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Post by Isabella Knox on May 30, 2007 22:58:52 GMT
I stood in the bath, fully clothed.
I hadn't bothered to take my top and skirt off.
There wasn't much point, or there didn't seem to be.
I'd been sat there for at least an hour, thinking.
My situation with Gideon and Ricky wasn't good.
I loved Ricky, but i loved Gideon too.
I was dating Ricky, but i'd kissed Gideon.
I felt guilty.
Very, very guilty.
Not only had i cheated on Ricky.
But i'd also got Gideons' hopes up.
Whatever i did i'd end up hurting someone.
Someone i loved.
The water in the bath and turned cold ages ago, but i hadn't noticed.
I was too busy thinking.
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Post by Madeline Speare on May 30, 2007 23:53:45 GMT
"Bella?" I ask coming in,"What are you doing?"
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Post by Isabella Knox on May 31, 2007 0:00:56 GMT
I jump as Maddie's voice brings me back to reality.
I can suddenly feel how cold the water is around me.
"N-nothing." I reply.
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Post by Madeline Speare on May 31, 2007 0:01:37 GMT
"Liar," I say going up to her,"What's with the face?" I ask.
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Post by Isabella Knox on May 31, 2007 0:05:11 GMT
"It's nothing-....." I start to lie again but stop myself, it was no use, i needed help.
"I've got myself in a bit of a mess Maddie." I say. "Gideon's back." I explain. Hoping that she'd remember how much i loved Gideon before him and Fabian left, then 'died'.
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Post by Madeline Speare on May 31, 2007 0:06:17 GMT
"Oh boy," I say."What are you gonna do? You still love him dont you?"
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Post by Isabella Knox on May 31, 2007 12:12:31 GMT
"I do, so much. But i love Ricky too. Oh Maddie i don't know what to do." I say misrebly.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 1, 2007 21:17:19 GMT
"Your stuck between two guys," I say sitting down,"It's hard trust me I know, I'm going through the same thing."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 1, 2007 21:18:29 GMT
"Sirius and Ian." I say, hearing about the situation through Gid.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 1, 2007 21:20:31 GMT
I look up,"How?" I shake my head,"Sirius and I havent even told anyone yet."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 1, 2007 21:22:52 GMT
"I heard it though Gid. And you and Sirius were inevitable."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 1, 2007 21:25:03 GMT
I smile,"I guess,"
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 1, 2007 21:26:44 GMT
"Have you kissed Ian yet?" I ask her.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 1, 2007 21:28:11 GMT
"I havent kissed him Bella," I say.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 1, 2007 21:29:06 GMT
"Not as deep as me yet." I say, forcing a laugh.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 1, 2007 21:36:15 GMT
"I can have some self control you know,"I joke,"So you kissed him?"
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 1, 2007 21:39:47 GMT
"Obviously i don't then." I say guiltily. "I've kissed Gid, twice."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 2, 2007 3:06:20 GMT
"Oh boy," I sigh,"So what are you gonna do?" I ask. "I mean Bella, you have got to ask yourself, who do you want to be with?" I cross my legs."It's not about who's gonna get hurt 'cos someone is. You just gonna have to choose."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 2, 2007 10:39:23 GMT
"I know, i know. It's just hard." I reply, sighing heavily.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 2, 2007 13:53:57 GMT
"Isnt that the truth," I sigh,"Wish I knew how to follow my own advice," I mutter under my breath.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 2, 2007 14:03:15 GMT
"Poor Sirius, that's twice this has happend to him." I laugh weakly. "Maddie, i think i know who i'm going to choose, but-...i'm scared."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 2, 2007 14:06:33 GMT
"He really just shouldnt date anyone,"I laugh lightly,"Listen to your heart Bella, 'cos even if it's on your left; it's always right," I smile,"That's what my mum used to tell me."
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 2, 2007 14:17:10 GMT
"Right listen to my heart." I say, laughing softly. Yeah listen to me, Gid's the one for you. No way, you're with Ricky now. But you can break up with Ricky, Gideon's the one you'll be happiest with. Maybe but... But nothing, choose Gid, be happy. I shook my head slightly. "Gideon..." I say softly.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 2, 2007 14:18:51 GMT
I smile,"That's what I thought," I hug her,"I remember back in 4th year how you had his name scirbbled all over your parchments,"
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 2, 2007 14:24:24 GMT
"Oh merlin, inside all of those little hearts." I laugh, hugging her back.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 2, 2007 14:29:59 GMT
"With arrows through the middle," I remind her laughing slightly,"I dont remember what's more patheic, you writing it over and over, or then realizing we had to turn those parchment in!" I laugh.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 2, 2007 14:33:44 GMT
"Or me panicking at what McGonagal was going to say about it all." I laugh.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 2, 2007 14:40:40 GMT
"Those were the good days," I laugh.
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Post by Isabella Knox on Jun 2, 2007 14:44:17 GMT
"Back in the day." I grin. "Look how things turned out though huh."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jun 2, 2007 14:45:35 GMT
"We're all fighting to stay alive," I say sadly,"Things were so much easier back then, they only thing we really had to worryy about was passing McGonagal's class."
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