It's a little over time[open]

[Riyann Servansikk]

Floating around the school I decided that as much as I wanted to be in my own body again and do the things I missed so much that it didn't mean I should be unhappy. Sure it hurt to not feel anything real, or to be alone, or anything like that, but why waste my time to think that when I had obviously been doing that for the last couple of days.
Chuckling I came to the staircase, remembering things that I'd done on them and just floated around, occasionally scaring a few first years, glad I could do as much.
But I sighed unhappily, knowing that it would only last a little bit of time before I tired of it and I did. Sitting, or rather floating above the stairs, I pulled at my transparent hair, not feeling it, but at least ignoring the burning from the cut along my neck, the one that had killed me in the first place, but then again it was pretty wicked, just how deep it was.

[Arden Patricks]

I trudge rather wearily up the stairs on my way to Transfiguration, knowing that I'm late already anyway judging by the relative emptiness of the halls but unable to bring myself to really care. Maybe I'll show up or maybe I won't.
I brush past, or rather through, some ghost that's sitting just above the stairs, shivering immediately and turning my head partway for a briefly mumbled, "Sorry."
Then I freeze, breath catching in my throat as I notice who it is, and nearly dropping my books with the surprise.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I looked up after feeling the small burn of someone walking through me. Seeing the Hufflepuff robes and then Arden's face made me almost jump. I remembered Arden being the last person I truely remember seeing before I died and woke up in this state, I almost felt guilty for just getting up and leaving that day. But then I remembered the burning in my arm and wanting it to stop so bad.
"I guess I wasn't careful enough." I said quietly, almost like appologizing to her.

[Arden Patricks]

"No, I guess you weren't," I breathe, shaking my head while still staring at her. I'm speaking almost on autopilot, with most of my brain still in shock. I mean, ghosts I'm perfectly used to... but not when they're my friends.

[Riyann Servansikk]

"I'm sorry." I whispered, seeing her and starting to worry if she'd be alright. "But, it'll work out somehow. Not that it's the greatest." I said, thinking and knowing I wasn't doing such a great job at trying to reasure her or anything of the such.

[Arden Patricks]

I laugh slightly, finding it odd somehow that she seems to be trying to make me feel better. I shake my head. "What happened?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

I thought oddly at her laugh but ignored it after a moment. "I don't remember. I just remember, uh, going somewhere," HQ my mind was screaming as I didn't tell Arden, "After talking with you and then I woke up with a major blank in the Funeral Parlor and then seeing Riley." I said, shrugging with a frown. "I know they slit my throat though." I said as if it didn't matter much anymore, just the irritating burn.

[Arden Patricks]

I can't entirely suppress a wince at that last part, noticing the slit on her neck and imagining it a little too vividly.
"Well, at least you don't remember it," I mutter, stomach doing a funny flip at the thought of Rile and how he must have taken that. I bite my lip slightly to keep from scolding her about not being more careful than she was.

[Riyann Servansikk]

"I kinda wish I did." I whispered, not entirely sure what I'd do to whoever it was. I picked back up a few strands of my transparent hair, pulling at it again boredly.

[Arden Patricks]

I grimace slightly, understanding that... or thinking I do. It's bothersome to have a blank space in your memory no matter how awful the missing information might be. I look down at my hands, laced around my books.
"So you don't know who did it? Or... why?" I ask, wondering. She had seemed rather agitated the last time I saw her, as if she knew what she was heading towards.

[Riyann Servansikk]

"I, uh, I'm pretty sure I know why, just if I could remember I'd know for sure." I said and looked at her. "I know where it happened and how it happened." I add, she did deserve the truth, I mean seeing her friend, me, a few days earlier and now she was a ghost? "I was spying for the Order and I'm guessing when I got to the Death Eater HQ, that someone knew I was a traitor and killed me." I said quietly.

[Arden Patricks]

I shake my head sadly, closing my eyes but strangely relieved that that's what it was. I don't doubt that she's telling the truth - she's dead, after all. What harm could it do?
"And you had to go to... the headquarters, didn't you?" I ask, semi-accusingly yet rhetorically.

[Riyann Servansikk]

"Well it beat them getting everyone around me." I said, almost angrily when she spoke, it almost sounding like she accused me of my own death. "Sorry, that shouldn't have sounded like that." I said, trying to calm myself down, knowing that it was my own fault that I was dead.

[Arden Patricks]

"No, that's... probably right, I'm sorry." I shake my head. "I shouldn't have sounded like I was blaming you...." Though it does seem like it was your fault and could've been prevented.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I shook my head, my mood changing again, like it seemed to be happening constantly. First happy, then sad and regretful, anger. Anything. And it wasn't right, it wasn't me, but it was. "No." I said again and started floating upwards boredly.

[Arden Patricks]

I frown slightly at her strange mood, but decide that I can't exactly judge. I hesitate a bit, however, before continuing on my way, even though she seems to be leaving. I'm going to make sure she actually is leaving before I make a move to do so myself.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I looked at Arden and saw almost continue on her way, or thinking about it, and just stayed where I was, letting her leave if she wanted to.

[Arden Patricks]

((Didn't actually go away... sorry, guess it's confusingly phrased. I'm just considering it.))

[Riyann Servansikk]

[[ahh i get it lol.. srry ]]

[Arden Patricks]

I decide on second thought that I really don't want to leave... but at the same time I have no idea what to say. I shift the books in my arms and stand there awkwardly, eventually clearing my throat. "Um... so...." 'How are you?' seems like a mildly brainless question....

((Yeah, sorry about that. ))

[Riyann Servansikk]

"Sorry." I said and shrugged. "This is kind of awkward. Isn't it?" I asked and let out a small chuckle, shaking my head, being a bit happier again.

[Arden Patricks]

I laugh slightly, almost nervously, and nod. "Maybe just a bit.... Would it be weird to ask how you're doing?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

I shrugged. "Depends on how I take it, and well since it's me, no." I said and chuckled. "I'm doing fine as far as it goes." I said.

[Arden Patricks]

I nod, relieved to hear her laugh a little, and struck again by the strangeness of this. "That's good, at least." Because I know Riley's a mess, for one.

[Riyann Servansikk]

I looked at her and sighed lightly, wanting to act as if it were all normal and that I could laugh openly without making it seem weird or thinking of how Riley was. And that's what I was doing after I answered, thinking about Riley. But I simply nodded back to Arden.

[Arden Patricks]

I glance down at the stairs. "You're... really missed, you know that?"

[Riyann Servansikk]

I looked from where I was up to Arden, shaking my head lightly, looking somewhat surprised. "Don't see why I would be." I said, knowing how annoying I usually could get, who would miss that?

[Arden Patricks]

I give a disbelieving laugh, shaking my head. "That's ridiculous. Of course you are."

[Riyann Servansikk]

I shook my head, stopping myself from rolling my eyes and laughed lightly. "I still don't see why." I said, this time really rolling my eyes and snorted with laughter.

[Arden Patricks]

"Because... you're you," I say in surprise, unable to find any other way to explain it. "You're... I don't know. But it's incredibly difficult to dislike you, and... of course you're missed."