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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 21, 2007 16:47:42 GMT
"Your welcome."
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 21, 2007 20:48:59 GMT
"Now, I'm a bit curious, but you're not obligated to answer. But who was she?"
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 22, 2007 10:51:16 GMT
"Who was who?" I say quickly, playing for time.
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 22, 2007 15:58:04 GMT
"The girl. The one you used to like."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 22, 2007 17:09:44 GMT
"Oh," I pause, deciding it won't do any harm. "Her name was Anna. She was a Muggle."
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 22, 2007 19:03:22 GMT
I laugh kindly. "That's cute, Remus."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 22, 2007 19:19:35 GMT
"I guess." I say sadly. "I miss her."
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 22, 2007 19:27:14 GMT
"Move away or something?"
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 22, 2007 19:27:59 GMT
"Died." I say blankly.
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 22, 2007 19:30:35 GMT
I wince. "Sorry I brought it up."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 22, 2007 19:37:34 GMT
"Don't worry. It was years ago..." I think for a moment. "...two years ago...yes, two."
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 22, 2007 20:47:39 GMT
"I'm sorry."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 23, 2007 17:34:01 GMT
"Me too, but I can't take it back, can I?" I shrug.
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 24, 2007 0:57:31 GMT
"No. Those things you can't." I think about what he said. "Wait. You said that you couldn't take it back. Remus, did you have anything to do with her death?" I sit up and look at him, worried.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 24, 2007 18:37:43 GMT
"Shit..." I groan, lying back down. I sigh heavily. "Yes, I did."
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 24, 2007 21:44:32 GMT
I look at him sadly. "What happened, Remus?" I whisper.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 25, 2007 16:25:46 GMT
"It was the full moon." I say quietly, shutting my eyes tightly so I wouldn't have to see her. "She shouldn't have been there, but she didn't know. How do you explain to a with or wizard that you're a werewolf, let alone a muggle? And-...I didn't want-...I didn't want to risk losing her, if I told her. I wish I had. If I'd have told her, she'd still be alive. But because I was too scared-..." I trail off, unable to continue.
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 25, 2007 20:50:25 GMT
I look at him iwth a mix of horror and sorrow. Then, I reach towards him, take his face in my hands and bring it up to face me. "Look at me, Remus."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 25, 2007 20:55:13 GMT
I flick my eyes to the floor then force myself to look at her. "Don't hate me, Ange." I say softly.
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 25, 2007 21:09:03 GMT
I look him in the eyes. "I could never hate you, Remus Lupin. There was nothing you could have done. It was...her time to go, I suppose." I smile. "Besides. I can't hate the people who keep me sane. Well, sort of sane."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 25, 2007 21:18:12 GMT
"Her time to go? She was 15 when she died." I say quietly.
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 25, 2007 21:22:42 GMT
The smile drops off my face and I sigh. "Remus, do you believe in God?"
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 26, 2007 17:28:41 GMT
"No. I don't see how if there is a God, he would let all these awful things happen." I say honestly.
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 27, 2007 23:06:24 GMT
"Well I do. I also believe that nothing is by coincidence. I believe that out creator put each of us here with a mission, so to speak. That he wanted each of us to touch someone's life or do something to make an impact. Then he takes us back home." I look up for a second then back at him. "I don't believe that her death was your fault. God wanted his angel back. And He can't keep everything under his control, you know. Where there is God, there is Satan.
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 28, 2007 10:21:04 GMT
"It's a nice thought." I say quietly. "But I try everything, every possible thing I can to tell myself it wasn't my fault, but I hear her. I hear her in my head all the time and I know it was. I hear her screaming, I hear her parents crying outside the ward in St Mungo's, I see the expression on my dad's face, I remember how my own mother couldn't even look at me...It was my fault, Ange. "
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 28, 2007 17:31:22 GMT
I wrap my arms around him. "It was not your fault." I let him go and look him in the eyes. "but if you insist on believing it was, quit painting yourself as the bad guy. Blame the beast, not the man."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 28, 2007 17:40:33 GMT
"The beast is the man. People talk about me as if I'm two seperate things, a normal guy and a werewolf, but I'm not. I'm just one. There are no two sides, it's just the one. I'm always a werewolf, I'm never not."
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 28, 2007 17:57:25 GMT
I shake my head. "That's not how everyone else sees it. When we look at you normally, what we see is a kind, gentle, realistic guy, fun loving and likeable. But when the moon is full, you're not the good guy we see anymore. You're not the same. Thus comes the beast. The ruthless, animalistic beast. And that is not the Remus that we all know. That is his curse."
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Post by Remus Lupin on Apr 28, 2007 18:02:40 GMT
I found it very hard to believe what she was saying, but I just nod.
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Post by Angela Wood on Apr 28, 2007 18:45:04 GMT
I sigh. "I know you don't think so, but I don't see teh wolf in you, other than in the shack."
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