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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 5:22:22 GMT
Saphire opened her mouth slightly, giving him access, as always. She used one of her hands to grab at the hair on the back of Jerami's perfect framed head, and with the other one continued to hold him close. It was times liek this that Saphire felt the most vulnarable, and she wasnt sure she liked it. It was a scary thought, having someone else in charge of you for even a milisecond of your life.
She continued to kiss him, despite the voice in her head telling her stop. She began to travel inside is head, taking her time. She wanted to bath in his thoughts, gets the full of them and fullfill her thirst for even a second to know what he thought about. She saw small glimpses of other woman, and a boy. This was a rather shocking sight to the girls senses, but oddly attractive. Moving on she saw herself..Several times in fact.
Saphire wanted to pull out then, but her hunger wouldn't allow it. She continued threw the maze of thoughts, picking them off one by one. She caught a glimsp of something..but not a sight. It was more of a feeling. Love? She wasn't sure and she put her eyebrows together in slight confusion. She never thought of Jerami being able to feel such an emotion.
With that htought she pulled her lips from his and opened her eyes. She looked at him, wanting him to open his eyes as well.
She was there now, feeling the emotion full on now.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 5:25:53 GMT
Jerami instantly shut her out when she pulled away and opened his eyes. He was slightly confussed, was she trying to toy with him like he did her. If so he didn't mind. It was kinda a turn on. "To much luv?" Jerami said with a raised eyebrow "Or and you trying to prove to yourself that you hate me entirely?"
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 5:31:04 GMT
She shook her head, trying to get the image back. It was rather hard to explain what she saw, seeing as she didn't actually see anything.
"Do.." She stopped looking at him agian. He seemed amused, but what she felt said differently.
"Love??" She asked. "You.." She pointed to him "Love me?" She asked in a whisper.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 5:35:35 GMT
Jerami looked at her as if she had just told the best joke ever. And snuffled a laugh. Shaking his head he looked at her and smiled. "Luv you've knowed me since i was a wee little lad. Have I ever loved, TRUELY loved, any one? No. So the answer is no. I don't." Jerami said deniing it all and keeping his head locked tight.
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 5:41:35 GMT
Saphire let her jaw tighten as she removed his arms from around her. THis was crazy, and now she was left alone again. She felt like an idiot..not for seeing it, but for asking about it. She knows what she saw and she felt bad for this boy.
"You know what" She said getting up. "I know what I saw..and not only what I saw, but what I felt when I saw it" She looked down at him "ANd those weren't my feelings I felt, because I know how I feel about you" She shook her head and crossed her arms.
"I feel sadly sorry for you, Your going to be alone all your life" She raised an eyebrow at him,.. and she knew he wouldn't listen to her but that didn't mean she couldn't say how she felt.
"Even when your fucking some ditsy blonde, you'll be alone. When someone gets pregnant because your a moron, you'll be alone. When you leave this place you'll be alone. When you take over for Voldemort, you'll be alone" She shook her head agian, and began to walk away.
"Poor fucking little Heightington" She said angerly. "Such a moron he can't even see whats right in front of his face.."
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 5:47:47 GMT
Jerami stood up slowly and turned towards her. "Oh and whats infront of my face? A girl who only fucks a guy to feel wanted, loved, even though the next day they'll be gone before she wakes up and she goes and finds another just to feel those emotions for a few minutes. Is that what i'm not seeing? Or maybe the girl who does't even figure it out that no matter how many times she runs away. She always, ALWAYS comes back to me. Poor little fucking me. ANd why is that? Because she thinks that, maybe, just maybe she can make him love her like she wants him to." He said angerly trying to cover the bit of upset he was feeling.
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 5:53:11 GMT
She glared before closing her eyes and looking away.
"Maybe if this boy woudl just admit..for once in his life.. something real The girl your talking about wouldn't feel like she does" SHe looked at him again, blinking.
Her voice was quiet, shaking, not angry but not calm either.
He was right, and she knew that, but who's fault was it?
"Maybe if the one person this girl actually cared about didn't treat her like crap, she wouldn't be the way she is. "
She walked towards him, and let her voice get a bit louder.
"And this boy cares for her, because if he didn't, he woudln't have put so much effort into turning the only other person she loved against her."
Tony was a soft spot for Saphire, she cared about him. He cared about her, at least before Jerami got involved..he ruined anything, and everything that was good for her.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 5:58:10 GMT
With her being about two feet from him Jerami grabbed her and pulled her in to a deep kiss and a rough, but sort of caring hug. He was acting on impulse,wants, and perhps even feelings? If he would of kept talking then something bad would of happened. Well worse anyways. His hands rubbed at her side and one went to her cheek storking it gently.
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 6:01:25 GMT
Sahpire, discusted, pushed him away from her.
"NO!" She yelled at him, tears now falling before she fell to her knees on the ground.
"Do you enjoy seeing me like this?" She whispered, looking down while shaking her head.
She didn't get it. Why a person want to make anyone feel this way? Whether he loved or not, it didn't matter. She didn't make anyone feel like she did when near him. It wasn't neccassary. Jerami always went the extra mile though when torturing someone. He enjoyed their pain, fed off it.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 6:06:27 GMT
"GOD DAMN IT SAPHIRE AMY LYNN!" He yelled and punched a nearby tree. "Like i said you've know me since i was a damn child. Do you think I like this feeling. How fucking strange it is to me. NO ONE, ABSOLUTELY NO ONE! NOT EVEN HANNAH WHEN WE FIRST WERE MARRIED MADE ME FEEL SO GOD DAMN CONFUSED ABOUT MYSELF!" He yelled and shook his head. His knuckles bloodied by the one punch. "You saw it, you know its there, But I don't know how to show it. And you know i don't like know how to not do something and giving another person power over me. YOU know I HATE that."
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 6:09:56 GMT
She looked up at him, teary eyed. "Don't you blame this on me" She said standing up slowly.
"NOt for one second do you think your going to make me feel bad because you don't understand something so simply as an emotion" She said, eyes into slits.
"AND!" She said loudly, throwing her hand in the air. "I really don't give a damn if YOUR confused, because I have enough fucking problems without YOURS aswell!!" She shook her head and looked at him.
"YOu know how you feel, all I wanted was for you to admit it. FOr once, be a human being and admit that your ONLY human"
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 6:14:52 GMT
Jerami looked over at her. "Will that make you happy? If i admit it. If I give you that little bit of info that gives you power over me?"
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 6:17:13 GMT
She looked down, not saying anything.
Saphire didn't want to know for power. She didn't want something to hold over him. She needed to know for her own wellbeing.
She shook her head. "YOu don' have to do anythig for me" She turned herself around, facing away from her to hide her face.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 6:23:50 GMT
Jerami sighed and looked down at the ground. "Saphire.....I'm.......Sorry." Jerami said quitely. " For everything i've put you through." He said and walked up to her. "I....Love you." he said. Finally admitting it. Not only to her... but in a way, to himself.
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 6:30:49 GMT
She looked over her shoulder to look at him and sighed.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 6:31:42 GMT
Jerami turned away from her and looked up at the sky. "I don't know what else i can say."
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 6:35:13 GMT
"There isn't anything else for you to say Jerami" She said slowly while getting up.
She has happy he admitted it, but in a way scared. She felt she had to admit to something as well now andshe didn't like that. She now felt trapped, like a mouse in a cage.
She walked up behind him and snuck her arms around his waste, linking her fingers together on his stomache. "Thank you" She whispered in his ear while resting her cheek on his back.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 6:37:21 GMT
Jerami stood there. Teanse at first. But then relaxed. This feeling of not having to keep it secret was good. But also bad. His biggest secret and weakness was now reveiled. "Your welcomed luv."
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 6:48:02 GMT
She hugged him close to her, even though he was alot bigger then her she liked hugging him from behind. She felt good being behind him and had a slight grin on her face.
"Yup.." She whispered, closing her eyes.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 6:49:53 GMT
Turning around Jerami looked down at her. "Does this mean we have to have soft sex?"
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 6:52:02 GMT
Saphire laughed and playfully hit him on the chest.
"Creep..."
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 6:54:45 GMT
Jerami grinned eviling and then grabbed her tighs and picked her up. Biting on her neck.
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 7:01:27 GMT
"Gah!" She shouted with a laugh as he lifted her up.
"I don't agree with this.." She commented, putting her arms around his neck.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 18:00:41 GMT
"Well I don't see your arms complaiing."
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 18:02:05 GMT
She stuck her toungue out at him then unraveled her arms from his neck.
"Yes they are" She huffed and crossed her arms on her folded stomache.
In all truth, Saphrie loved when he carried her. She wasn't sure why..maybe she liked the attention she didn't know.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 18:08:55 GMT
"Oh really?" jerami said and "Tripped" but made sure she was ok as they fell. Him hovering over her, he smiled. "Opps."
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 18:11:54 GMT
With a quirked eyebrow she called him a creep before pulling him down for a kiss.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 18:16:14 GMT
Jerami smirked. "You know.." But was cut off bye her lips around his.
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Post by Saphire Amy Lynn on Nov 24, 2007 18:18:15 GMT
She smirked against his lips. She felt good, finally knowing for sure how he felt.
Some sense of securaty (Sp?) was good for her, she needed that concrete foundation.
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Post by Jerami Heightington on Nov 24, 2007 18:27:32 GMT
Opening his mind again he let her in a bit futher then before. His kissing was rough but passonite at the same time. Just how they both like it.
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