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Post by Michael Watkins on May 1, 2007 20:17:52 GMT
"Appreciated." I nod, leaning my head on the table again.
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 1, 2007 20:23:42 GMT
"No problem."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 1, 2007 20:28:46 GMT
"You know, you are very very lucky to have Remus." I say, not looking up at her. "I asked him to come and help me get revenge and he said he couldn'y. He said he wanted to help me, he said he'd rather it were him than Jo so I wouldn't be feeling this, but he said he couldn't because he couldn't leave you and baby. You are very lucky to have a guy like that."
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 1, 2007 20:34:37 GMT
"I know and I'm happy I met him. And you're lucky too. It is better to love and lost than ever not loved at all."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 1, 2007 20:36:35 GMT
"Bollocks. Whoever said that was speaking out of their ass. Sometimes I wish I'd never met her."
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 1, 2007 20:46:40 GMT
"No you don't." I smirk. "She's a good friend, and she cared for you."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 2, 2007 11:24:58 GMT
"Nope, I wish I never knew her. I wish I didn't care. I wish I didn't lo-...become emotionally attatched to her." I say, shrugging with forced and painful flippancy.
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 2, 2007 15:49:37 GMT
"You love her and she loves you."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 2, 2007 18:23:35 GMT
"Loved. I loved her. She may have loved me. Loved as in past tense."
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 2, 2007 18:47:01 GMT
"Love transends time and space."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 2, 2007 18:47:59 GMT
"Can love transend the barrier between life and death?"
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 2, 2007 18:50:04 GMT
"Yes, she will always be a part of you and you will always be apart of her even when she is reborn."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 2, 2007 18:51:56 GMT
"And I'll always with the knowledge that I killed her. That it's my fault she's dead and that when I tried to go and get revenge I got hexed into oblivion and saved by a rat." I growl.
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 2, 2007 18:55:45 GMT
"Don't blame yourself, Mika."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 2, 2007 18:58:00 GMT
"Why? Did you hear what Peter said? She was offered the chance to live and be completely free if I died, but she chose to die so that I could live. It's my fault, and if you argue with me, then you're wrong and it'll be futile because I'm not going to change my mind and I know that it's true."
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 2, 2007 19:02:55 GMT
"Then I want to tell you that it was a selfless act of love. She didn't want to be selfish like you are being right now. She loves you and gave her life for you and you just want to die because she did, but there is a reason why she didn't want you to die was to life for the both of you."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 2, 2007 19:08:05 GMT
"But I'd do anything, I'd do anything at all, so it was me rather than her. She had so much more than me, in this life, she deserved to live so much more than me. I told her, right before she left, that I was so desperate nothing happened to her that I would rather die than ever see her hurt."
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 2, 2007 19:10:05 GMT
"Now she's not hurting any more...you have to life your life and hers."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 2, 2007 19:14:25 GMT
"I don't want to." I mumble. "There's no point."
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 2, 2007 19:18:36 GMT
"Bull you're just scared of what life throws at you. You've had a hard life and you know if you hang on a little bit more some one you love will be there for you but you haven't met her yet, but if you don't move forward you won't."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 2, 2007 19:22:53 GMT
"You're right. I am scared. I'm bloody terrified. Everytime something happens, I think 'oh well, it can't get any worse' and it always does." I laugh, with a slight hint of hysteria. "Something always happens and it always gets that little bit worse. I can't think, don't want to think, what could possibly happen at the moment, but I'm sure my own mind will manage to do something to me, or fate will do something to me, or someone else. I don't know. I'm being hysterical." I slap myself round the face. "Bad, stupid, hysterical Mika." I mutter, slapping myself round the face again.
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 3, 2007 4:38:57 GMT
I take his hand. "Stop hurting yourself." I say sternly. "You're going to find the love of your life and live happily ever after."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 3, 2007 15:34:55 GMT
"Look at me, I'm a wreck." I snort. "There is no way any girl, in her right mind or not, will want anything to do with me in that sense."
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 3, 2007 15:40:02 GMT
"That is what you think, you're off in your own world not to notice any one who cares for you."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 3, 2007 15:42:20 GMT
"I know." I moan. "I massively screwed up. I got back to HQ, after-...erm...my attempted raid on the death eaters where Peter seriously 'taught me a lesson' and passed out. I came round had a blazing row with Peter, then got slapped by Yuri and had her yell at me that she couldn't understand why she'd 'fallen for someone so selfish' or something. I didn't notice at all."
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 3, 2007 15:45:24 GMT
"So see Yuri wants you." I smile. "Just try to remember that in this world there are 6 people made for you. You're bound to run into the them one day."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 3, 2007 15:47:26 GMT
"Yuri hates me now. I'm too selfish to care about anyone else apparently and go running off trying to get revenge without a second thought towards my friends."
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 3, 2007 15:50:19 GMT
"So she doesn't hate you. She cares too much and you don't see that so she's just mad that you don't care about her feelings."
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Post by Michael Watkins on May 3, 2007 16:49:43 GMT
"I do care though. Not like, as in love care, but as in friend care. I do care. I'm just hopeless at showing it."
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Post by Rin Lupin on May 3, 2007 17:09:31 GMT
"Maybe you just need help with it."
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