arthur...i'm sorry..

[Molly Weasley]

i sat at the end of the stairs crying. i didn't care that people were watching or looking. i didn't care about that. i just sat there crying. i was looking at the ring arthur had given me and i couldn't stand it. i hated myself so much. i knew that i messed up and i never should have done it, but i had to tell him the truth and end it. he was to good for me, i always knew it. then i go and do something like that. so i sat there wating for arthur to show up, balling my eyes out.

[Arthur Weasley]

''Molly?'' i asked seeing her crying as i walked down the stairs

[Molly Weasley]

hearing his voice i cried more. i knew what i was about to do was going to break his heart, but i had to do this. it wasn't fair to him for me to do this. i just kept crying, unable to look at him

[Arthur Weasley]

''Molly whats wrong.'' i asked

[Molly Weasley]

"i'm a sluty whore thats whats wrong." i cry. i took a deep breath, but had tears falling down my face still at a steady pace. "i was playing a prank on this new guy. just a-a prank. i like pulling pranks then he started to cry. i didn't know why so i tried to calm him down." i say crying again. "so he hugs me and says thank you and all that and he goes onto how he doesn't have anyone to care about or being his friend so i offered to be his friend, feeling bad for him. and offered for him to hang out with me and my friends then he kissed my cheek and said that he loved me. i thought he meant that he loved me like a sister because i kiss fay and gid's cheeks all the time and say that i love them. he took it as that i loved him" i say trying to calm down but my hands started to shake, "then he asked if i was seeing anyone, and i told him about you. he got all mad and left, i didn't know why so i followed. then something happened, he just fell. i had to help him i couldn't leave him. so i take him up to the hospital wing and then i fall alseep. when i wake up i see that he's hugging me. i hug him back then a few things lead to another and we kiss. i didn't pull away.." i say my hands shaking more than ever before "then he said he loved me and kissed me again. i didn't pull away at first then i did. i pulled away when i remembered you and how much i loved you.." i say trying to calm down. it wasn't working. "you don't derserve me. i'm a cheating sluty whore. you deserve much much better than me. i don't derserve to be having your baby." i say and pull his ring off my finger "i don't derserve to be getting married to you. you don't derserve to be getting married to a whore" i say softly and grab his hand and put the ring in his palm and close his hand and get up, holding my baby bump and start to go up the stairs as quick as i can. which isn't that quick but at least i could try.

[Arthur Weasley]

''Molly.'' i said and grabbed her wrist. ''You wernt being a whore, you were following your heart. If he makes you happy you should follow it. I want you to be happy, and if its not with me, then i guess its alright. Beacuse im never here, and i bet he will.'' i paused. ''And its my fault, im not here, and you deserve to have someone who is.'' i said, i was i little mad, but i pushed it away

[Molly Weasley]

"please let go of my wrist. justin emerson broke it, and some guy rebroke it and it hasn't really healed." i say now crying because of the pain in my wrist and the pain in my heart "and i'm happy with you. i want to be with you. and it's not your fault your never around." i cry. "i shouldn't have done that. i knew i loved you, but i still did it. it was only a kiss and i only kissed him twice." i say, thinking that i at least should try and defend myself some what. "but arthur you derserve much better than me." i cry

[Arthur Weasley]

i dropped her wrist gently. ''No, i dont.'' i said. ''I dont even deserve you.''

[Molly Weasley]

"what?" i ask taking a step closer. "arthur, you derserve a prety girl that won't do to you what i did." i pause trying to calm myself down. i had gotten my hands to stop shaking, but i was still crying. "arthur you derseve a beautiful girl that will love you and be able to be everything i'm not. no matter how much i want to be the girl you deserve, i can't. i'll never be good enough for you." i cry

[Arthur Weasley]

''I think your beautiful.'' i said. ''Not like other girls, your unique. And i think your perfect.'' i stated

--Cas is like have troubles down by the lake in confused and would like to talk to you--

[Molly Weasley]

"if i'm so perfect then why did i kiss another guy when i bloody knew that i loved you with my whole heart?" i cry, "i love you arthur weasley..but you have every right to hate me. and that's what's killing me. i messed everything up. i messed up our babys life, and i messed up my life." i cry looking down and shaking my hair so it covers my face.

ooc-ok. be right there

[Arthur Weasley]

''I dont hate you Molly.'' i said softly. ''I could ever hate you.''

[Molly Weasley]

"why don't you?" i ask shocked, "you should. you should hate me. i kissed him when i can feel your baby inside of me. i've got a constant reminder of you with me everywhere i go." i say crying again. "i had a constant reminder of how happy i am and how much happier i would have been when we got married." i say sitting back down again with my head in my hands crying.

[Arthur Weasley]

''Molly.'' i said sitting down beside her. ''Dont ask why, i just cant.'' i said. ''I couldnt imagin it.''

[Molly Weasley]

i nod wiping my face. "well what are we going to do?" i ask softly, "i'm still pregnant." i sigh.

[Arthur Weasley]

''I cant control you.'' i said. ''Its your choice.''

[Molly Weasley]

i nod my head. i stayed silent, not because i was trying to decide who to choose. i was trying to figure out why he was being calm about this.