Post by hiddenindarkness on Apr 30, 2007 19:35:00 GMT
After the news of Jo's death, I felt myself backing away from people. I was more quiet than normal and I just wanted to be alone. I couldn't face Mika or anyone without crying. I walked into the Hogs Head. It was not my type of place, but I couldn't care less now. I wanted to try and get rid of the guilt that I had on my shoulders. I felt that the reason Jo was dead was because I didn't stop her when I had the chance. Then there was Mika. I must have been the worst friend in the world to him, trying to give him hope and faith. I spat, "The only hope and faith you find is in fairy tales." I went over to the bar an ordered the strongest liqour they had. I had easily gone through two bottles, but I was not inclined to stop until I passed out.