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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 21:10:44 GMT
"Make this hurt stop then Shell," I whisper, feeling tears in my eyes."Do it.'
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 21:13:01 GMT
"Maddie." I say finally shaking the wand free from my hand. "You don't want to do this. Tru--" I trail off once more. How could she ever trust me again? After all, I'm the reason why she wants to kill herself, I'm the reason why she's mad at Ian, I'm the reason why they probably won't get married now.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 21:18:25 GMT
"Trust you?" I laugh without humor."I can't trust anyone." I catch sight of my arm, covered in scars."What have I done?" I whisper softly.
You became something your not.
Mum..
You can get help baby. Don't do this.
"I can't." I whisper, getting to my feet, with some effort.
"I can't.." I turn around making my way out of the Pub, past everyone.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 21:19:32 GMT
"Maddie..." I say chasing her, ignoring the peoples looks as I continue to follow her path.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 21:25:43 GMT
I don't even bother pulling my hood back up, as I head outside into the rain.
You can't keep running.
"Shut up!" I yell, putting my hand to my head, ingoring the fact the rain was coming down harder.
I'm not sure if I'm crying, my tears are probably mixed in with the rain as I see a pale light infront of me, and hear my mum's voice.
You'll be okay baby. I know you are.
I sob, not sure where to run to now.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 21:26:56 GMT
"Maddie stop!" I yell after her, grabbing one of her wrists. "Please calm down!" I say ignoring the fact that I left my coat in the bar.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 21:37:02 GMT
"Why the fuck do you care?!" I yell, trying to pull away."You got what you wanted, just leave me alone!"
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 21:39:52 GMT
"I'm telling you he wants you!" I say still holding onto her wrist.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 22:00:02 GMT
"Then why sleep with you?!" I yell back.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 22:00:43 GMT
"Because... maybe he loves us both. I don't know." I say shaking my head.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 22:08:28 GMT
"You can't love two people at once," I mutter, pulling my wrist away."He made his choice, it's you. I"m fine with that, just leave me alone."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 22:11:35 GMT
"You are not fine. I know you love him Maddie." I say to her. "And I know you can love more than one person at a time." I look towards the ground. I glance at my wedding ring and sigh.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 22:14:33 GMT
"I never said I didn't, I just know how to be the bigger person." I mutter, wrapping my arms around myself."You can, but it's wrong. And I don't want that. I'd rather not be loved at all then have to live with the fact he may love someone else." I can feel the tears start again."I hope your happy."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 22:41:26 GMT
I glare at her slightly, but I knew she was right. "Maddie, you're right. You are the bigger person. But are you that willingly to throw your love away for Ian that fast?" I ask her.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 22:46:03 GMT
"It was never love Shell." I whisper, Liar "You don't hurt people you love."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 22:47:09 GMT
"I know you still love him. If you didn't, we wouldn't be standing out here, in the rain yelling about this!"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 22:59:44 GMT
"You didn't have to follow!" I yell back."I am perfectly fine on my own, I don't need him. What I don't understand is why your here, you love him, he loves you. You have him!"
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 23:02:13 GMT
"Because I love Jay!" I yell at her. "I love him so much... but I love Ian too." I say softly.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 23:16:36 GMT
I want nothing more then to pull my hair out, "You can't love two people! It's just not possible!"
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 23:17:19 GMT
"Yes you can!" I yell back at her.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 23:22:06 GMT
"It's not fucking right!" I yell, putting my head in my hands,"It's not fair!"
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 23:22:55 GMT
"Well then have Ian!" I say back to her. "I know he'll want you back eventually Maddie. You're better than me for him in so many ways."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 23:29:38 GMT
"Don't you get it Shell?" I say softly, being able to calm down,"If this was the first time he's cheated yes, I'd go back. But it's not. Four times, four. That's just one too many for me."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 23:31:36 GMT
"F-four?" I repeat her, shocked. "Are you serious?"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 23:35:19 GMT
I laugh without humor."Oh he hasn't told you? That's Ian for you, that's Christopher for you. When he panics, he does bad things, mainly cheats. This isn't the first time he's done this Shell, won't be the last I can bet you that."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 23:44:34 GMT
"I know he has in the past, but not this many..." I say looking at the ground.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 23:47:27 GMT
I smile weakly, but it's not a good smile, one filled with pain.
"You date Ian Hunt, you get a lot of bagage. Don't expect the truth either, loads of secrets, just as many lies." I laugh without humor again,"It feels good not having to deal with this anymore"
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 23:49:14 GMT
I just stare at her as if she's crazy. "Well, good we'll be able to balance out the secrets, and lies." I say to her bitterly. "I'm not as cheerful and innocent as everyone believes."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 23:52:45 GMT
What is wrong with you? You've cracked.
"Oh no one believes that," I say softly,"You sure you'll be able to deal with that? Even the best of us crack,"
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 23:55:22 GMT
"After everything I've been through, this should be rather easy, putting up with him." I say to her, crossing my arms.
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