I'm So Sorry

[hiddenindarkness]

After leaving the Order, I felt ashame of what I had done. I had managed to slap, hurt, and lose one of the people, who I trusted with my life. 'I am not a very good friend,' I thought. Ever since I had came to Hogwarts, my life had been turned upside down. My mother was dead, my father was a suspected DeathEater, my interest in Dark Arts & Potions had pushed my friends away from me, and I began to see myself as a person, who I didn't want to be, a true Pure-Blood, who only cared for those of their equal status. "Why did I let myself become this person?" I cried sitting in a corner booth. I order several rounds of Firewhisky. I wanted to forget everything; my friends, family, Him, and life. And so I began a long journey on a road to forgetting everything.

[sorachicora]

"Hey Yuri that wont work" I said sitting down next to her.

[hiddenindarkness]

"Do you really think I give a damn, Sora," I sneered. 'Oh great,' I thought, 'Now I really sound like an stuck up Pure-Blood.' I banged my head against the wall of the booth.

[sorachicora]

"who crawled up your ass and died?" I asked

[hiddenindarkness]

I laughed a hallow laugh. "I managed to hurt everyone around me in one day," I said, "I am starting to become the very thing that I don't want to be, a Proper Pure-Blood, who only cares for those of equal political / economicial power as myself."

[sorachicora]

"you know that little person in our head that tells us that we are better than everybody else just because we're 'pure-blood'? I just tell it to shut the fuck up and just go on with my life" I said

[hiddenindarkness]

"Not as easy when you have a father, who does nothing but drill that into your head for seventeen years of your life," I replied.

[sorachicora]

"Try having an entire family drill you" I said with a small smile