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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 22, 2007 16:33:58 GMT
I sigh, twirling my spoon in my cup of coffee not really looking at anything.
I had a lot goign through my mind, and none of it was good.
You feel that? It kicked! That's our baby...
I feel a pang of guilt, then shake my head for being stupid.
It wasn't your fault, it was a miscarriage, no one tried to kill it that time...
It is my fault, I stopped eating, I stopped caring, it's my fault...
I sigh, running a hand though my hair before takinga sip of my coffee.
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 22, 2007 18:55:16 GMT
"Hi are you ok" i ask her because she was kind of talking to her self.
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 22, 2007 20:39:26 GMT
I look up hearing someone talk to me,"Huh? Oh yeah, fine." I smile weakly.
Liar, your not fine. Your far from it.
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 23, 2007 8:11:20 GMT
"want another coffee , on me you look like you need it"
she says kind of sensing something really was up
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 23, 2007 14:21:30 GMT
"Yeah, another one would be great," I smile weakly holding out my hand,"Maddie Speare."
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 23, 2007 14:23:42 GMT
"nice to meet you AJ McWalker "
i shake her hand
"i'll go get you that coffee any certain type?"
i ask
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 23, 2007 14:29:35 GMT
I nod my head in acknowlegdement.
"Black's fine." I mutter.
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 23, 2007 14:31:49 GMT
i walk over to the counter order a black coffee and a cappacino
i pick up the drinks and walk back
"here one coffee on me "
i smile and put the drinks on the table
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 23, 2007 14:36:34 GMT
I smile weakly, nodding and taking the drink.
"Thanks."
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 23, 2007 14:38:05 GMT
"so why are you here on your own ?"
i ask hopeing im not sounding rude
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 23, 2007 14:44:40 GMT
I shrug,"Needed a place to think, house is crowded with my over bearing family."
It wasn't a full lie, Charlie and Jack were over, but the were looking for me.
I hadn't been home in four days.
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 23, 2007 14:48:33 GMT
"over bearing family ... lucky you "
i say
i have a sister thats about it no one wants to know me
i shouldnt be so hard on myself
"yeah so is there anything i can help with?"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 23, 2007 14:53:31 GMT
"Oh yeah, real lucky." I mutter rolling my eyes and clicking my tongue against the roof of my mouth.
Charlie won't let me out of his sight for more then ten minutes without freaking out and Jack pulls rank and makes me do dangerous shit with him and as for the rest of the family, well their buried six feet under.
"Um, help me with?" I ask feeling a bit taken back by the question.
Unless you can go back in time to where I cheated on my boyfriend, twice, lost my baby and told my boyfriend I was amazed he had driven anyone else off a tower then no. You can't do anything for me.
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 23, 2007 14:57:41 GMT
"well its just i wondered if you wanted to talk bout it coz u look really like upset and stuff"
i don't know half my family ditched cheated on everything disowned ...
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 23, 2007 15:04:54 GMT
I shrug,"Everyone gets upset, it's human nature."
"So, what house?" I ask trying to get off the subject of me.
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 23, 2007 15:07:25 GMT
"oh um ravenclaw you?"
i was kind of taken aback by sudden subject change
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 23, 2007 15:12:22 GMT
"Gryffindor, 7th year."
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 23, 2007 16:39:57 GMT
"cool i don't know what year i am"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 23, 2007 16:43:28 GMT
I laugh slightly,"You don't? You just transfered I'm guessing?"
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 23, 2007 16:49:33 GMT
" yeah i am was kind of fed up with being the weird girl at my old school" i say
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 23, 2007 17:00:01 GMT
"Oh?" I ask,"Where was your old school?"
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 23, 2007 17:08:45 GMT
" a muggle school when i was really young i had to leave because obviously i'm different" i sigh
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 23, 2007 17:09:33 GMT
"There's nothing wrong with being different," I say,"Oh god a muggle school?" I grimace,"I don't think I could have handled that,"
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 24, 2007 5:53:19 GMT
"yeah kind of a nightmare because i couldn't control my powers which cause havoc in the classroom " i say kind of smiling
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 24, 2007 20:46:08 GMT
"Oh, must have been loads of fun for the muggles." I laugh.
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 25, 2007 16:44:24 GMT
"yeah , i knew i could make you smile "
i say slightly smiling myself
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 25, 2007 20:41:06 GMT
"Yeah, well it doesn't take that much," I smile weakly.
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 26, 2007 16:30:12 GMT
"yeah maybe but you looked sad so that means maybe i cheared you up a little bit ?"
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Post by Madeline Speare on Sept 27, 2007 0:32:09 GMT
"Yeah, a little bit."
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Post by dalesangel on Sept 27, 2007 16:35:18 GMT
"well there go i found something i'm good at " i say smiling
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