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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 4:25:34 GMT
"your never going to get over this shit if you don't fucking try james!' 'shes dead ok i know this and so do you i loved her just as much as you did! and don't you think for one fucking second that i didn't!' i yell at james
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Post by James Smith on May 27, 2007 4:26:37 GMT
''I know you loved her man.'' i sighed. ''You were child hood sweet hearts.'' i sighed. i shook slightly and looked over the edge
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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 4:28:43 GMT
'no james we were more then that.' i pull out an engajment ring and whisper 'jamse i wanted to marry her i bought this a day before she was killed and you think your fucking crushed.' i look away from him ' i loved her and wanted her to be mine but fucking peter...' i paused 'hes gonna pay.'
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Post by James Smith on May 27, 2007 4:33:20 GMT
''I know.'' i sighed. ''But she was more then a sister to me, my best friend..'' i felt a tear fall down my cheek. ''I wanted her to go.'' i whispered. ''I WANTED THEM TO TAKE ME!'' i shouted and sunk to the floor.
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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 4:38:23 GMT
'AND CHARM WANTED TO TAKE YOUR PLACE JAMSE! SHE LOVES YOU AND YOU TOLD HER YOU LOVED HER BACK JAMSE! YOU CAN'T FUCK THAT UP BECAUSE OF SERRY SHE WOULDN'T WANT YOU TO BE THIS WAY JAMSE! FUCK I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE THIS WAY! SHE WOULD WANT YOU TO LIVE ON JAMSE!' i say yelling crying and shaking him all at the same time 'i love you man and i want you to move on. if anyone has right to sulk its me i wanted to marry her man.' i say calming down looking him in the eyes on my knees holding him and crying but not caring about that
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Post by James Smith on May 27, 2007 4:43:49 GMT
i paused and shook slightly. ''Jace?'' i said and looked around. ''Jace.'' i said a littly quickly and fearfull. ''Jace.'' i said again. ''I can see her.'' i said as i looked directly at the transpartent Serenity
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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 4:47:50 GMT
i paused and walk up to her and touch her cheek 'serry my lovely' i satrt to cry and i kiss her lips 'are you happy or are you worse than...' i choked on my words 'dead' i whisper
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Post by James Smith on May 27, 2007 4:52:09 GMT
She smiled. ''Hun, im not worth tears.'' she said wipping tears from his cheek. ''Im not.'' she walked over to me and kneeled down next to me, and kissed me lightly on the forehead. ''How are you holding up Jimbo?'' she asked. I touched her cheek slightly and shook my head. ''Horrible.'' i said and she sighed. ''Like i said, im not worth it.'' she got up and looked over the ledge of the tower. ''I wish i was thinking then.'' she sighed
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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 4:54:35 GMT
'not worth it serry?' i pull out the engagment ring 'wait for me serry on the other side because you are worth it. wait for me please wait for me.' i say holding it out to her praying she could take it
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Post by James Smith on May 27, 2007 4:57:31 GMT
she smiled. ''I'll wait Jace, i will.'' she said and slowly took the ring. She looked over at me. ''Jimmy, dont screw anything up with Char, we already planned how i was gonna be related to her.'' she said smiling slightly. I nodded. ''Okay Ser.''
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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 5:01:16 GMT
i look at him 'see she sides with me on that one man.' i look back to her and kiss her again 'serry i love you and only you i see you and only you and when i get on the other isde you and i will marry so don't go for those hot dead modles over there.' i smile 'i love you serry.'
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Post by James Smith on May 27, 2007 5:03:12 GMT
''I love you also Jawsey.'' she said as if she was a kid again. i started tearing up again. She's so happy
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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 5:04:43 GMT
'i love my serryz.' i say laughing and holding her hands but i notice they start to fade 'no don't go serry please not now we are haveing so much fun.' 'don't go.'
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Post by James Smith on May 27, 2007 5:07:36 GMT
She touched his cheek slightly. ''I have to go Jace.'' she said and smiled. ''I love you Jimbo.'' she said looking at me. ''Love you too Ser.'' i choked. as she almost disapeared
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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 5:12:15 GMT
'i love you serryz!' i yell as she dissappears from our eyes. i sink to my knees 'and you think you've got it bad man my love of my life is dead and waiting for me to marry her on the other side and i will because i love her but don't do that to charm man she loves you.' i say looking at him teary eyed
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Post by James Smith on May 27, 2007 5:16:30 GMT
''What if Charm died.'' i asked. ''I wouldnt say that i had it bad.'' i sighed. ''That was my sister, man.'' i said and sunk my head in my knees. ''She always saved me from my dad.'' i mumbled. ''I didnt thank her properly.''
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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 5:31:55 GMT
'you know something? she's not dead yet jamse but she loves you and would wait for you if she was. and your father. you know something serry rescued you but now you have to rescue her by rescuing yourself. stand up to your father jamse you can do it. i know you can.' i say trying to help him up
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Post by James Smith on May 27, 2007 5:33:16 GMT
''You dont get it Jason.'' i shout. ''Your telling me that you loved my own sister more then me.'' i yelled. ''Its bull shit.''
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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 5:37:36 GMT
'you know something jamse your full of shit my brother and i would kill myself if you were gone!' 'but serry didn't want me to i had the gun in my hand jamse you weren't there but i had it i felt like i lost everything but you and you were the one keeping me from pulling the fucking triger!' i yell 'think about that before you say fucked up shit like that.' i say looking down at him 'and don't tell me i don't get it jamse because i get it i'm liveing it.!"
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Post by James Smith on May 27, 2007 5:41:42 GMT
''Liveing shit.'' i yelled standing up. ''We are liveing a lie and no body knows it.'' i sighed. ''People think life is full of fun and happiness.'' i paused. ''I would know, i was one of them.'' i paused once again. ''And life is shit. Its just a little hole in space what figures live.'' i said and walked away. ''Everything is fake.''
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Post by jasonmiller on May 27, 2007 5:50:17 GMT
'you keep thinkignt that jamse.' i say as he leaves i look out on to the end of the tower 'i miss you serry"
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