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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 1, 2007 0:28:10 GMT
I walked out onto the Astronomy tower and leaned against the edge, looking out at the sky, and the ground below me. I put my hand against my stomach. "Why?" I whispered softly.
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Gideon Prewett
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 1, 2007 11:30:52 GMT
"Because life, fate, and everything else is generally cruel." I say, from behind her. "Why what?" I ask, stepping forward to lean on the ledge next to her.
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 2, 2007 23:28:28 GMT
I sighed and put my other hand on my stomach. "Why'd I lose my baby?" I asked quietly. "I mean, I know how, but why? It was my fault - my mistake - and yet my innocent child got punished."
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Gideon Prewett
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 3, 2007 10:30:04 GMT
"Life's unfair. Innocent people get punished for other people's mistakes, crimes, or just unfortunate circumstances." I say, sitting down next to her. "That's the only explanation I can think of."
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 4, 2007 20:34:18 GMT
"I put her in harm's way. My baby girl. I knew I was pregnant, I knew he would do that to her, I could have said no. But I didn't."
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Gideon Prewett
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While she looks so sad in photographs, I absolutely love her when she smiles.
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 5, 2007 16:26:54 GMT
"I don't understand what you're talking about. You want to enlighten me?"
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 8, 2007 0:07:54 GMT
I sighed. "I'm a death eater. And a damn good one, at that. Not by choice, but I don't really have one. I joined the Order, but there's not much they can do for me when I have to go home to my death eater family." I sighed again. "But right, I went to Beauxbatons, in France. I had a partner there, assigned to me by the Dark Lord. And we fell in love- as much in love as two death eaters can be. And I got pregnant. And then I was instructed to kill him. One of my friends there offered to do it for me, she didn't want me or my baby getting hurt, but I said no, that I'd do it, that I had to. So I went after him. And he crucio'd me. And it killed our daughter. And then I killed him." I said, looking back out over the tower wall.
Should I, or shouldn't I? I asked myself mentally, hands on the wall, rocking my feet back and forth.
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 8, 2007 16:40:16 GMT
I pause, feeling a brick or something like it settle itself in my throat at the mere word death eater.
At the thought that they were still after us.
That Fay and Molly were going out into the field.
That I was being left behind because I was useless now.
I couldn't do anything because of them.
I clench my fists without meaning to, then notice her rocking back and forth.
"Don't." I say softly. "Jump, I mean. Don't."
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 12, 2007 18:50:17 GMT
My grip on the wall tightened, and I stopped rocking. "Why not?" I replied, voice equally as soft.
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 13, 2007 21:21:40 GMT
"Because you're alive. You're alive. You have life, which is more than a lot of people. Why would you throw that away?"
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 14, 2007 22:52:51 GMT
I looked down. "But I killed her. I killed my child, my unborn child, who was one of my three emotional attachments; the biggest emotional attachment. She wasn't even born yet, but I loved her more than everything - more than Peter, more than Cylas, more than myself. I killed my child."
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 15, 2007 15:20:43 GMT
"You didn't kill her. It wasn't your fault. It was just a bunch of shit that happened. Shit happens, but you're still here. Your baby isn't and that's sad, it's more than sad. It's awful, heart wrenching and of course it hurts, but you're here. That's the main thing right now. You're here and you need to just slow things down, calm down, and think."
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 15, 2007 20:54:58 GMT
I shook my head, pressing my lips together. "You're wrong. It was my fault. If I hadn't, if I had just resisted, I could have saved her, and her father."
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 15, 2007 21:27:43 GMT
"At what cost?"
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 16, 2007 0:40:18 GMT
I looked down. "Most likely? Me and Jon would've had to run away, and hide. Stay hiden, and try to raise her in secret. I'd never've seen Peter or the rest of my adopted family again, at least not for long. There'd likely be a death warrant out on me."
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 16, 2007 17:30:06 GMT
"Neither of your options were very appealing. But you made a choice. It may have been the wrong one, it may have been the right one, there's no point dwelling on what you can't change."
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 17, 2007 23:57:55 GMT
I nodded. "I guess."
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 18, 2007 19:24:48 GMT
I smile weakly.
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 18, 2007 22:42:19 GMT
I laughed weakly. "Wow, way for us to be down on life."
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 19, 2007 16:11:28 GMT
"At least we can say we're pretty good at something." I joke, laughing slightly.
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 19, 2007 22:22:47 GMT
I laughed. "Yup, that's us - World's best pessimists."
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 22, 2007 15:19:57 GMT
"We should get medals."
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 23, 2007 0:33:13 GMT
"But then we'd get happy and stop being pesimistic and they'd take them away."
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 23, 2007 11:02:16 GMT
"What assholes. Fuck them."
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 26, 2007 1:04:18 GMT
"Fuck the fucking fuckers!"
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 26, 2007 20:00:45 GMT
"For fuck's sake!"
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jun 28, 2007 15:52:06 GMT
"Fuckheads."
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jun 28, 2007 16:17:53 GMT
"Damn fuckers."
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Post by Annie Pettigrew on Jul 3, 2007 15:53:17 GMT
"Damn fucked up fuckers." I thought for a moment. "Wait, who were we talking about?"
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Post by Gideon Prewett on Jul 5, 2007 12:04:07 GMT
"Fuck knows." I laugh slightly.
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