yes! yes! yes!

[Yumi Baker]

i sit on the the stairs in the entrace hall having a muggle pencil on my nose.
"five...four...three...two...one..." i mutter to myself and let the pencil fall and leap up in joy. "yes! yes! yes! i did!" i laugh doing a little victory dace. "two whole bloody hours!" i laugh holding the pencil in my hand. "i did it!" i laugh still jumping in joy. i knock into someone on accident and almost fall. once i get my balence back i brush myself off. "very sorry." i say grinning then look up and see..........

[Rowan Hunt]

I laugh, stumbling against the banister as someone jumps into me, nearly knocking over Poppy at the same time.
"No worries," I grin, "What's the big occasion?"

[Yumi Baker]

"teh big occasion is that i had this pencil balenced on my nose for two mother fu-" i start but see a small girl with him. "for two hours! believe it or not that a big thing for me. don't ask why cos i don't know why either." i grin "i don't have much of a life anymore.." i chuckle softly

[Rowan Hunt]

I laugh, "Nice save by the way, well...er...congratulations on that though."

[Yumi Baker]

"thanks. and i'm used to things like that. i look after two kids, so it kinda comes as instinct now." i chuckle and look down at the girl. "she's cute." i smile

[Rowan Hunt]

"I know," I smile, picking her up, "Looks like her mother," I laugh slightly, flicking her red hair at the ends. "How old are your kids? What are their names? How do you look after them? Because I'm lost with this one." I laugh, only half-joking.
She wasn't even mine, but only two people knew that and one of them was me.

[Yumi Baker]

i laugh softly, "slow down there for a kinute." i grin, "ok their names are brett and mia. but they're not mine. adopted brett from a small orphanage in london, and mia was my friends daughter. he died a little bit ago." i say, my smile faultering a bit, "mia's three and a half, and brett's about four." i smile, "i have no idea how i look after them. i live with my-.." i say. i was about to say my friend, but i wasn't sure at the moment. "i live with sirius black. he helps out a lot. i mean i just have to make sure they don't hurt themselves. feed them good. i take them out a lot. they like to walk around diagon alley. and mia and brett love to paint on the walls. and for some reason i let them..." i chuckle, "doesn't bother me. i probably should be more strict, but oh well. they do what i say when i tll them it's nap time or time to eat ad things like that so i guess i'm doing good." i chuckle

[Rowan Hunt]

I smile, "Oh, that means you must be Yumi then. My brother's a friend of Sirius' and yours I think, although he didn't seem sure about that. I don't know. I don't question him, when he's in one of his weird moods."

[Yumi Baker]

"yeah..i didn't know ian had a brother. man keeps suprising me. first the name, now this." i chuckle, "and yeah i guess you could say sirius and i are friends." i shrug and stroke poppys hair a bit. "her mum must be really pretty." i smile down at her

[Rowan Hunt]

"Yeah, he's like that. I come back after a few months of deadness and he's going to be a father." I laugh slightly, "Poor man. Freaking out awful." I smile, "Yeah, her mum was beautiful."
My smile falters slightly. It felt wrong to talk about her like that, like I was doing her and Ian some great disrespect.

[Yumi Baker]

"yeah, ian'll be a good dad. no matter how much he dobts it, i tihnk he will." i say "shocked sirius isn't freaking out..." i chuckle. "and she was?" i ask

[Rowan Hunt]

"Yeah, he will. He's just too neurotic for his own good and keeps saying he won't and then he freaks out that he's going to end up getting back into every bad habit he's ever had and being a bad influence and everything else. There's no getting through to him," I laugh, "And Sirius probably is freaking out. Just not letting on. But then again I wouldn't know."
I stop laughing almost immediately, "Yeah, she was. She...she killed herself couple of months back. And then we find out she didn't lose the baby after all and all that time she was gone before, she'd had Poppy and dropped her off at an orphanage and then Erin turns up and then she's gone again, and it's just a little complicated."

[Yumi Baker]

i laugh, "yeah and it seems that i'm the only one freaking out. sirius only seems to e happy bout the hole thing, for the most part. thought he'd be grinning for the rest of his life when i told him that we were having a boy." i chuckle, then stop once he does. then he says erin. "erin...wait..that was ian's girlfriend wasn't she?" i ask, "i don't know much. kinda came after it all happened."

[Rowan Hunt]

"Every guy wants a son," I grin, then look at Poppy, "Oops. I mean, well you know what I mean. I love her to death, wouldn't trade her for anything."
Oh...shit...well done, Rowan. You're going to blow it and he'll never forgive you.
"Was it? Oh, guess we must have had similar taste in the names of our girlfriends then." I laugh weakly.

[Yumi Baker]

i laugh, "yeah i get what you're saying." i grin. then i hear his voice in my head. crap crap crap. even though i didn't understand it i pretended that i didn't heara thing. "yeah guess you did..." i say. "maddie was a bit worried about me though. she thought i was going to try that..."

[Rowan Hunt]

I laugh, more out of relief. I couldn't afford for people to find out. Neither of us could.
"That'd be awful. It's such a-...such a horrid way to go. I-..." I stop, "Well, you're not, are you?"

[Yumi Baker]

i shake my head. "no..." i say softly and pull my bare arms close to me as if covering up the past. "and even if i did, highly dobut anyone would let me. and i couldn't do that to sirius, or mia and brett."

[Rowan Hunt]

I smile weakly, ignoring the gesture, hoping I'd misread it, "Then you got your priorities right, at least."
"Can I talk to her?" Poppy asks me quietly.
"Go ahead," I reply, grinning slightly.
She holds out her hand, "I'm Poppy. You're supposed to shake it. Then we won't be strangers anymore so I can talk to you."

[Yumi Baker]

i look at him a bit but turn away, "yeah.." i say. should have bee more suddle(sp?).. "it's nice to meet you poppy.." i chuckle softly, "did you teach her that?" i ask unable to look him in the eyes completely

[Rowan Hunt]

"No! My second daddy did. My first daddy is the bad one." She tells her.
"Oi, watch it you," I chuckle, clipping her on the chin softly.
I knew better than to judge of course. I'd spent years of taking sharp objects off my own brother, many arguments in different hospitals that he couldn't keep doing it to himself, said the same thing over and over again to be greeted with the same lie over and over again, I don't do it anymore. I'm better now.
"You know there's no shame in asking for help," I sat quietly, carefully after a moment, brushing the hair out of Poppy's eyes so Yumi'd have an excuse not to meet my eyes if she didn't want to.

[Yumi Baker]

i laugh softly as he clips her chin but stop dead when he says that. "need help with what?" i ask trying to sound casual and sit next to him

[Rowan Hunt]

I shrug, deciding to also go for casual, "Just help with anything. I mean, there's always someone who's been through...well, anything. Always someone to help with anything you need. People around here are good like that."

[Yumi Baker]

"yeah well people don't understand most of the time." i say a bit cold before i think through my words.

[Rowan Hunt]

"You'd be surprised," I shrug, not paying any attention to her cold tone.
I'd received it many times before when talking about this subject anyway. I knew it was hopeless, I don't know why I bothered trying. I just couldn't bear to see it happen to anyone else.
I don't say anything more, deciding it's probably best to drop the subject.

[Yumi Baker]

i let out a soft sgh and run my hand through my hair. "i'm sorry..." i sigh "normally i'm more-...normally i just-...you're-..." i sigh softly unable to finish a sentance, or look his way. i was afraid to see if he had that look in his eyes.

[Rowan Hunt]

"Don't worry about it," I reply.
I had no pity, I was starting to think I was incapable of pity. Sympathy and pity did nothing. They didn't help, they just made things worse, I knew that much.
Then I jump as Poppy leaps up off the step next to me and starts trying to catch a bug on the floor, I laugh softly.

[Yumi Baker]

i laugh and look down at her. "mia does that...only she does it to brett and shouts she's a pirate..." i chuckle, "and can you do something for me?" i ask

[Rowan Hunt]

I laugh softly, "Have to introduce Poppy to them sometime. She could use friends of her age rather than just having to put up with me all the time."
"Yeah, sure."

[Yumi Baker]

"you can come by my flat anytime you want so they can. brett is with my friend peter, and mia is with her other mum. long story.. just don't come in the morning. hate mornings." i chuckle
"and it's kind of one of two things. can i erase that from you're memory. i don't lie my friends knowing that and i wanted to be friends with you..if not that, don't mention it to anyone. i've worked bloody hard to keep it hidden. told to many lies for it to come out. well i haven't lied lately. no one's noticed, thankfully."

[Rowan Hunt]

"Don't worry, mornings are my mortal enemy, no probem." I smile slightly.
"Well, I'd rather not a memory charm, I've had too many of those. But we can still be friends, I swear I don't judge. I won't tell a soul, no worries."