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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 14, 2007 20:21:26 GMT
"I loved him so much Maddie." I whisper to her quietly.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 14, 2007 20:22:35 GMT
"I know Bella, I know you did." I say quietly.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 14, 2007 20:39:33 GMT
I lean forward, putting my head in my hands, crying softly.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 14, 2007 21:07:16 GMT
I hug her tightly, not sure what to say.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 14, 2007 21:10:11 GMT
"It's going to be so different now-...without him."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 14, 2007 21:16:51 GMT
She was right...
No more heart to hearts.
No one there to help me when I got into a fight with Ian.
No one there to pick me up and swing me around.
No more big brother...
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 15, 2007 19:18:26 GMT
I draw my knees up to my chest, resting my head on them.
No more Gideon.
No one to get drunk with.
No one to fall asleep next to.
No one to hold me.
No one to kiss me.
No one to love me like he did.
No more Neverland.
No more Peter.....
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 15, 2007 19:29:46 GMT
No one there to steal my food or run aorund my house grinning like a moron.
No more silly grins.
No more calling me old.
No more silly little agruements that made no sense.
No more bear hugs.
No more Gideon.
No more big brother...
I gulp hugging her again,"I'm here for you if you ever need me, you know that right?"
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 15, 2007 20:41:31 GMT
No more weird ramblings.
No more teasing.
No more smirking.
No more pissing off Mr. Next-door.
No more ranting about pimps and whores.
No more tickling.
No more pillow fights.
No more 'i love you''s
I sob into my hands for a few minutes, thinking of all the memories.
"He was going to propose to me." I tell her softly.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 15, 2007 21:00:30 GMT
I feel a lump rise into my throat."Oh Bella."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 17, 2007 15:09:34 GMT
"And now i'm never going to see him again."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 17, 2007 18:21:17 GMT
"He'll always be with you, they ones we love...never really leave us."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 17, 2007 18:34:05 GMT
"But he'll never be really here."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 17, 2007 18:37:20 GMT
"He'll always be in your heart Bella." I say quietly,"I know how you must feel, angry, sad, scared and so much more."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 17, 2007 18:45:15 GMT
"So much more." I agree.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 17, 2007 18:53:13 GMT
"I wish I could tell you it'll get alright, that'll you get over it...but I can't." I say honestly,"I can't lie to you Bella. I'm not saying it'll never get better, it will just...take a while."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 17, 2007 18:56:30 GMT
"Even if you had said it, i wouldn't have believed you."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 17, 2007 19:02:24 GMT
I nod,"It'll hurt for a while...a long while but it gets easier. Not right away but it does."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 17, 2007 19:04:30 GMT
"I hope it gets easier, i can't take feeling like this for much longer."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 17, 2007 19:24:00 GMT
"I'm always here Bella, if you ever need me."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 17, 2007 19:28:46 GMT
"I know." I reply, giving her a weak smile. "You're one of the few people that i can always count on."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 17, 2007 19:29:36 GMT
I smile hugging her slightly,"Yeah, I'm always gonna be here, can't get rid of me if you tried."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 17, 2007 19:32:17 GMT
"I know right, you're like a parasite." I joke feebley
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jul 17, 2007 19:35:02 GMT
"Oh thanks, I was goign more for the gum on the shoe type but your works." I grin weakly.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jul 17, 2007 19:58:51 GMT
"I hate how things have become."
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