Drawn the truth of a thousand lies

[Joanna Miller]

I sat, hugging my knees to my chest, crying silently.
This was all getting too much now.
Now Mika wasn't talking to me, or I wasn't talking to him, either one.
I'd joined the death eaters because-...because of something I now knew to be false and there was no way out and there was nothing I could do.
No way out.
Apart from death.
[glow=red,2,300]"In this farewell,
There's no blood,
There's no alibi,
'Cos I've drawn regret,
From the truth,
Of a thousand lies,
So let mercy come,
And wash away...
What I've done,
I've faced myself,
To cross out what I've become,
Erase myself,
And let go of what I've done."[/glow] I sing quietly to myself, in a bid to stop my tears.

[Molly Weasley]

"hey jo." i smile walking up to her, holding bill, then see her crying. "what's wrong?" i ask sitting next to her

[Joanna Miller]

"Everything." I mumble, furiously wiping my eyes.

[Molly Weasley]

"come here," i say moving bill to my hip and give jo a one arm hug. "what happened?"

[Joanna Miller]

I shake my head, tears jogging down my cheeks again. "I'm going to die." I say quietly.

[Molly Weasley]

"no your not." i reassure her. but see the tears and she was really afraid. "ok, lets say you are going to die. why?"

[Joanna Miller]

"Because it's the only way out." I cry. "I have to, otherwise-...I don't know. I thought-...but-...now-...AH!" I yell through my tears, getting absolutely nowhere with my stammering.

[hiddenindarkness]

I walked out into the courtyard to see Molly and Jo. I see that Molly is trying to comfert Jo. I hear Jo yell and I run over to her. "Jo," I asked in concern, "Are you okay?"

[Joanna Miller]

"No." I mumble.

[Molly Weasley]

"jo there's nothing that can't be fixed. tell me what it is."

[hiddenindarkness]

"Molly," I said not sure of how she would reacted, "Can I talk with Jo, alone please?"

[Molly Weasley]

"ok.." i say walking up. "jo no matter what happens i'll still be there for you. your my friend." i say then walk off

[hiddenindarkness]

"Jo," I said turning to her, "You really need to talk to Mika. He is worried sick about you."

[Joanna Miller]

"Mika isn't worried about anyone but his own stinking self." I mutter darkly. "He's worried because he made an unbreakable vow with my brother to say he'd protect me. He just can't protect me from himself."

[hiddenindarkness]

"At least he is trying," I said, "Jo, the two of you grew up together. Sure you two will fight, but that is what friends do. I'll tell you what I told Mika, I hope you don't regret the decision your making now in the near future. It is not worth it. Mika cares about you and only is trying to help. Sure his anger can cloud his mind, but I think there is more behind the unbreakable vow than you and I know."

[Joanna Miller]

"No, there isn't. Mika's a coward, he always has been. Did he tell you that? How he's a coward. How he only made the vow because my brother, because Nathan scared him. Because Nathan was hysterical, made him promise he'd protect me because he couldn't anymore. Then Nathan was gone, never saw him again. Then Mika and Kia are gone. Now he's trying to help me again and this time he's too late. I know exactly what I'm going to do to get out of this and I don't need his help. You can tell him that, Yuri." I stand up, gripping my wand. "I'm going to get out of this right now."
I make my way out of Hogwarts grounds and apparate to DE HQ, knowing she couldn't follow me.

[hiddenindarkness]

'I have to find Mika now' I thought