorry...about bringing Kim here...I didn't know where else to take her...I thought it would be best, if that's okay." I manage to say eventually.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 10, 2007 18:53:18 GMT
I sit down and place Kim down carefully next to me, before drawing my knees up to my chest and putting my head in my hands.
It takes me a while before i can stop crying enough to speak, i look sideways at Kim.
"I-it's a-alright." I manage to choke out, feeling as if i'd just been stabbed in the chest.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 10, 2007 18:59:02 GMT
I wanted to say something...comforting in the slightest but nothing was coming to mind.
Would it be best to say it hadn't hurt? But it really had.
Or that he'd gone out with dignity? But that wasn't exactly true either.
Or he'd gone out fighting, how he'd wanted to go? But he hadn't wanted to go at all.
I sit down on the edge of the chair next to her, still trying to think of something...anything.
"I'm sorry." I say quietly again.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 10, 2007 19:32:23 GMT
I hear Ian sit down on the chair next to me, but i don't look up. I couldn't make myself do anything at that moment. All i could do was cry.
I hear him say sorry, but can't make myself reply.
I manage to shake my head slighty in return.
After a minute or two i manage to get myself to speak again.
"How did it happen?" I choke out.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 10, 2007 19:39:41 GMT
"He-..." I start to say, as calmly as I can, but my voice immediately cracks and rises with anger, "He was murdered."
It feels like something clicks into place, that Gid was murdered by my own kind, people who called themselves my allies, and I never got to say goodbye, to explain everything. I'd never told him I was grateful for all the times he'd helped me out, saved my life, or just made me laugh and now I never would.
"He was fucking murdered." I say again, louder, unable to stop my voice from shaking, "By fucking death eaters."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 12, 2007 15:36:15 GMT
"Murdered-..." I say, in a voice even lower than a whisper.
I wiped my eyes as my anger levels started to rise.
Death eaters were taking everything away from me.
It was their fault my father is in Azkaban.
It's their fault my brother is dead.
And it's their fault Gid is now too.
My breath caught painfully in my throat as i thought about Gid.
It wasn't fair, he's only just began to live again.
But i would get my revenge, some way or another.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 12, 2007 15:55:50 GMT
I start to feel really sick now, unable to push it away this time.
Erin, Rowan, Gid...that's nearly everyone they've stolen from you now, Ian.
I look at Kim, unwilling to look at Izzy because I couldn't without seeing Gid with her, but then see Kim looking at me in the same way as Gid did and have to look away from her too.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 12, 2007 16:39:10 GMT
I see Ian look away from me with a pained expression on his face.
I look down at my hands, trying to shut down my mind. All i could think of was Gid.
I love you Isa. I have always loved you. I always will love you.
I never stopped loving you.
I squeeze my eyes shut, trying to stop the painful memories.
Isa! Time to go to Neverland.
Really?
Really.
How are we getting there?
We're going to fly. Just like peter and Wendy do.
I shake my head slightly, trying to get rid of my thoughts before i completely fell to pieces.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 12, 2007 16:42:43 GMT
Who needs blood to be brothers? WE HAVE A BOND, MAN!
Gid, shut up, people are looking at you...
I don't care. Look, muggles, and the general public...I LOVE THIS GUY!
Okay, you've had too much to drink...
"He didn't deserve this." I say quietly, talking to no one in particular.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 12, 2007 19:07:35 GMT
"No one deserves this, unless they're the people that caused this." I say blankly. Pushing all my emotions away, leaving me with a blank expression.
"Not Mattie, not Jo, not Erin, not-..." I trail off, unable to make myself say Gid's name outloud.
I stared at the floor again, trying to keep myself together, even though i'd already fallen apart at the seams.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 12, 2007 19:11:48 GMT
My stomach gives an unpleasant jolt at Erin's name, but I push it aside.
Erin and Gid.
The only two people I'd trusted up until I met Maddie.
Gone, just like that.
My eyes start to sting, but I bite my lip, knowing I was being stupid.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 12, 2007 19:18:06 GMT
"Who did it?" I ask, still staring at the floor.
When was all this killing going to end.
All the people i loved were slowly being ripped away from me.
Who was going to be next.
Maddie? Molly? The Marauders?
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 12, 2007 19:24:08 GMT
"Heightington was there, but I don't think he put his hands to him. Just cut him a few times." I say, going into more detail than I intended to without meaning to, "Some girl...Tabitha Fender. She crucio-ed him, burnt him...you know Gid. He only tried to get out with the harmless little spells, stunning, disarming, no unforgivables or anything. I don't think he even wanted to hurt her. He just wanted to live-..." I stop for a moment, looking determinedly at the floor as I spoke, "She crucio-ed him right before he died." I finish quietly.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 12, 2007 19:30:52 GMT
"Oh God." I sob, sinking back into the sofa, drawing my knees up to my chest, crying uncontrolabley.
Not only did they have to take him away from me. They had to torture him up until his last breath.
"Why-..." I cry out softly, not aiming it at anyone in particular. "...Why did they have to take him away from me?"
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 12, 2007 19:39:37 GMT
I don't say anything, looking at the floor still, surprised to find a tear rolling down my cheek.
That was a first.
People dying, I could and did deal with.
But not this.
This was how I'd wanted to react when Erin died, when Rowan died...this was how I wanted to react now...but I couldn't.
You got a tear Gid. I think bitterly to no one in particular, Congratulations.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 12, 2007 19:59:35 GMT
When's all of this going to stop. Who will be next?
Not you, and not me. We're always going to be here, promise.
They made him break his promise.
They took him away from me.
I didn't know how i was going to go on without him.
I clenched my fists and pressed them against my eyes, as painful little sobs escaped out of my mouth.
It wasn't fair, he was gone, and i was left.
It should have been me.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 12, 2007 20:06:00 GMT
"Come on Izzy," I say quietly, even more surprised to find my own voice thicker with tears, crouching down on the floor next to her and putting a loose arm round her shoulders, "It's gonna be okay..."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 12, 2007 20:10:01 GMT
"It's not okay, it's not fucking okay Ian. He's-...he's gone, dead." I cry, finally breaking down.
Crying harder than i've ever cried before. Burying my head in my knees.
"I never even got to say goodbye." I say in a voice barely coherent.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 12, 2007 20:17:43 GMT
"I know what it's like to lose someone I loved as much as you loved Gid. And I know...that it feels like nothing is going to be alright ever again, but it will be. I promise, it will be. Just not for a while. Just hang in there, okay?" I say quietly, trying to get a grip myself.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 12, 2007 20:21:53 GMT
"What am i hanging in here for? What the fuck do i have left now." I say quietly, not having the strength to raise my voice or be angry at anyone except for the people that killed him.
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Post by Ian Hunt on Jul 12, 2007 20:24:25 GMT
"I don't know." I say honestly, "Because Kim needs you. Maddie needs you. I need you. Your family needs you. It's not the end of the world even if it feels like it."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 12, 2007 20:34:10 GMT
What family, my dad's in Azkaban, my brother's dead, my mum's never home.
I lean my head back on my knees, squeezing my eyes shut.
What use am i anyway, i've tried protecting people. I said i wouldn't let them get hurt.
Well you see.. Thats most likely what you would of said if i saw you before i killed your brother....Ahh i can still hear him screaming.
I lean my head back up to the ceiling, keeping my eyes shut.
I turn my head and look at Kim, she looked so much like her father, i had to look away.
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