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Post by Molly Weasley on May 10, 2007 10:55:06 GMT
i had gone to st.mungos to see just how much damage had be put on my baby. i knew it died, but i still had that feeling inside of me.
i had found out that the baby had died, but the other baby lived.
that's right i had twins for a short few weeks. but now only one baby lived while it's twin was dead.
should i be happy because i still had one baby, or unhappy for the fact that one of my babies was dead?
"to be happy, or not to be happy..." i think aloud
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 11:22:18 GMT
"Be happy." I shrug to the girl from where I was sitting at a nearby table. "Lot less effort to smile than to frown."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 17:47:39 GMT
"try smiling when you know that one of your children just died." i sigh and put my hand over my stomach. "only one though. the other lived." i say softly
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 17:53:57 GMT
"I-...I'm sorry." I say quietly after a moment. "If it's any consolation, it'll get easier." But never completely leave you.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 17:57:54 GMT
"at the moment it jsut seems like i'm going to be sad for the rest of my life." i sigh
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 18:00:48 GMT
"It does," I agree, "And it will. But you've got Bill, and you've still got one of them, and you've probably got a father or father type figure. They'll help make it easier. It'll get easier. Promise."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 18:05:50 GMT
"yeah i guess. my dad practically disowned me. and bill," i apuse and laugh softly, "bill was a squirrel. i was doing some transfiguration and it got really messed up then here comes bill." i smile. "then this baby's father is never around. never. so i broke up with him. and found the best guy a girl would ever want." i say with a small smile.
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 18:12:56 GMT
"So, there you go then. If this best guy a girl could ever want is as great as you think he is, he should be able to help you out." I say, smiling slightly.
I wished I had Ian around when I needed him.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 18:22:28 GMT
"he is. name's onix. he took bill in as his own. hes even letting bil call him dad." i say with a weak smile. i feel the baby kick once, softly. i jump a little, not expecting it. "he always kicks when i'm around onix, and now i guess when i think about onix." i chuckle
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 18:23:19 GMT
"That's sweet." I smile. "It really is."
I never felt my baby kick.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 18:34:13 GMT
"yeah. hey are you ok erin? you seem..out of it."i say
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 18:34:58 GMT
"It's nothing, just I feel bad for you, that's all." I smile weakly.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 18:37:08 GMT
"well don't feel bad for me. if i've coped before i ca cope now." i say. "but erin, you know that if you ever need to talk about anything you can talk to me." i say to her
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 18:39:15 GMT
"I'm not really very good at talking about stuff...I usually end up offending people." I half-laugh. "And you need consoling more than I do. For me it's over, you're hurting right now."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 18:46:19 GMT
"i grew up with two older brothers. i don't think anything you do will offend me. now talk or i'll make you." i say only half joking.
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 18:51:45 GMT
"Okay...talking...talking...talking..." I laugh weakly, "You know a guy called Ian Hunt by any chance?"
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 18:54:25 GMT
"yeah. i know him. not personally, though." mi say
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 18:57:31 GMT
"Well, we were-...a while ago-...anyway, I stabbed him in the back and he doesn't even know it and he thinks that me, and our kid, which he didn't actually know about, were killed about...6 months ago, I think. And it's all a bit confusing really."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 19:01:20 GMT
"well-...umm...wow..." i say
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 19:04:04 GMT
"Yeah," I laugh slightly, aware of a slightly hysterical note in my laughter. "But it doesn't really matter anyhow."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 19:06:06 GMT
"of course it matters. i ahd to have time to get over the shock. what did he say when you went to him, alive?" i ask
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 19:16:06 GMT
"Er...nothing. Because I haven't." I say sheepishly.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 19:21:45 GMT
"then why are you till here talking to me? go now. find him. i'll help, just help me up." i chuckle
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 19:31:17 GMT
"Because I don't want to see him." I say, but help her up all the same.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 19:43:12 GMT
"they why did you help me up?" i chuckle and sit back down. "what's up? you said that you had a baby with him, so you must have felt something for him."
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 19:54:54 GMT
"I do, I did. I love-...loved him. But-...I betrayed him and everything he stands for and I stabbed him in the back and he doesn't even know. I-...I don't want him to know. And if I see him, then I'm going to have to tell him."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 20:07:13 GMT
i nod my head. "ok. but you should tell him that your back yourself, before he finds out from someone else. word travels fast at hogwarts and it won't be long." i suggest.
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 20:08:55 GMT
"It was stupid to even come here." I laugh softly to myself. "I should have just disappeared. That was kind of the plan...but I wanted to see him. Though, now I'm here, I don't have the guts too."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Jun 9, 2007 20:16:08 GMT
"the only thing to fear is fear itself. if you want to see him, see him. if you want to disappear, disappear. live your life the way you want." i say
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Post by Erin Row on Jun 9, 2007 20:20:19 GMT
"I've never really done that before. I wouldn't know how. To do what I want to do, I mean. I want to see him. I do. But, I don't want him to know the truth. To hurt him even more."
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