Joanna Miller
Ghost
Former Gryffindor
. x . Let the rain fall . x .
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Post by Joanna Miller on Apr 9, 2007 11:59:19 GMT
I sat at a table in the Hogs head, my head propped up on one hand. My vision was blurred with tears as I stared at the near-empty bottle of firewhiskey in front of me. I could almost see his face in front of me. "Why did you do it?" I mutter angrily to the trick of my imagination. I hit the table and down the rest of my firewhiskey then order another one and swig at that, before slamming it on the table and going back to staring miserably into space. I wanted to drink away the pain and here was the only place to do it. I couldn't go to the Three broomsticks. There was too many people I knew in there. Too many of my friends. I didn't want my friends right now. I wanted someone who understood. But there didn't seem to be anyone. I take another glum swig of my firewhiskey and start to cry again, silently, still staring dead ahead, alone with my misery and pain.
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Post by hiddenindarkness on Apr 12, 2007 15:27:02 GMT
I walked into the Hogs Head. I wasn't much of a drinker after the accident involving Temari and myself in my third year at school in Japan. I ordered something lite and then saw Jo. She didn't look to well. I went over to her and asked with concern, "Jo, are you okay?"
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Joanna Miller
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Former Gryffindor
. x . Let the rain fall . x .
Posts: 617
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Post by Joanna Miller on Apr 13, 2007 7:49:51 GMT
"No." I say darkly, taking another swig of firewhiskey.
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Post by hiddenindarkness on Apr 13, 2007 18:44:34 GMT
"What is wrong sweetie?" I asked. I looked at the first bottle of firewhiskey on the table. 'Note to self, make sure she doesn't drink anymore after this bottle of firewhiskey she has now,' I thought.
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Joanna Miller
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Former Gryffindor
. x . Let the rain fall . x .
Posts: 617
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Post by Joanna Miller on Apr 14, 2007 8:25:31 GMT
"Life in general." I mumble, slumping my head on the table.
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Post by hiddenindarkness on Apr 28, 2007 11:45:14 GMT
"Life in general?" I repeated in a question, "What is wrong Jo? and I think you had enough Firewhisky. I don't want you to hurt yourself. I don't think I could forgive myself if one of my friends her herself in a drunken state."
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Joanna Miller
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Former Gryffindor
. x . Let the rain fall . x .
Posts: 617
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Post by Joanna Miller on Apr 28, 2007 11:47:29 GMT
"Why? It won't matter much anyway soon. I'll be dead soon." I mumble, resting my head on the table, but letting her take the bottle away.
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Post by hiddenindarkness on Apr 28, 2007 11:49:54 GMT
"Don't talk like that!" I exclaimed.
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Joanna Miller
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Former Gryffindor
. x . Let the rain fall . x .
Posts: 617
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Post by Joanna Miller on Apr 28, 2007 11:52:21 GMT
"It's true." I say, "Soon, I'll be dead." I shrug. "Then it won't matter that I drunk myself into this state when I was still alive."
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Post by hiddenindarkness on Apr 28, 2007 12:09:25 GMT
"Yes it will because there are people who love and care about you too much to let you travel down this path," I hissed, "Sorry being a b*tch, but it is true."
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Joanna Miller
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Former Gryffindor
. x . Let the rain fall . x .
Posts: 617
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Post by Joanna Miller on Apr 28, 2007 12:10:47 GMT
"If said people love and care about me then they'll know that it's for the best that I just go out without a fight. Even if I did put up a fight, I'd still be killed. I just-...I can't do it."
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Post by hiddenindarkness on Apr 28, 2007 12:23:43 GMT
"What happened to the strong girl I meet when I first came to Hogwarts?" I said, "The one who was a brilliant Quidditch Captain and Keeper, the one who was eager enough with the other girls to bring me out of my shell when I was in denial because I the way I was brought up. You're a strong women Jo and your capable of breaking through chains that hold you down, if only you let someone help you."
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Joanna Miller
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Former Gryffindor
. x . Let the rain fall . x .
Posts: 617
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Post by Joanna Miller on Apr 28, 2007 12:40:21 GMT
"It's a mask. The strong capable quidditch captain you met was fake. She never existed and I can't be bothered to pretend she does anymore. This is me." I hold out my arms as if introducing myself. "This is the real me. A pathetic, miserable, drunken wreck."
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Post by hiddenindarkness on Apr 28, 2007 13:08:53 GMT
"I think your wrong," I stated, "The person I saw that night was the strong capable quidditch captain. I don't like being a b*tch, but you are not pathetic. Your far from it."
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Joanna Miller
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Former Gryffindor
. x . Let the rain fall . x .
Posts: 617
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Post by Joanna Miller on Apr 29, 2007 8:38:29 GMT
"Oh yeah, sure. I've never taken responsibility for anything in my life, I always make the wrong choice, I'm constantly embarassing myself and others around me, I'm an very very mean drunk who gave Molly a nosebleed for trying to help...I'm just pathetic."
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Post by hiddenindarkness on Apr 29, 2007 10:42:53 GMT
"Everyone is not perfect Jo," I said, "I am not perfect and my father has made me make sure of that." I showed her the cuts that would never leave reminding me on how much I truely hated my father. "Jo, just because you been on the wrong side of the tracks doesn't mean you can't turn your life back around."
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