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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 17:52:20 GMT
i hung out the side of the window over the edge looking at the grounds, upside down but looking at them none the less. really shouldn't be doing this anymore...."oh well.." i mutter. it wasn't that i didn't have anything to live for, cos i did. mine and sirius' baby. mia, brett. i wasn't planning onkilling myself but hanging off the edge wasn't exactly safe. "Wake me up inside
Wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before I come undone
save me from the nothing I’ve become
I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside" i sing softly still hanging. i hear the door open and someoen says something but i can't understand. when i pull myself up i see..............
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 18:02:15 GMT
"I used to do that!!" Briar exclaimed. "But then I almost lost my balance and got scared half to death so I stopped."
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 18:03:39 GMT
"i've been doing this for years. the only way i'd fall is if i wanted to." i sigh going back to hanging
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 18:11:03 GMT
"Ohhh," Briar said, nodding her head.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 18:14:30 GMT
"yeah. yumi baker" i say to her. "if i've met you before i'm sorry. i'm a wreck and i can't remeber whch way is which at the moment."
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 18:21:14 GMT
"I don't think we have," Briar said, sitting down on the edge. "Briar Holmes."
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 18:22:31 GMT
i nod my head. "watch where you sit. i don't feel like being dead, and if you knock my feet on accident...well we might have a problem."
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 18:23:37 GMT
"I'm not going to hit your feet," She laughed.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 18:25:27 GMT
"thanks." i smile weakly. "have you ever wanted to cry so bad, but the tears just wouldn't come?" i ask
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 18:26:49 GMT
"A few times yes," She nodded.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 18:28:28 GMT
"it sucks. a lot." i say "and i never cry."
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 18:29:49 GMT
"We might not know each other, but if you want to talk about it, I'm listening," She said.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 18:37:47 GMT
"life sucks. a lot." i say, "i mean the guy that i like, and i really like him love another girl but we had a one night stand. kinda. and i'm preggers. but he's leaving for a while. and the fact that i can read minds doesn't help cause i heard this arguement he had with his cousin and he yelled that he wanted to have his first kid with someone he loved. then he yelled the he didn't love me. which i knew but it's different when you hear it. and now i got two people after me trying to kill me. joy isn't it?" i say with a bitter chuckle, "so now i'm screwed. and the one person that i consider one of my ebst friends is leaving. and to top everything off one of my ex boyfiends is in town and he is violent and doesn't like me." i sigh, "life sucks."
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 18:40:59 GMT
"Thats..wow. This is what my cousin tells me to do when I'm in a funk. Write a letter to that person, telling the person how you feel about him or her. Don't send it though. It may not help that much with your situation, but atleast it gets things off your chest. Now about the violent ex.." She trailed off, thinking.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 18:47:18 GMT
"is a complete and utter ass." i mutter darkly. "and he knows how i feel about him. i told him."
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 18:48:09 GMT
"To me, the guy that got you preggers is a prick," She sighed.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 19:15:08 GMT
"i think i've got you mixed up. the guy that got me preggers si the one i like. he's wonderful and nice but he's just...in shock. he's gonna help me though. he said he was and he even called it our baby once." i say with a small smile, "now my ex is the complete and udder ass." i say "i have nothing to do with my ex at the moment."
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 19:25:11 GMT
"Maybe things will get better," Briar said.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 19:28:31 GMT
"i hope." i sigh
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 19:31:34 GMT
"You just need to get your mind off of it for now," She said. "That's what I tried to do."
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 6, 2007 19:32:38 GMT
"how am i supposed to get my mind of it if it is everything?"
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 6, 2007 19:34:33 GMT
"You just...have to keep your head up high. Things will get better, don't know when, but they will. I remember this song my cousin Taya used to sing, she'd sing it to people if she found them in a funk. Somehow it worked cheer the people up," Briar said, remembering.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 7, 2007 19:44:06 GMT
"yeah...hey can you help me up back inside? i can feel the blood rushing to my head" i chuckle reaching my hands up
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Post by Briar Vassler on Aug 7, 2007 20:54:19 GMT
"Yeah," Briar laughed, carefully standing up, grabbing her hands and pulling her back in.
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Post by Yumi Baker on Aug 7, 2007 20:56:01 GMT
"thanks.." i smile and lean against the wall. "whoa....i'm dizzy.." i chuckle
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