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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 5, 2007 17:13:39 GMT
i was sitting in the astronomy tower. not really doing anything, just sitting. i walked over to the window and hung my feet out the side gazing down at the scenery below me. i put my hand and started to feel up and down my calf where i had a scar. it wasn't a normal scar though, i had gotten it one night when i was out in the forest.
"bloody centaurs." i mumbled as i got to the circle going in the middle of the line. see they can be very barbaric if provoked. and i provoked them. they believe that if they make a foot long cut that it three inches deep with a two inch deep circle in the middle of the line that the person will be cursed if they ever come back in the forest. hurt like hell and you could still see it clear as day. but instead of being the normal pink color or slight red, it was black. the had put vampire and unicorn blood mixed together on top of my blood, just to make it more painful.
"bloody damn centaurs!" i yell at the forest hoping that they might hear me. i knew they wouldn't, but that couldn't stop me from yelling at them from a distance.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 5, 2007 19:23:39 GMT
I walk into the astronomy tower to see Molly sitting there.
She yells at the forest, "Bloody damn centaurs!"
"I don't think they can hear you." I say from the doorway to the tower.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 5, 2007 20:46:20 GMT
"i know. but it helps me. a ghost went by here just a few seconds ago saying it dosen't do any good. phhft, does me. cover your ears, " i warn , "BLOODY DAMNED CEnTAURS! I HOPE YOU ARE DAMNED TO THE DEEPEST WHOLE OF THE FIREY PITS OF HELL AND ARE IN SO MUCH PAIN BUT WILL NEVER COMPLETLY DIE AND FEEL THAT PAIN FOR THE REST OF THE CRAPPY ETERNITY!!!!" i scream to the point a tear runs down my cheek.
"damn centaurs." i mumble to myself wipping the lone tear away, hopeing i would cry in front of remus.
"and i'll say it again! damn centuars!" i yelled a little more softer to the forest.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 6, 2007 9:16:22 GMT
I moved forwards as I saw the tear and put my hand lightly on her back. "Molly? What's the matter? What did they do anyway?"
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 6, 2007 13:55:26 GMT
"that." i say puting my leg foward so he could see the scar.
"bloody centuars made my leg a deformity. i look like a monster," i say wiping the second tear away trying to keep the other tears inside of me. i take a deep breath to try and calm myself, "your the first person i've ever shown this. my family dosen't even know about it."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 6, 2007 13:57:13 GMT
ooc in the second post where it says 'hoping i would cry in front of remus' it supposed to be wouldn't. i'm to lazy at the moment to go and modify the post so i'll just do this.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 6, 2007 13:57:21 GMT
I put my arm round her shoulders in a gesture of friendly comfort as another tear escapes her normally strong facade.
"Scars aren't the end of the world. I've got a few too." I say, running a hand over my facial scars. "They don't change anything. Hurt from time to time but what's life without a little pain?"
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 6, 2007 14:56:42 GMT
"but this one is huge and black. it's a deformity! they couldn't just leve it when they bloody cut me. nooo they had to mix different creatures blood in there! what hurts the most is that they were trying to hurt. me they wanted me to feel as much pain as i could. it's not the scar that hurtd the most, its the memory. the memory that i can't get out of my head. i could have stopped this from happening. if i hadn't been so stupid i could have done something. i'm stupid." i say leaning against him in a friendly way.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 6, 2007 15:00:58 GMT
"You're not stupid, Molly." I say. "We all make mistakes, and we all do stupid things from time to time. It doesn't make you stupid. Some people want to cause hurt." My voice suddenly becamse hard and bitter at the thought. "And in doing so they damage us irreperably, deformed irrevocably."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 6, 2007 15:03:05 GMT
"that was a lot of big words." i say laughing almost slilent, getting back to myself.
"thanks."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 6, 2007 15:07:44 GMT
"Yeah, sorry about that." I smile, glad to hear her laugh again. "Even when I'm trying to comfort someone I have to use big long confusing words. And no problem. I'm hardly going to leave you up here miserable, am I?"
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 6, 2007 15:11:17 GMT
"i would o the same for you" i say."you know what. i'm adopting you. you are now my adopted brother. you act like it already." i laugh agian at how dorky i can be sometimes.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 6, 2007 15:45:54 GMT
"Thanks Molly." I smile. "I'm flattered. And sure, I'll be your older brother. You're right, I do act like it anyway."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 6, 2007 23:32:04 GMT
"that's cool. i thought that you would be like freked out at your new adoption but seeing as your not. what will our last names be? like prepin or luwett." i laugh having to add some kind of joke in my sentance.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 7, 2007 9:38:00 GMT
"Why would I be freaked out? I think I sub-consciously adopted you as a little sister ages ago." I grin. "Prepin or Luwett? That's a hard one. I'll let you chose, seeing as I'm considerate like that."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 7, 2007 13:38:05 GMT
"you know, i like Luwett." i laugh.
"what about you?"
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 7, 2007 13:46:11 GMT
"Luwett suits me fine." I grin.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 7, 2007 13:58:43 GMT
"let the world know, we are no longer remus lupin and molly prewett! we are now molly and remus luwett!" i scream to the hogwarts grounds.
"he i need to ask you something. it's really important, and when ask you this it might be one of the only times i'm serious." i say.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 7, 2007 14:04:14 GMT
"Okay, go ahead and ask." I smile.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 7, 2007 14:27:47 GMT
"well umm.. umm.. i kind of.. umm.. saw you. but you weren't you... and.." i trail off trying to find a way to tell him that i knew he was a werewolf. i had no problem with it, i would even help in some kind of way if i could.
"but i don't care[/u][/i]. you are still the remus i know and love. i mean come on your my big brother remember?"
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 7, 2007 14:29:37 GMT
My smile froze on my face. "Molly," I lie. "I don't know what you're talking about."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 7, 2007 14:35:05 GMT
my heart broke into a million pieces. why was he lieing to me? he was one of my best friends and he was lieing to me. i got up and ran towards the gryffindor common room. away from him. if there was one thing i couldn't and wouldn;t stand is when people lied to me. why would remus lie to me? i was willing to help. i loved him like a brother. why?
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 7, 2007 14:40:50 GMT
Molly looked at me, she knew I was lying.
I hated myself so much right then, but it was too late.
She got up and ran from the astronomy tower.
I sigh and put my head in my hands.
She'd said she didn't care but it's different.
It's one thing, thinking you know something about someone and you assume you won't care but knowing it for sure is different, it changes everything.
I felt like all the lies I'd had to tell to everyone were tearing me apart inside but I couldn't tell the truth.
Not even to Molly.
She was like a sister to me and I couldn't even tell her the truth.
But she couldn't hate me, I wouldn't let her hate me.
I get up and stumble after her, "Molly! Please! Molly!"
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 7, 2007 14:49:38 GMT
"leave me alone!" i yell still running. i remembered that i had practice so i started to run down the stairs and towards the pitch.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 7, 2007 14:53:24 GMT
"No Molly! I'm not going to leave you alone!" I call after her, running after her out onto the pitch. "Please! Let me just-..." I pause, not sure what to say, 'explain' maybe? or 'apologise'?
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 7, 2007 14:59:15 GMT
"explain? explain why you lied to me? i really want to know why. maybe you can answer the million dollar question." i growl, stopping for a moment.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 7, 2007 15:02:27 GMT
"Molly," I say softly, putting a hand on her shoulder. "You don't know...I'm sorry. I'm so sick of lying. But-...you don't know what it does to people, when they know. They're scared, disgusted, they hate me Molly. I don't want you to as well."
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 7, 2007 15:16:10 GMT
i moved his hand off of my shoulder. i couldn't believe what he was saying.
"remus how dare you say i don't know! i've known for two months about it! have ai treated you any different? and you know what remsu, i love you. you're like family to me and i could never hate for having that. all i would do is love you more and want to help, and i still want to help. i'm not disgusted. i'll never be disgusted by that, just because you have something that chages you once a month doesn't disgust me. and how dare you say that i would be scared of you. how dare you lie to me remus! how dare you!" i say feeling tears run down my face. this wasn't turning out to be a good day. i wiped the tears away and started to walk away.
"you know remus, "i say turning around for one last comment, "i f i would ever hate you... it's because you did something like this. i never thought you would sink to trying to lie to your friends."
i turned away and kept walking down to the pitch. i felt one last tear fall, but it would be the last. i wasn't going to shead any more tears. not for anyone, not even for remus. someone who i had loved like a brother, not even for him.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 7, 2007 15:20:51 GMT
I watch her go.
There was nothing more I could say.
My eyes start to blur with tears but I blink them back.
I was not going to cry.
I turn and walk back to the common room, slowly, heart being torn to shreds with angry misery.
I was so sick of the lies.
So sick of them.
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Post by Molly Weasley on Apr 7, 2007 15:24:50 GMT
as i walk more tears blur my vision. i didn't want to leave like this. i turn around to try and talk to him, but i see that he's already gone.
"damn it." i curse loudly almost yelling.
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