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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 11, 2007 18:31:56 GMT
You do realize that you cannot afford these? a voice asks in my head as I finger the sleeve of some new robes. It is a very sensible voice which sounds skeptical of my sanity, and I respond to it indignantly.
Yes, I do... and I'm not interested anyway. I'm.... I shake my head and swallow dryly, realizing that once more I can't remember why I came someplace... and this time there's no chance for any simple, logical explanation - thereby increasing the importance of finding one.
I look around the store and then down at myself, hoping for some clue that remains out of reach, and then I close my eyes to ward off panic.
If you panic then you never will remember... just try to distract yourself and it will be okay, the voice reminds me sharply, and I nod, eyes still closed.
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 14:12:22 GMT
While rummaging through the store I look around and see a familiar face,"Arden? Is that you?"I say walking up to her.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 14:18:48 GMT
"What?" I ask in a high voice, turning toward the person who said my name and then relaxing. "Oh... hi, um... Andy. Yes, it is me. Unless it's someone else masquerading as me." I smile slightly.
That made little sense.
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 14:21:23 GMT
I laughed,"Now that would be scary. But no one could impersonate you right. You're one of a kind."I smile,"So, what are you doing here?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 14:25:42 GMT
I laugh a little nervously at the first bit, rather flattered, then stop, opening my mouth to say who-knows-what. "Ah... um... well... actually, I'm not really sure." I shrug. "Short-term memory problems... it'll come to me if I'm distracted. How about you?"
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 14:30:28 GMT
I laugh again,"You're really funny. It's hard for me to not stay distracted. Something usually always seems to catch my eye."I tell her,"Baby clothes shopping, well rather looking."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 14:35:43 GMT
I nod. "Oh, that's right. You have... how many kids again?" I ask apologetically. "And believe me, you're helping, so thank you." I smile.
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 14:38:14 GMT
"Two at the moment. They just seem to grow up so fast."I smile,"Well glad to be of some service."I laugh saluting.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 14:44:01 GMT
I salute back, laughing a little. "Just as long as I don't startle you when I do remember," I say. "Um... and I remember you have a little boy... but not his name or anything else. How old are they?" I ask curiously.
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 14:51:52 GMT
I laugh,"You might make me jump but I doubt I'll run around screaming or anything."I smile,"Brian's the eldest almost 2 now and Destiny is almost a year."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 14:56:42 GMT
"Wow," I say, shaking my head. "I still don't know how you do it, being a mum. And I would be extremely sorry if I unhinged you enough to make you do that." I smile slightly.
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 15:00:15 GMT
"Neither do I, I guess it just happens."I laugh,"Well even if that did happen then I would imagince that the look on my face would be priceless."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 15:06:42 GMT
"Yes, probably," I nod. "Although I'd feel too bad to laugh. You like being a mum though?"
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 15:16:54 GMT
"Well, I wouldn't want to make you feel bad so I won't run around."I smile,"For the most part yes, motherhood has it's ups and downs. Like dirty dipers."I laugh
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 15:25:44 GMT
"Being one of the downs, I'd imagine," I nod, then smile slightly. "But as long as you're happy... too few people are these days."
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 15:34:51 GMT
"Yeah, I'm happy. Are you?"I ask her.
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 15:41:34 GMT
I hesitate a moment on that question, thinking it over with my head tipped slightly to the side, wanting to answer it honestly.
"Yeah, I'm okay," I say after a moment. "Little mixed up once in a while, and maybe not what I'd normally describe as happy... but I've got it pretty good, I guess." I nod. "Are you really happy, or just doing that 'fine' sort of thing that people do?"
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 15:47:05 GMT
"I'll go with inbetween. I mean these are pretty dark times and to be happy all the time would be just wierd."I tell her,"But I do realize that I'm better off than some people around here."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 15:53:48 GMT
I nod fervently. "Yeah, that's... almost exactly it," I say. "I'm lucky compared to a lot of people. And I can't do much else, so the best I can do to help in this war is to try and make everyone else just the slightest bit better off." I smile slightly. "But I'm glad I don't have to help you."
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 16:00:23 GMT
"I know what you mean, I hate seeing some people who deserve better suffering. I try to help anyone I can. It's just not fair that everyone has to suffer in some way or another."I smile reasuringly,"Don't worry, I kow I have to be strong for those around me."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 16:05:57 GMT
I nod. "Yeah... and those who do deserve to suffer are loving every minute of everybody else's." I shake my head. "And I think I know what you mean... I spent a long time wallowing in my own silly problems, 'til my best friend's mum died and I finally snapped out of it." I shrug and shake my head again. "Has to all end soon, right?" I ask with a shaky little laugh.
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 16:25:51 GMT
"One day karma will catch up to them though. Then it will be worse for them."I sigh,"Yeah, when I came back I was a bit depressed but then I did alot better after I met up with some old friends and made new ones." I give a small laugh,"Yeah, it does. But when that time comes I know I won't have any regrets."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 16:35:42 GMT
"Lucky you," I say with a small smile, then nod. "And yeah... friends make all the difference sometimes... just knowing that if you get hurt you'll just be transferring your pain to someone else. You believe in karma too?"
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 27, 2007 16:46:16 GMT
"Yeah, I do. It's a bitch sometimes."I laugh,"But it's helpful to some people."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 27, 2007 16:52:17 GMT
"Karma?" I ask, just to make sure. I nod. "I have to believe in karma, believe that it'll all be okay, that justice will be served. I have a... friend, though. Sort of. Well, I know him anyway... who managed to pop some of my bubble where justice is concerned." I shrug and shake my head.
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 28, 2007 3:47:44 GMT
"yeah, Karma."I tell her,"It might not be anytime soon but everyone get's their just deserts in the end. If you don't mind, may I ask who it is?"
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 28, 2007 4:37:22 GMT
"No, I don't mind," I shrug, shaking my head. "I don't know if he would though... we were talking about karma, see, and how fucked up his life is... and I asked if he thought maybe all the... horrible things that had happened to him were payment for what he had done to others...." I shrug. "But if so, he pointed out, then karma is still unfair because a lot of innocent people have been hurt to pay him back. And... it's just made me wonder if I'm right, and if there's justice."
I shrug again and try to figure out if any of my rambling made sense in the context of the conversation.
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 28, 2007 16:26:00 GMT
"Hmm, I see where he's coming from then. But I think that karma has just been messed up during this war. Too many innocent people are being hurt, so I don't exactly think that karma is what is hurting all of the innnocent people I think it's just some fucked up people."I pause,"Sorry about the language."
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Post by Arden Patricks on Oct 28, 2007 16:34:11 GMT
I shake my head at the apology, then shrug. "But if karma can get sidetracked, or... forget to keep things equal... I don't know, it just doesn't seem right. I think I still believe in it, but... it's hard to say." I shrug again.
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Post by Andromeda Black on Oct 28, 2007 16:38:20 GMT
"Well, I don't really know. I believe in karma coming around to those individuals who have done really wrong things. But something to that person directly, not involving other innocent people. Karma is quite confusing...maybe it's like destiny and can be changed."
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