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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 19:07:02 GMT
I race inside the Leaky Cauldron, just in time to miss the loud crash of thunder. I glare up at the sky as rain starts to fall.
Don't get me wrong, I loved rain. I could do without the thunder and lighting though.
I nearly jump as I hear another crack of thunder, sliding into an empty booth, signaling for a firewhiskey.
Lowering my hood, I glance around. Pub was almost empty.
I sigh softly, sinking lowering into my chair as I nod thanks to the waiter, taking a swig of firewhiskey.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 19:10:08 GMT
I was already sitting in the bar at a table. I notice a person walking in and sitting down. I realise who it was after she pulled down her hood. Maddie.
Fuck.... I don't need this right now.
I stand up and start heading towards the bar, hoping that she didn't catch a glimpse of me yet.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 19:13:58 GMT
After downing a bottle, I rise shakily to my feet.
Catching glimpse of myself in a mirror, I stop, putting a hand to my cheek.
Look at you MJ! Your like a ghost! Your sick, you need help.
Fuck you Charlie, I'm fine. Never better.
"Never better," I whisper, making my way over to the bar, but stumbling slightly.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 19:18:49 GMT
I hear a few footsteps behind me, but I just keep walking faster, finally sitting on one of the bar stools. I order a firewhiskey, downing it in the matter of seconds. I clench my eyes a bit, thinking of what I had done.
I knew that I loved Ian, and that he was falling out of love with Maddie. But it was still wrong to have cheated on Jay as well as Maddie. I sigh and wait for another firewhiskey, moving a blonde strand and tucking into my messy bun.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 19:22:22 GMT
I stumble again, feeling to weak to even walk as I fall to the ground.
"Shit." I mutter, putting my hands on my legs, feeling numerous eyes turn and look at me.
You need help.
I need my son.
You need help.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 19:24:42 GMT
I hear a loud thud and instantly turn around. "Maddie..." I say softly, walking over and kneeling down next to her. But I don't try to help her up. I knew the moment she'll see me that I'll probably be on the ground as she was before. I watch her carefully, making sure she was at least okay.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 19:31:20 GMT
I shake my head, hearing someone mumble my name. A sob escapes my lips as I feel angry tears blur my vision.
I wasn't good enough to be a mother.
I dig my nails into my palms, puncturing the skin.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 19:33:10 GMT
"Maddie please..." I say reaching down for her hands, noticing the marks that she herself carved into her own palms.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 19:36:41 GMT
I instantly draw my hands away. It was a reflex, I couldn't help it.
Instead I run a hand through my hair,"They took him." I whisper softly.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 19:38:09 GMT
"Took who?" I ask her, gently putting a hand on her back.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 19:44:39 GMT
"Alex." I whisper softly, crying harder."My baby..they.."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 19:46:16 GMT
I gasp softly, realising what she meant. "Maddie, I'm so sorry." I say looking at her face slightly.
Good Job Rubalyn, make her feel worse than she already was...
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 19:52:39 GMT
I glance, realizing who I was talking to.
There's a flash of anger, and next thing I know I've hit her hard acorss the face.
"Get the fuck away from me."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 19:56:39 GMT
My legs clasp instantly landing on my back partially.
Alright you deserve that...
I just look at her, knowing I couldn't hit her back. I felt completely guilty and knew that Maddie would probably kill me giving the chance to.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:00:34 GMT
My wand is drawn and I can feel my eye burn as I stand above her, wand aimed at her.
Your not angry at her. Your not baby girl.
Shut up mum. Shut up.
This isn't the way Jane Marie, I raised you better.
I sob, dropping my wand and dropping back to my knees."You win," I say softly to Shell. Tears running down my face.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 20:03:35 GMT
My eyes wince slightly, when her wand is drawn directly at me, but I don't move. I sigh and look down at the ground, feeling tears form slowly behind my eyes, letting them fall without any emotion revealed on my face.
I hear her wand clack against the floor which causes me to look up at her.
"What? What do you mean I win Maddie?" I ask her completely confused.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:06:36 GMT
I feel myself start to shake as I cry harder, it was impossible to drown out mum's voice.
You'll be okay, you'll be okay baby.
No I won't. I won't.
"You win," I say softly, brushing my eyes with my sleeve,"You win him, he loves you. You can have him."
That's a lie you still love him Maddie.
"He doesn't love me."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 20:10:02 GMT
I still sit there, just staring at her trying to think through all the thoughts that rapidly poured into my mind.
You love Kyra, no you love Ian, no you're married to Jay, you love him...
"Maddie he can't love me. I know he..." I trail off, remembering what he said in the astronomy tower. He said that he was falling out of love with her. I just look at my hands now, avoiding her eyes.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:13:54 GMT
"He doesn't love me." I say firmly, getting a grip on myself.
"Why would he? He has you, wants you."
I shake my head, looking at the ground."I know him Shell. It's in his eyes. Always has been, I can alway tell. He loves you. You win."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 20:16:29 GMT
I sigh shaking my head. "No Maddie... I don't believe you." I say looking up at her.
I wrap my arms around myself, closing my eyes realising that everyone that was in the pub was staring only at us.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:25:20 GMT
What happed to Grandma Gilly mummy?
She died baby.
Cos of Grandpa Jack?
Yes.
She died of a broken heart, didn't she?
Yes she did my darling.
That's the way you'll die too.
I sob, leaning my head into my hands.
"You win, loves you."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 20:27:16 GMT
I stand up brushing off myself. I sigh moving slowly to her, "Maddie..." I say reaching out a hand trying to get her out of the floor. "Please Maddie... stand up."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:35:37 GMT
I shake my head, backing away from her as if she'll hurt me.
She already has.
"I thought you were my friend," I whisper.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 20:37:32 GMT
I sigh walking even closer since she backed away.
"Maddie I am your friend." I say in the same tone, still extending a hand to her.
A friend that sleeps with your fiancee... a real nice friend there aren't you?
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:45:18 GMT
I slap her hand away,"So you sleep with my fiancee? Thanks a lot, some friend." I say bitterly.
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 20:46:44 GMT
I hear people gasping. I sigh to myself, getting glares from everyone.
"Maddie I'm sorry... I don't know what else I can do or say."
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 20:52:18 GMT
My eyes find my wand.
She died of a broken heart, didn't she?
My hand curls around my wand and I hand it to her."Do it," I whisper softly."Do it."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 20:54:52 GMT
My eyes go as wide as they could. "No! I'll never do that Maddie! Never!" I say shaking my head, feeling more tears flowing down my face.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Jan 20, 2008 21:00:38 GMT
I grab her wrist putting my wand in her wand.
"You've hurt me more then enough, just end it." I whisper, taking her hand and leading it to my temple.
"Do it."
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Post by Shelby Chou on Jan 20, 2008 21:04:06 GMT
"No... I won't." I say trying to drop her wand. "Please Maddie, let me go." I plead to her.
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